Kyle
I was still trying to wrap my head around kissing Colby. I was happy that we were finally talking and getting along, but that had to cross a line. Why would I even want to kiss another man? It was just a lapse of judgement while I was drunk. I couldn’t shake the feeling that it all meant something more, that something more happened that night. Colby did say he kissed me back, did this mean anything more to him? I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I think we need to have another talk.
I was going to spend the week helping dad work on his truck and I had made plans to meet a few of my high school friends to catch up. Dad and my friends all kept asking if everything was ok, they told me I seemed preoccupied. I told them I was fine, I was just thinking about a project at the shop we would be starting when I got back home. I’m not sure how convincing I was. A couple of days before I was going to head back to Colorado, I decided to stop by the bar to see Colby.
He chuckled as I sat down at the bar, and asked, “you want a shot of tequila?”
I rolled my eyes, “no thank you, just a beer please.”
After he gave me my beer, he left to wait on a few other customers, I was finishing my beer as he returned, he asked, “do you want another?”
I shook my head, “no thanks, just stopped in for one. What time do you get off work?”
He said, “we’ll probably close about midnight tonight. Why?”
I shrugged, “I kind of wanted to talk to you, would it be ok if I came to your place after you get home?”
He nodded, “sure, that would be fine, I’ll send you a text when I leave.”
I smiled, “great, I’ll see you later.”
Colby looked a bit concerned as I paid for my beer and left the bar. I got his text a couple of hours later, and I pulled into his driveway just as he was getting home.
He let me in, I said, “thanks for letting me come over.”
He shrugged, “sure, anytime. Do you want anything to drink?”
I said, “a bottle of water if you have it.”
He returned from the kitchen with two bottles and asked, “so what did you want to talk to me about?”
I took a big drink, emptying about half the bottle, I said, “I guess I wanted to talk about that kiss.”
He sighed, “I’m sorry Kyle, I should have stopped you. I promise no one will ever know and I will never try anything like that again.”
I said, “but I was the one who started it. Something deep inside me must have wanted to do it.”
He looked at me suspiciously, “what are you saying Kyle?”
I finished the rest of my water, I said, “I don’t think I was repulsed by the kiss. I can’t explain it, but I can’t stop thinking about it.”
Colby looked shocked, he said, “you were drunk, it was wrong of me not to stop you.”
I shook my head, “no Colby, I was the one who started it, I just don’t want to lead you on.”
He sighed, “first of all, I know you have no interest in me… in that way. To be honest, I have never thought of you that way either.”
I nodded, “yeah, I know that, but I can’t help but feel like something more happened that night.”
Colby hung his head, “there was something else.”
I asked, “what do you mean?”
He took a deep breath, “I already told you that I kissed you back, but when you were standing there, well, it had been months since… I’m sorry Kyle, I lost my head, and I sucked your cock.”
I just looked at Colby, not sure what to say. I can’t even say that I was upset.
He continued, “I’m so sorry, you just looked so hot, it had been so long since I had been with anyone. I wanted to tell you the next day, but I…”
I said, “I’m not mad Colby, I’m not sure how I feel. Did I… um… return the favor?”
Colby shook his head, “no, you never touched me, you didn’t do anything.”
I was silent.
He said, “I promise, I will never do anything like that again and it goes without saying that no one else will ever know about this.”
I was trying to process this new information, still unsure why I was not more upset. Colby was shifting uncomfortably in his chair as silence filled the room, our eyes locked on each other. Those blue eyes suddenly had me in a trance and my mind was racing.
Colby broke the silence, “please Kyle, say something, hit me, I don’t care, just do something.”
I shrugged, “I’m not upset Colby, I don’t want to hit you.”
He asked, “so what do you want to do? What do you want me to do?”
I paused a moment, “I was drunk, and I don’t remember much of that night, will you let me see what it’s like when I’m sober?”
His eyes went wide, “you want to kiss me?”
I swallowed hard, “yes, I think I do, if you want to.”
He just stared at me as I stood up and walked toward him. He stood up when I reached him and we slowly moved closer, our lips finally met. My hands went to the side of his face as Colby grabbed my hips. Our tongues started to wrestle as we parted our lips. I still have no idea why I wanted to kiss him so badly, but I wanted to keep this up for as long as I could.
We finally broke the kiss, I asked, “did I do ok?”
Colby nodded, “yeah, you were great.”
I leaned back in, and we resumed making out for another 10 minutes at least. I panted, “do you want to take this to your bedroom?”
He looked at me, “are you sure?”
I nodded, “I am sure.”
As soon as we got into the bedroom, I spun Colby around and kissed him again. I slowly reached down and pulled his shirt up over his head, he stared at me wide eyed as I tossed the shirt to the floor. I paused as I admired his taught body, I let my hands explore his smooth chest and back. I was amazed at how different his soft skin felt compared to Claire’s, his hard muscles gave me something I have never felt before. I gave Colby another kiss as I began to unbutton his pants, they fell to the floor when I got them unzipped. I went to my knees in front of him as he held onto my shoulders, and I lifted each of his feet to remove his pants. I stayed on my knees as I ran my hands up and down his legs, looking up at Colby. My eyes moved down to the bulge in the front of his briefs, the bulge was much bigger than the one I noticed the day before. I ran my hands up his legs, then his hips, stopping at the waistband of his underwear. I hooked a finger on each side and slowly lowered his underwear until his fully erect member popped free. Colby kept his hands on my shoulders, and I finished removing his cloths. I again took a moment to admire his now completely naked body.
I looked up at him and said, “I have never done this before, so tell me if I am doing anything wrong.”
He just nodded as I flicked my tongue across the head of his swollen manhood, a slight gasp escaped his lips. I was a little surprised that I liked the taste of his precum, I had never even tasted my own before. I swirled my tongue around the tip then licked up one side and then down the other. I never paid too much attention to other guy’s dick size before, it’s not like I have seen a lot of dicks before. Colby’s full hard six inches seemed to be just right. I lowered my mouth onto his cock, going as far as I could before I began to cough. I pulled back and slowly started to go deeper with every stroke until my nose was buried in his soft blonde pubs. Colby moaned as his grip on my shoulders tightened. He gasped, “you have me close, please stop so I can suck you too.” I stood and we shared another kiss as I removed my clothes and then we fell onto the bed in a sixty-nine position. I laid on my back as Colby climbed on top of me with his cock dangling above my face. He took my member into his mouth as I licked another drop of precum from his purple mushroom head. I sighed as I took him back into my mouth and we both began to bob up and down on each other. I had never imagined that sucking a cock would be just as enjoyable as getting my cock sucked. Colby reached up and started to massage my nuts, causing my cum to begin to rise to the point of no return. With my mouth full of Colby’s cock, I couldn’t warn him. He obviously had the same problem, we both erupted at the same time. We kept our lips tightly gripping each other until our spasms finally stopped. We reluctantly released our cocks and moved around to share another kiss.
I’m not sure what I was expecting, but I didn’t hate what had just happened.
Colby
Why was I still having these damn dreams about Kyle? We were getting along a little better now, but there could never be anything more than just a civil friendship between us. Maybe I should agree to a real date with Collin, that might get my mind off of Kyle.
I was a little surprised when Kyle stopped at the bar and told me that he wanted to come to my place to talk after I got off work. I began to panic, I was sure that he remembered what else happened that night in the shower. How was I going to explain what I did? Maybe he wanted to beat the hell out of me. I suppose that would do the trick to get him out of my mind, plus I would probably never have to see him again.
Leah noticed that I was sort of dragging my feet doing our after closing clean up. She asked, “what’s up with you tonight, you seem a little preoccupied.”
I shrugged, “oh nothing, I guess I’m not in a hurry to go home.”
She asked, “why not?”
I said, “Kyle stopped by earlier and wants to talk to me when I get home.”
She said, “so. I thought you guys worked things out.”
I sighed, “yeah, we did.”
“So, what’s the problem?”
I shrugged, “I’m not sure what he wants to talk about.”
She asked, “did he seem upset?”
I shook my head, “no.”
She laughed, “then relax, it sounded like you guys had a nice talk last time. Maybe he just wants to have another heart to heart.”
I said, “I guess, maybe I am worried about nothing.” I’m not sure who I was trying to convince more, me or Leah.
My stomach was flipping as Kyle followed me into my house, preparing for him to be pissed at me. As I gave him a bottle of water, he didn’t look like he was mad at me. My stomach sank again when he started to talk about our kiss, and I finally came clean about giving him a blow job. The rest of the conversation and then Kyle suggesting we go to the bedroom left my head spinning. It was as if I was having an out of body experience. I didn’t regain my senses until I had my mouth full of Kyle’s cum and I had given him mine.
Kyle was first to speak after we shared our final kiss, “that was pretty intense.”
I nodded, “yeah, I’m not sure what to say.”
He asked, “did you not enjoy it?”
I quickly said, “oh no, I enjoyed it very much. I just wasn’t expecting it, that’s all.”
He said, “I liked it too. To be honest, I have never cum from a blow job before. Of course, I have only had girls suck me. I have always heard guys do it better, I guess it’s true.”
I chuckled, “well, and I mean this as a compliment, you are a natural.”
He smiled, “I just did what I like done to me.”
We sat in an uncomfortable silence for a minute. Before I could think of anything to say, Kyle got out of bed and said, “I suppose I should go, we are having Christmas with my dad’s side of the family tomorrow. Can I call you before I go back to Colorado?”
I nodded, “sure, call anytime.”
I walked him to the door, he paused and turned back to me. He nervously gave me a quick kiss. I fell back onto my couch, trying to wrap my head around what had just happened. I went to bed and tossed and turned, finally falling asleep just as the sun was coming up. I got up a few hours later, relieved I didn’t have to work tonight. I made myself something to eat and turned on the TV, nothing was catching my attention. I was too busy trying to process the events of the night before.
I felt like I needed to talk to someone about this. I searched my very short friend list and sent a text to Collin. He agreed to come to my place later today. I started to regret my decision to have Collin over when I thought about what Leah had told me. Will he read too much into this, especially since it seemed he wanted to be more than friends. I didn’t want to lead him on, hell, I still don’t know what I want. What did Kyle want? Damn it Gavin, my life was so much better when you were still here.
I took a deep breath as I let Collin in. He smiled, “thanks for inviting me over.”
I said, “thanks for coming.”
He noticed the look on my face, he asked, “what’s the matter?”
I shrugged as I got us both something to drink, “I really need someone to talk to.”
Collin sighed, “I have already told you, you can talk to me anytime.”
I nodded, “yeah, I know, I appreciate it. It’s about Kyle, will that bother you.”
I saw the disappointment in his eyes, he said, “no, that’s fine.”
I took a deep breath, “I guess I should start with what happened a few days ago. He stopped at the bar and had too much to drink. Bob had me drive him home, only Kyle didn’t want to go to his folk’s place, so I brought him here. He got sick and puked all over both of us, I helped him into the shower.”
Collin asked, “did you shower with him?”
I nodded, “yes, I had my underwear on, but he was naked. Well… he sort of kissed me, then I lost my head and took things a little further.”
He said, “how much further?”
I said, “I sucked him.”
He asked, “did he…?”
I shook my head, “no, not that night.”
Collin’s eyes went wide, “that night?”
I hung my head, “he wanted to talk to me last night, he came over and this time he did.”
He said, “but I thought Kyle was straight.”
I said, “so did I, so did he, shit, I don’t know anything anymore and I don’t think Kyle does either. He just said he wanted to see what it was like when he was sober”
Collin thought for a moment, “wow, I don’t know what to say.”
I nodded, “I know, I’m sorry for laying all of this on you, I just didn’t have anyone else to talk to.”
He said, “I told you that you could tell me anything.”
I said, “I know, I guess I needed to get someone else’s thoughts on this thing with Kyle. I feel guilty about moving on from Gavin, especially with his cousin. I was getting the feeling that you wanted to be more than friends. As soon as I invited you over tonight, I was worried that you might get the wrong impression. God Collin, I like you, I like spending time with you. I just know I don’t think I am ready for any relationship.”
Collin said, “so you aren’t ready for a relationship with me, but you are with Kyle?”
I sighed, “no, that’s not it at all. I don’t know what Kyle wants from this, for I all know, he was just curious.”
He said, “so you haven’t talked to him today?”
I shook my head, “no.”
He asked, “when are you going to talk to him?”
I shrugged, “I don’t know, I think he goes back to Colorado tomorrow.”
Collin said, “Colby, you are right, I would like us to be more than friends. I have tried to be respectful of your feelings for Gavin and am willing to wait. Now you are telling me that you might have feelings for Kyle. I’m not sure I want to wait to see where things with him go.”
I sighed, “I’m sorry Collin, I should have never told you all of this. I have no idea if I have feelings for Kyle. Shit, I don’t know anything anymore.”
He said, “I’m sorry Colby, I know I’m not much help. This is something that you need to work out on your own. Any advice that I give would only be to benefit me, I would just tell you that Kyle has treated you like shit your whole life. I think you need to talk to Kyle and see what his intentions are, and you need to decide what you want.”
I took a deep breath, “I know you’re right, I’m sorry about all of this and thanks for listening.”
Collin stood to leave, “you’re welcome, I guess. I admit, I was hoping you wanted to talk to me about us. But I see you have some things to work out.”
I fell back onto the couch after Collin left. Damn it Kyle, why the hell can’t you just leave me alone.
The next night was New Year’s Eve, and the bar was busy. I still had not heard from Kyle, nor had I called him. I knew he was going back to Colorado tomorrow, by the time I went to bed on New Year’s Day, I still had not talked to him.
To be Continued…
