Kyle
My head was pounding as I woke up on the morning of Christmas Eve. I panicked for a moment when I didn’t recognize where I was. I slowly started to regain my bearings, shit, I was at Colby’s house, and I was in his bed. As my mind cleared a little more, I realized I was naked, fuck, where are my clothes? I searched my mind for more memories to try to figure out why I was here, of all places. I remembered stopping at the bar and talking to Colby, but that’s when things start to get fuzzy. I rubbed my head, shit, that God damn Charlie. Every time I see him, he talks me into drinking tequila shots, I know better than to drink them after I have had a few beers, it never ends well. I sat up on the side of the bed, causing my head to pound even more. I needed to pee so bad, thankfully the bathroom was off the bedroom. When I came out of the bathroom, I could smell coffee and if I wasn’t mistaken, the smell of bacon cooking also filled the air. I looked around the room and couldn’t see any of my clothes, so I wrapped a blanket around me and walked out to the kitchen. As I walked through the living room, I noticed a pillow and blanket on the couch. I sighed a breath of relief, at least Colby slept on the couch, or it appeared that way at this point.
Colby turned as he heard me shuffle into the kitchen, he was just wearing a pair of boxer briefs. He took a sip of his coffee as he said, “good morning.”
I nodded, “yeah, morning.”
He smiled, “how is your head?”
I sighed, “it hurts like hell, and I can’t remember anything after I started drinking tequila.”
Colby chuckled, “yeah, you were pretty out of it.”
I asked, “why am I here?”
He said, “you told me you didn’t want to wake your folks, so I brought you here to sober up before you went home.”
“And my truck?”
He motioned toward the door, “in the driveway.”
I asked, “did I drive it here?”
He shook his head, “no, I drove you here in your truck.”
I took a deep breath as I pulled the blanket tighter around me, “what about my clothes?”
Colby laughed, “wow, you really don’t remember anything do you?”
I shook my head, “no.”
He said, “as I was helping you to the house, you got sick, all over both of us. I put your clothes in the washer, they are in the dryer right now and should be dry soon. I put you in the shower and you collapsed on my bed before I could give you anything to wear. I gave you a blanket and I slept on the couch.”
I hung my head, “sorry I was so much trouble.”
Colby filled and handed me a cup of coffee, he smiled, “it’s ok, my couch is actually pretty comfortable. Would you like me to get you a pair of shorts or something to wear until the dryer is done?”
I just nodded.
We went back to the bedroom, Colby pulled two shirts and shorts from his dresser, handing one set to me. He pulled his on and walked out saying, “breakfast is just about ready, you are welcome to stay if you are hungry.”
I said, “thanks.” I pulled his clothes on, they were a little small for me, but at least I didn’t have to hold the blanket around me. I walked back out to the kitchen and took another drink of my coffee, God I needed that. Colby handed me a bottle of aspirin, which was also very appreciated.
He smiled as he set a plate with eggs, bacon and hashbrowns down in front of me. There was also toast in the center of the table. I suddenly realized that I hadn’t eaten since yesterday noon, which probably contributed to my getting so drunk. I must admit, the greasy bacon and eggs were also helping my hangover.
I asked, “do you want me to give you a ride to get your Ranger?”
Colby shrugged, “you don’t have to, Bob said I could call him, and he would come get me today.”
I said, “well, it’s probably the least I could do, after all you have done for me.”
He said, “thanks, I would appreciate it.”
I asked, “are you coming for Christmas Day with the family?”
Colby shrugged, “Carla invited me. but I haven’t decided yet.”
I chuckled, “you know she is going to make me come pick you up again if you don’t show up.”
He laughed, “yeah, you’re probably right. I guess I don’t have anything else going on, Bob never opens the bar on Christmas Day.”
I said, “I know it would mean a lot to Aunt Carla for you to be there.”
Colby sighed, “I know, it’s just hard to get through all these firsts without Gavin.”
I nodded, “yeah, it has been hard for all of us, I guess that’s why we need to help each other.”
He looked at me and didn’t say anything. I said, “I’m sorry if it didn’t seem like I was being supportive. I guess I haven’t been dealing with this whole thing very well either.”
Colby smiled, “how about we kind of do a reset. We both have made some mistakes. It’s clear we both love Gavin, but we shouldn’t treat it as a competition.”
I smiled back, “I like that idea, now you have no reason to not show up for Christmas.”
He nodded, “ok, I’ll be there.”
The dryer signaled that it was done, and Colby pulled my clothes out and handed them to me. He chuckled, “these will probably fit you better.”
I was looking out the back door at my truck as I burst out laughing. He asked, “what’s so funny?”
I said, “I have my suitcase in my truck, there is a full week’s worth of my clothes in there.”
After I got dressed, Colby also changed clothes into something warmer so we could go get his Ranger. He told me to be careful as we walked out the door, since the sidewalk was a little icy because he had washed it the night before.
I hung my head as I saw my puke in the grass, “sorry about that.”
He laughed, “I’m sure it will snow soon and get covered up, don’t worry about it.”
Colby handed me an envelope with my name on it as we got into my truck. I again told him that he didn’t have to pay me back, but he insisted, so I just threw the envelope on the dash and dropped him at the bar to get his truck. I did stay until I knew it started, just in case.
I walked in the house, mom and dad were surprised I was home so early. I lied and said that I got an early start, I didn’t think they needed to hear about my actions from the night before. I got caught up with them until it was time for lunch and after we ate, I excused myself to go take a nap. My head was still pounding, and I knew my sister and her family were coming over for dinner. I was hoping I would feel better by then so I could play with my niece.
As I lay in bed trying to sleep, a few more memories from last night started to come back to me. I started to recall the ride home in my truck and how I started to feel my stomach begin to churn. As soon as we got out of the truck and the cool night air hit me, I knew I was going to puke. I held it until we got near the back door. I was embarrassed all over again, even though Colby had been a good sport about the whole thing. That’s when I started to think about waking up naked and Colby telling me he helped me take a shower. I guess it doesn’t bother me that he saw me naked, I’m secure enough in my manhood to let another man see me nude. I’m glad I was too drunk to be bothered by him washing me. I now kind of remember him being the shower with me, but he was still in his underwear, so, I guess that was ok too.
I started thinking about seeing Colby standing there this morning cooking breakfast in his underwear. I had never really noticed if another man was attractive or not before. The first thing I saw was his ass covered only with thin cloth of his briefs. His ass was as nice as any that I have seen on any woman. When he turned toward me, I also couldn’t help but notice a nice bulge in front. Again, I have never spent much time thinking about dick size before, why would I notice that? His smooth chest wasn’t as muscular as mine, but it was nicely defined. The same was true of his legs, they were virtually hairless and not too thick. I would say that he had a runners or swimmers build, at least that is what I heard it referred to whenever I heard people talking about men’s body types. As we had our long talk this morning, his eyes flashed in my mind, he did have nice blue eyes that matched his blonde hair. They even sparkled when he smiled, I guess he hadn’t had much to smile about in the last few months, so it had been a while since I had seen that sparkle. When I thought about his lips, I suddenly panicked.
Holy shit, did I kiss Colby last night?
Colby
I was driving back home after Kyle dropped me off to pick up my Ranger. I was suddenly wracked with guilt. I really should have resisted kissing Kyle and I sure as hell should not have sucked his cock. I know it’s no excuse, but in my defense, it had been over six months since I had been with another man. Gavin has been gone for over three months already, and when he was sick it just wasn’t on our priority list of things to do. Now that I was thinking about it, it just wasn’t something that we even thought about while Gavin was going through treatments. My guilt hit even harder the longer I thought about it. Not only did I feel like I took advantage of Kyle while he was so drunk, now it felt like I was cheating on Gavin. I know that Gavin always told me to move on after he was gone, but it didn’t ease my feelings. The fact that the first man I was with after Gavin was his cousin certainly complicated things even more.
I returned home and started to clean up the breakfast dishes as I continued to think about the events of the last day. Damn it, I really should have told Kyle about what happened in the shower while we ate breakfast. Our talk was just going so well, I didn’t want to spoil it. I just have to hope that Kyle wouldn’t remember anything more, he certainly didn’t remember much this morning, so maybe I was still safe. Telling him everything now wouldn’t help matters, hell, nothing is going to come out of this anyway. Carla had told me that Kyle was dating a new girl out in Colorado. I decided that as long as Kyle didn’t bring it up, I wouldn’t.
After lunch, I headed to the bar for a short shift. Bob would close the bar at 9 on holidays, we would usually just get few guys stopping by after work for a quick beer before going home to their families. The bar was mostly empty by 8, so Leah and I were starting our clean up.
She asked, “so how did last night go?” She laughed as I gave her a look.
I said, “thanks for that by the way. Kyle ended up staying at my house after he puked all over the place and I had to clean him up.”
Her eyes went wide, “are you kidding me?”
I shook my head, “nope, I have a big pile of puke right next to my door.”
She asked, “why didn’t you take him to his parents’ place?”
I sighed, “he didn’t want to wake them up, they didn’t think he was coming home until today.”
She laughed, “I’m sorry, I just thought it would be a good chance for you guys to have a talk.”
I shrugged, “it actually was, he slept in my bed, and I slept on the couch. I made breakfast and we did have a good talk.” I, of course, didn’t give her the details of the kiss or anything else that happened in the shower.
She smiled, “see, so it was a good thing.”
Our last customer left, and we finished cleaning up. We wished each other a Merry Christmas and headed home. I made myself something to eat and headed to bed after I watched some TV.
Right after I got up in the morning, Carla called me to make sure I was coming for dinner. I assured her that I would be there.
She said, “we are eating at 1, if you are a minute late, I will be sending someone to come get you.”
I laughed, “I know, I will be there.”
Donna and Cal would be hosting since Carla hosted Thanksgiving.
I arrived before 1 and was welcomed warmly, just as I always was. This time even Kyle gave me a pleasant greeting. Donna and Carla made a great meal as they always did.
After we finished eating Donna said, “everyone to the living room so we can open presents.”
Carla pulled me aside, “I know things are tough for you right now, so don’t worry if you didn’t bring any gifts.”
I smiled, “thanks, but I was able to get you all something.”
Ever since Gavin and I had been together, the family has always gotten me something. I always tried to get them something as well. This year, it wasn’t anything expensive, but I got them all a gift.
Carla gave me a nice coat, she knew I needed one for winter, she of course put some money in one of the pockets. I gave her a gift card to her hairdresser, she always appreciated that. I gave Cal and Donna a gift card for their favorite restaurant, they did the same for me. Steph, Rob and I also exchanged gift cards. I grinned a bit as I handed Kyle his gift, he looked at me suspiciously, it was obviously not a gift card. He rolled his eyes as he pulled back enough wrapping paper to see what it was.
He shook his head and said, “thanks asshole.” I burst out laughing.
Everyone looked confused as Donna asked, “what is it, Kyle?”
He pulled the wrapper back to reveal a bottle of tequila, as he was now also laughing. Cal said, “I would guess there is an inside joke here.”
I nodded as I opened my gift card to the auto parts store that Kyle had given me, everyone laughed, as they all knew what that joke was about.
The rest of the day was pleasant, and I was glad that I was invited and decided to attend. I saw Kyle step out the back door a bit before I was ready to head home, I stepped out behind him.
He smiled, “hey, I just needed a breath of fresh air.”
I nodded, “yeah, sounds like a good idea.”
Kyle said, “thank you again for helping me out the other night and the bottle of tequila today was a nice touch.”
I said, “no problem.”
His expression turned more serious, he asked, “can I ask you something?”
Unsure of where this was going, I said, “of course.”
He said, “I keep remembering bits and pieces of more things that happened that night and I am pretty sure you were in the shower with me.”
I nodded, “yeah, I was.”
He continued, “if I imagined this, just tell me, and I won’t be mad either way. Did I kiss you?”
I felt my stomach flip, I took a deep breath, “yes, you did…”
Kyle interrupted, “I’m sorry, I don’t know why I did that.”
I shook my head, “no, I should be the one who is sorry. I should have stopped you, you were drunk and didn’t know what you were doing. To be honest I kissed you back.”
Kyle thought a minute, he said, “it’s ok, but if you don’t mind, I would prefer to keep this between us.”
I said, “of course, again, I’m sorry I didn’t stop you.”
He gave me a smile, “we’re good.”
Relieved, we went back inside, and I left a short time later. I was still a little disappointed in myself for not telling Kyle about the blow job, but I wasn’t sure how much more he could have handled.
I was working every night through New Year’s Eve. I was glad to have the distraction, anything to keep my mind off Kyle.
Of Course, it wasn’t enough. The next night, Kyle once again found his way into my dreams. Just like the night of the kiss, we were in the shower together. This time I didn’t have my underwear on, and we were kissing even more passionately than the first time. I wasn’t even trying to fight it, I reached down and stroked Kyle’s hard-as-steel rod. He moaned into my mouth as my hand worked its way up and down the entire length. I broke our kiss and began my trek down his sexy chest and stomach, leaving kisses the entire way. I looked up and smiled at Kyle as I let my tongue flick across his precum leaking cock head. Kyle shuddered as began to suck him in earnest, my nose hitting his pubes with every stroke. I was tugging my own manhood as I continued to bob up and down, just like I did on the first night. Just before I was ready to blow my load, Kyle pulled me to my feet. He gave me another kiss and grinned, “how about you give me that ass this time?” I was too far gone to resist, I quickly turned to wall with my hands up and ass cheeks spread. Kyle stepped behind me as he aimed his pole at the entrance to my love tunnel. He held my hips as he slowly pushed in and started to kiss the back of my neck. Damn it, he was pushing all of my buttons. The hot water was flowing over our bodies as we got into a rhythm and Kyle was pounding my sweet spot. I felt like we had just melted together, a feeling I had not had since I had last been with Gavin. I felt Kyle’s breath coming quicker, I could tell he was close and so was I. We both let out one final grunt as Kyle started to flood my hole with his seed. My own cock exploded, sending my juices flying against the shower wall, I had not even touched my dick.
I was suddenly startled awake, I slowly caught my breath as I realized it was all a dream. I ran my hand across my stomach and chest, smearing the fresh load of cum that I had just spilled. God, I really needed to get these feeling under control, I don’t know how much longer I can go thinking about Kyle like this.
To be Continued…
