Seth’s story
It was Sunday morning, and I woke up face-to-face with Zach on his tiny bed, my body pinned between his magnificent body and the wall. I stared at every chiseled feature of his beautiful face still fearful that he would freak out when he woke up in bed with me. I reached out to touch his face knowing that it might be the last time we were this intimate. Once he woke up, who knows what the hell would happen.
I touched him and stroked his warm, apple colored cheek. His eyes popped open. This was the moment of truth.
He broke into a huge smile and said “good morning” then gave me a peck on the lips. HE DIDN’T FREAK!
“Hi” I said still touching his cheek, my face covered in a smile that I had absolutely no control over. “How are you feeling?” I asked tentatively, hoping he felt the same as I did.
He hesitated, then said in a quiet voice “I feel perfect. Last night was so fucking right.” My heart sored as I grabbed his face with both hands and kissed him as hard as I could. He laughed.
“I was so afraid you’d regret it” I said.
“Nope. Not a single fucking regret.” He said smiling. “We still going to church? That feels a little weird don’t you think?”
“What feels weird?” I asked with a confused look on my face.
“Well, doing… you know, what we did, then going to church?” We both snickered a little.
“I gotta go and thank god for answering my prayers” I said. Yeah, it was corny as fuck. Zach rolled his eyes and laughed at me as he threw back the covers and got out of the bed. But I really did feel that way.
“You want to take a shower together?” Zach asked. “We’ll probably never be alone in this suite again; it may be our only chance.”
I jumped out of bed, “I’m in” I said running naked through the lounge and into my room to grab a towel. By the time I got into the bathroom, Zach was already in the shower under the water washing his hair. I got in behind him and pushed my hard cock against his perfect ass. He jumped in surprise, then flipped around and pulled me into a kiss. A wonderful, passionate kiss. We both pulled back and then smiled at each other.
“Wow. I can’t believe this happened.” I said.
“Get used to it, because this is just the beginning” Zach said as he started to soap up my naked body. He looked at my body with aw and wonderment, appreciating every inch of it as he soaped me up. When he got to my genitals, he looked at my face as if waiting for permission before he put his soapy hands on my balls. I just put my head back under the cascading water and moaned. That told him what he needed to know. “Wow, your dick is so warm.”
I put the shower gel in my hands and started to soap him up too. We looked at each other as our hands explored. The warmth and intimacy were new to us both, and it seemed like we were both waiting for the other to tell us to stop… that never happened. He stroked my hardon as I stroked his, we kissed lightly and I said, “We don’t have time, we’ve got to get ready to meet Max and Eric for church.” He laughed at that.
“We’re going to church after what we did” he said with a chuckle. “Who would’ve thought?”
We rinsed off, got out of the shower and grabbed our towels. As we dried off, I brought up the subject. “So, was this a one-time thing, or are we… you know… something more?”
He was holding his towel in both hands and shimmying it on his backside when he said “I want to be more, way more. I want to be, like, a couple.”
I freaking beamed and donned an ear-to-ear smile “I love that idea, but you know what that means, right? It means either you come out or we sneak around and lie. The whole reason I came out was because I was tired of lying, I can’t go back to that.”
Zach sighed “I know. Why do you think it took me a month to make my move on you? I had to think through it and get used to it. You’re not just a quick screw. You’re the one I want to be with” He said as I thought ‘yeah, keep saying stuff like that hot boy.’ “I’ve given it a lot of thought, I think there’s a compromise, if you’re willing.”
So, he’s been thinking about being with me? I was up for anything if it meant being with Zach “Let’s hear it.” I said as I continued to dry myself.
“It requires secrets for a little bit at least, but I think the end game will be worth the sacrifice” he said with a confident tone that told me he had this all worked out in his head. “I want to come out in phases. I’m ready to tell our suitemates and Max, that way we can be ourselves at home and don’t have to hide. They’ll all be good with it, except maybe Teddy.”
I laughed “Teddy will be fine once he realizes that the hottest guy in the dorm is no longer competition.”
“Exactly” Zach said, “more pussy for him” and we both started to laugh. “Are you cool with me telling them we’re dating?” he asked, I gave him a ‘hell yeah.’
“After that I’ll tell other people here like Gina and anyone else, we’re around regularly, that way you don’t have to lie for me.” I had stopped drying myself off and was standing there wrapped in my towel looking him in the eye as I listened. “It gets a little tricky after that and I don’t know all the answers. I’m not ready to come out to my teammates yet, and I’m definitely not ready to be out at home. I was hoping we could work through that stuff together.” He stopped talking and looked at me with a small, expectant grin.
Dammit he was cute, how the hell could I say no? “So basically, you’re adopting a need-to-know strategy, I can get on board with that. When do you tell our suitemates?” I asked.
He didn’t hesitate “Teddy comes back tonight; Max will probably be here hanging in our lounge with Eric. I’ll tell them then.”
I was impressed, he was jumping onto the fire headfirst. “Are you sure you’re ready?” I asked feeling like I was forcing him out of the closet.
“Yup. Step one was landing you” He said and leaned in to give me a peck on the lips. “With you backing me up, I can do this.” He embraced, our naked torsos touching each other.
“I got your back no matter what” I whispered in his ear. “You know, I’m very proud of you.” He hugged me tighter. We stood the for a moment, then we left the bathroom, and we each went into our rooms to get ready for church. We met in the lounge, I gave him one last kiss and said “Okay, time to be straight boys.” He laughed and we went to the lobby to meet Eric and Max.
We met the guys and walked to church, just like we had every Sunday for the past several weeks. During church Zach kept his knee pushed against mine. No one noticed. After Church we went to Ma Fischer’s for breakfast. Ma Fischer’s is a Milwaukee icon. It’s been there for decades, and I don’t think there’s a single student who went to school in Milwaukee since the 1930’s who didn’t have at least one late-night, after bar time drunk breakfast there. We sat in a booth with our knees touching. Again, no one noticed. We went back to the dorms and dropped Max off in the lobby while the three of us headed up to our suite.
I was working the afternoon shift and had to get ready, after a half hour I said goodbye Eric and Zach and walked to work. I ran into Teddy in the lobby as I got off the elevator, he had just come back from his weekend home. “Hey West, anything exciting happen while I was gone?” he asked as he held out his hand for a fist bump.
“Not a damn thing” I answered as I bumped his fest, then headed out the door and he got on the elevator. I tried calling my friend Cam on the way to work. Cam was my best friend from back home. We dated a little when we first came out. He went to school in Chicago, and we promised each other we’d get together once a month since we were only a couple hours apart, it hasn’t happened yet. I call or text him every week, but he hadn’t responded in over two weeks. I was starting to worry, but I figured he was just busy, and I try him later. I missed him.
My shift went fast, and I had a smile on my face for the entire six hours. After my shift I stepped out of the store and onto the sidewalk to head home, and there was Zach. He was dressed in a sport coat and had another one draped over his arm. He handed it to me “This might be a little big, it’s mine.” I looked at him in total confusion. “I’m going to come out tonight and tell those guys we’re dating, and it occurred to me… we haven’t gone out on a date yet. I promised you no more lying, and that would be a lie, unless of course we go out on a date.” He paused and smiled at me. “Will you go out on a date with me tonight?” he asked. Dammit he was so freaking adorable, like there was any way I could resist him.
“I’d be honored, sir” I said as I set my backpack on the ground and donned the sport coat. It was too big for me, but it smelled like Zach, and I fucking loved it.
We walked for about a mile or so in the opposite direction of the dorms and came to a MacDonald’s, he held the door and walked me to a table for two, then pulled the little hinged chair out for me. Then he sat down across from me and pulled a tealight candle out of his pocket, set it on the table and lit it. “You deserve fine dining at a restaurant with a dress code and candlelight. I can afford Macdonald’s, so this is my compromise.” He said with the cutest grin. This cheesy fucker was so cute, I just melted inside. “May I take your order? The sky’s the limit… super-size it if you want.”
I laughed “I trust you to order for me.” He left the table to go to the counter and order, I watched his ass as he walked away. Damn. Just then my phone rang, it was Brad. “Hey what’s up I answered?”
“I knew you’d be walking home from work so I Just called to check in” Brad said.
“Actually, I can’t talk. I’m on a date” I responded in a hushed voice.
“A DATE?!” yell through the phone “WITH WHO?”
I said in a quiet tone “Zach. Gotta go” then hung up. I knew that would drive him and Scotty nuts.
Almost instantaneously I got a text from him “ZACH?! WTF?! You better call me after and you still haven’t sent us a pic of him!” I laughed at his text and sent him a photo I took of Zach sitting shirtless on the couch next to Teddy. I got another text “holy fuck he’s cute. YOU BETTER CALL! Have funny baby brother. Love you.” I laughed at the text and put my phone back in my pocket just as Zach came back and set a 20 piece McNugget, 2 Fries, 2 Large Cokes and a variety of dipping sauces on the table.
“Perfect” I said thanking him for the feast. He sat down across from me, and we shared the McNuggets and fries. “So, you still want to do this tonight?” I asked as I dipped my first McNugget in the hot mustard sauce.
He inhaled deeply “It’s not about what I want. It’s about what I need to do. It’s time for me to be me” Zach said, “with you.” He added.
I locked my eyes with his, “I know I’ve already said it, but I can’t say it enough. I am so fucking proud of you. This is a big deal. I’m going to ask one last time…”
He cut me off “Yes. Yes, I am sure! I am so fucking sure!” he paused, then said, “Today was the best fucking day of my life. I just felt so damn free knowing I was going to do this, and finally just be myself… like you. I’m ready, Seth.” He smiled at me. His mind was made up.
“Okay” I said toasting him with a nugget “Here’s to living your truth.” He picked up a nugget and touched it to mine with a smile. We finished eating and then headed back to the dorms. Our walk back was nice, just the two of us. We took the long way through the East side of Milwaukee taking the side streets past the big, old beautiful homes. At one point he grabbed my hand and held it for several blocks, it meant everything to me. We were about a block from campus when Zach stop and turned to me and said “I may not get another chance to do this tonight” then kissed me, it was the sweetest gesture, and the softest, most meaningful kiss. He let out a big sigh, looked towards our building and said “oaky. Let’s do this.” We walked the rest of the way with purpose, went through the lobby of the building and up to our suite.
We got off the elevator and saw the door to our lounge was open. I walked in first to see our suitemates, Max, and Gina sitting around watching TV, playing video games, and studying. Zach stepped in after me shut the door and locked it with a loud ‘click’. They all turned to look at us.
“Sport coats?” Gina asked with a chuckle in her voice, “why so fancy?”
“We’re celebrating” Zach said with confidence. This was it; he was going to come out to the four of them.
Gina spoke again, “Celebrating what?”
“Two things actually” Zach said, then he shot me a look and I nodded my head showing my support. This was a bold move for my closeted boyfriend. Boyfriend OMG, he really was my boyfriend now! “The first thing is my first date with Seth.” The room went silent as our four closest friends processed what he just said.
“Wait. You’re not gay” Teddy said shaking his head in confusion.
“I think that’s the second thing they’re celebrating” Max said.
Zach inhaled, then exhaled “Yup. That’s the second thing. I’m gay.” The room went silent again.
Eric was the first to speak as he jumped off the couch and reached into his back pocket grabbing his wallet “SHIT!” he threw at twenty-dollar bill at Max.
Max laughed and said, “another twenty, buddy.” Eric gave him another. Sorry,” Max added “I bet him twenty you were gay and another twenty that you guys would get together.” Zach and I laughed. Zach out of nervousness, me because I took that as a sign that they were cool with everything.
Gina jumped up and hugged him “I’m so proud of you, that took guts.” I could see the look of relief on Zach’s face as they held each other. “And you two are hot as fuck together” Gina added.
Teddy just looked at him and Gina hugging, he was obviously still processing everything. “Teddy, you okay?” Zach asked, still hugging Gina.
Teddy was quiet “um... yeah. Just surprised” he said in quietly, “So, like, I’m the only straight guy living in our suite?” he thought “Hell, I’m the only straight guy in this room.”
“Yup, your odds of getting me just went up” Gina said. Teddy gave her an evil grin and the rest of us laughed out loud. “I think it’s awesome” Gina added as she let go of Zach’s neck and sat back down.
“Listen you guys. You’re the only people I’ve told. I’m not ready to come out to my teammates, or my parents yet but I wanted you guys to know. I need you to keep this between us.” Heads nodded.
“Whatever you need” Max said. “For the record, I’m proud of you too.”
“Me too,” Said Eric.
Teddy just kind of looked at him a little dazed, “that took guts. Don’t mind me, I’m just shocked. It never even occurred to me you were gay” he said as we all looked on trying to read him. Suddenly his eyes opened wide, and his mischievous Teddy smile returned “Holy fuck. You just came out! That’s a big fucking deal.” He jumped up and embraced his roommate. I heard him whisper in Zach’s ear “That took guts. I’m proud of you.” I saw a tear fall down Zach’s cheek as he gripped his friend tighter, smacking his back in a bro pat as he did. Teddy finally let go, then said “More pussy for me.”
The guys in the room all laughed, and Gina let out an “Ugh... just when I was starting to think you were a sweet guy. You’re such a perve.” That got a smile out of Teddy.
“And you’re officially a fag hag.” He said laughing.
“I prefer the term Fairy Princess” Gina said tossing her hair back while the rest of us laughed.
“You know you want me” Teddy replied with a playful grin as he blew a kiss at her. She tried not to smile back, but she couldn’t help it. Deep down she liked Teddy… a lot. But Gina was the kind of girl who could have any guy she wanted, so she made them work for it.
The six of us hung out for the rest of the night just being friends. Not much more was said about Zach coming out. There were a few questions about our relationship, and his plans for coming out to the other people around us. Zach did an amazing thing that night. He made the people in that room feel like the most important people in his world and he bonded us together. We were his friends. His community. His chosen family.
It was about 10:00 when Gina said goodbye giving Zach a kiss as she left. Max got up about the same time and said, “I’m heading back to my room” Then he looked at Eric and raised his eyebrows.
Eric smiled back at him and said “Um, yeah. Me too. See you guys tomorrow” then he went in our room, threw some stuff in a backpack and they left together leaving me, Zach, and Teddy awkwardly sitting there.
“So…” Teddy said. “Um… are you guys, you know… doing stuff together yet?” I snickered at that.
Zach smiled and said “We’re, um, err…”
I interrupted “Getting to know each other” I said in a definitive tone. “I know it’s a school night, but you wanna have a sleep over” I said to Zach.” He responded with a huge grin.
Teddy let out a huge exhale, “Okay, I get it… but you gotta ease me in. This is gonna take some getting used too, I’m cool with everything, but can you kind of, you know… keep it behind closed doors for now.” He grinned. He really seemed okay with it, but I got it. He didn’t want to see it. Frankly, I don’t love watching straight couples make out in public either so, it was a fair request.
“Got it” Zach said. Then he politely asked him if it was okay if he slept in my room. He didn’t need permission, but he was being sensitive of the fact that Teddy was now the odd man out and we wanted him to be comfortable in his own suite.
Teddy appreciated the sentiment “Of course!” He replied. But I swear to god if you queens are too loud, I will pound on that fucking door as hard as I can and yell “HEY WHAT’S GOING ON IN THERE?! ARE YOU GUYS FUCKING?! so the entire dorm hears me” then he laughed. Teddy was going to be fine with it, he was our friend. We said good night and Teddy went into his room, Zach followed me into mine. We were alone again.
When the room door shut Zach fell against the door and let out a heavy sigh “Wow. What a fucking day it’s been.”
I leaned into him and kissed him lightly on the lips. Then harder. Then I whispered for the umpteenth time “I am so proud of you. You handled that like a pro.” He kissed me back. “Thanks for our date. I loved it”
We fell into a passionate kiss as Zach pushed me back towards my bed. I fell on my back onto the tiny mattress while Zach blanketed me with his muscular body. The weight of his body, and heat of his kisses made me feel safe. He unbuttoned the blue plaid shirt I had worn to work and pushed it off my shoulders. I hadn’t showered since before church and I was a little ripe. Zach didn’t care, in fact, he seemed to revel in my scent. He buried his face in my arm it and took a giant, theatrical whiff “WOO!” he almost yelled, I laughed out loud and pushed his head playfully into it. He made a stink face; he was so damn cute.
He started licking my nipples and worked his way down my body just as I had done to him the night before. Then he followed my treasure trail down until his lips met the tip of my engorged phallus looking up at me as he engulfed the head. His hazel green eyes locked with mine as he slowly took my shaft down his throat. It felt wonderful! He may have been a novice, but his actions weren’t timid. He repeated every motion I had shown him the night before, twirling his tongue around my fleshy tube as he moved his mouth up and down. Each movement was euphoric. I mean, I didn’t have a lot of experience, and I’m sure any blowjob is a good blowjob, right? But what Zach was doing to me was flipping awesome. He was bringing pleasure to every inch of me not just with his tongue, but with the connection we had through our locked gaze. There was something about the fact that it was him that elevated everything and brought me to amazing heights.
His left hand played with my balls as his right hand and mouth worked my shaft into a frenzy, then he surprised me. He tapped my hole with his index finger just as I had done to him the night before. Our eyes were still locked, and he smiled around my cock. He was giving me a taste of my own medicine and I fucking loved it. No one had ever touched my asshole before, and it felt amazing. I gasped in pleasure and that encourage him more. He licked is finger, then circled my hole with it, his eyes never leaving mine. His circles around my hole started lightly, then got more aggressive until his finger pushed at my hole as if he wanted to penetrate me. My eyes popped open wide as I looked down on him sucking my cock and fingering my hole. He laughed around my cock then took it out of his mouth “It’s a little scary when the shoe is on the other foot, isn’t it.” That little fuck was teasing my hole like I did to his, but I know his intentions weren’t to tease. He wanted to fuck me, and I wanted it, but not now. Not tonight. I wasn’t ready.
“Stop, Zach” I said clearly as I lifted his head off me. “Listen, I want you. I want to give myself to you so badly, but not tonight, not like this. I want to do it right. It may take some time.” He moved up next to me and we sat on the bed with our backs against the wall. “I’m in this for the long haul, what about you?”
He smiled, touched my face and said “I’m there with you. This isn’t a quickie.”
“Then let’s be smart and do it right. I’m on PREP, I think you should go to the campus health center tomorrow, get checked out and get on PREP too.” He looked at me with a very shy look on his face, “I’ll go with you” I said, “we’re in this together.”
“I don’t know shit about this stuff. But I trust you. Can you go with me after Philosophy in the morning?” I nodded.
“I’m not that experienced either, but my brother made sure I knew about safe sex. We’re probably safe because we’re both pretty new to this shit, but I just want to make sure we take the right precautions, and that there’s total trust between us.” He nodded.
“I trust you more than anyone. I want you to know you can trust me too.” Zach said.
“I totally trust you, and I want you to be safe.” My brother had made a similar statement to me when a came out a couple of years ago. His number one concern was that I protect myself. I felt the same with Zach. He came out to me first, and I felt responsible for him. Sex with me was safe, but who knows what would happen in the future and I wanted him to be armed no matter what. Although my dick was telling me to keep going and let him fuck me, my head was telling me to be smart. I could wait for him.
We laid down on my tiny bed and he got on top of me in a sixty-nine again. His cock was down my throat, his balls on my face and his ass within reach and I was loving it. I inhaled his addictive scent deeply. He was working my cock. He started licking my head then licked his way down my shaft to my balls. He started licking my balls. HE WAS LICKING MY BALLS! It felt so new, so... so... AWESOME. I kept sucking his cock and swallowing over and over trying to squeeze his cock with my throat muscles. Our hands and mouths were busy exploring, and the room was filled with our low, guttural moans of ecstasy.
Suddenly there was a new sensation, a wet feeling below my balls. Shit! Zach was moving under my balls and to my asshole with his fucking tongue! He licked it. He LICKED it! HE FUCKING LICKED MY HOLE! Oh my god it was an indescribable sensation, wet, warm, almost hot. My hole responded by opening up and he put his tongue in. He was licking my fucking insides!!!
He stopped, lifted his head and said, “Oh my fucking god I just licked your asshole” His voice was one of disbelief and had a little giggle to it.
I laid still with his cock inches from my mouth and his balls touching my nose. I whispered breathily “Do it a-fucking-gain. Please!” I was begging him. I couldn’t believe what I just experienced, I needed more “Please, Zach.” I could feel him smiling. He knew he had me, he knew I was all his. He pulled my legs back a little further, put his face back in my crack and started licking again. FUCK! It was euphoric! I never thought anything could feel that incredible. He kept licking, lapping and probing, I couldn’t believe what he was doing. The guy that freaked out on me less than twenty-four hours ago for touching his pucker was burying his tongue in my ass! We were both entering new territory, and I had a feeling it wouldn’t be the last time.
I put his cock back in my mouth and started sucking him for all I was worth. I gave him everything I had. Within seconds he was moaning into my hole sending vibrations and shockwaves through my body. Our moans turned into a repeating circuit; I moaned around his cock, causing him to moan into my hole, causing me to moan more around his cock, causing him to moan into my hole… it was an endless circle of ecstasy.
Finally, he groaned quietly, “I’m gonna cum.” I first tasted his cum last night and wanted more, I worked harder for it sucking, gulping, and twirling my tongue. I was bound and determined to make him give me his essence again. It didn’t take long before he shot his load into my throat, I pulled back a bit so the head was in my mouth, and I could taste him before it went down my throat. He moaned into my hole as he came, pushing me close to the edge. Zach sensed it and moved to my cock, engulfing it fully. I gasped with his cock still in my mouth.
I pulled him out of my mouth and whispered “I’m cumming, Zach.” He kept my cock in his mouth, I felt my orgasm rise through my balls and up my shaft. Right at the very moment of impact he pulled off me and jacked me off sending my jizz into the air again.
“Fuck, I’m sorry” Zach said. “I wanted to swallow, but… but I just couldn’t do it, I chickened out.”
I was panting, enjoying the last few seconds of my release, then started to laugh through my heavy breathing “you… put your... tongue in my asshole, but couldn’t swallow my load?!” Then we both started laughing as Zach twisted himself around, so we were face to face. He kissed me and I pushed his own cum into his mouth. He realized what I was doing and tried to pull back, I grabbed the back of his head and held him tight to my lips. After a few seconds I let him loose and said, “Take that chicken.”
He made a sour face then said “Well, my lips were just on your asshole.” We both laughed. I really liked this guy (maybe loved. What the hell did I know about love?). The sex was awesome and hot, but it was fun. HE was fun.
He was Sexy, sweet, fun, hot as fuck… and he was mine! All. Fucking. Mine.
To be continued…
