Exploring
Spending the morning and into the afternoon with Ollie is amazing. He is just as big of a tourist as me, and we take pictures of each other wherever we go, whether it be at Trafalgar Square, Piccadilly Circus, or outside Buckingham Palace.
The thought of spending all the time around London alone is a far gone thing now, even though I know that I can’t cling onto Ollie for this whole week because he has to go back to work, which I haven’t asked him when he does that and I’ve got to go to France and Germany in the next two weeks.
We are far from finished exploring London together as we stop off in a pub for lunch and sit down. “I hope that I’m not clogging the day up for you?” I say to Ollie, who shakes his head and looks at me seriously.
“I wouldn’t have offered to take you around the place if I had an issue with it, would I?” I shake my head as he answers and this whole situation feels so new to me because I have this whole battle right now about whether I am overreading the situation about whether me and Ollie are actually anything serious or this is just friends with benefits and I’ll be the next one castoff.
Sitting there eating a late lunch, Ollie and I are going through all the photos we took and I forgot about the one that he took outside of Buckingham Palace where he kissed me and captioned it “My prince” as I laugh. The feeling makes me feel special as I look at him wanting to ask what else he has on but he jumps to it first.
“What do you have planned for tonight?” he asks, as it’s not quite the rest of the week, but he still wants to know what I’m doing beyond today. “Well, tonight, I’m going to the Chelsea game tonight, which is probably my big thing across the next few days,” I say as Ollie pulls his face in disgust.
“Ugh,” he says as I just laugh and look at him. “Not a Chelsea fan or Not a Football fan?” I ask as he just tells me both. “I’m not a huge sports fan overall; I mean, there are some things I do enjoy playing, like Tennis, but I’m not a huge Football or Rugby guy… even if the guys are hot”, he says as I laugh.
I look at him “Did that ruin any plans you had in the works?” I ask as he doesn’t really commit to an answer either way. “Not really, I mean I was going to invite you around for dinner tonight if you didn’t have a plan but you do so it wasn’t important because I’m back flying for work tomorrow night” he says as it disappoints me that he say that but I knew it was going to happen.
The two of us are just enjoying the vibes at the moment with the atmosphere of the pub and the music playing, but ultimately, we just spending time with each other, feeling good from the energy we give off around each other.
Sitting there, I finish my lunch, and Ollie goes to the bathroom as the words that he said on the plane that he didn’t want to date anyone for a while, but then the way he acts around me says that he doesn’t just want this to be here this week because a few times he’s said about when he comes back to Sydney or if I ever come back to London.
Walking out of the bathroom, Ollie has an air of confidence around him as he asks if I’m ready for a bit more sightseeing as I nod my head and we walk out “There’s two places I want to show you but one is before you leave and we can do one right now.”
The two of us head out of the pub and I follow Ollie as we walk down to a bus stop and get on it as he takes me to one of his favourite spots in London which happens to be not far from his house and he thinks is the perfect thing for us to finish off doing today.
Sitting there, I’m pretty tired and put my head on Ollie’s shoulder as he strokes my hair and I can hear him talking to an old lady sitting across from him as I sort of hear the conversation.
“You two are adorable… how long have you been together?” she asks Ollie as I’m pretty interested in what he has to say as I just sit there for the bus trip which should take about half an hour according to Ollie.
“Not long, he’s visiting from Sydney, you know, so a long trip, and it’s catching up with him”, he says as I smirk but keep my head down so that he doesn’t see.
The old lady looks at us “You two got big plans for the future because I can see the way you look at him” she says as I’m interested that someone else is reading the signs I am and get more curious about what Ollie is going to say.
“Just have to wait and see because we are still pretty early on in things, and I’ve had a few issues with exes, but Corey is a pretty special guy, so here’s hoping,”, he says as the old lady keeps talking to him as he tries to change the topic before she gets off.
I pretend to wake up as Ollie nudges me. “We’re getting off in a few stops, so I thought that you better wake up so you don’t stay on the bus forever and end up somewhere completely unknown to you”, he says, laughing as I pretend to wake up even though I heard everything he said.
Walking not too far from the bus stop, I look around and realise that we really aren’t that far from Ollie’s apartment as I can see it from here. “You just used this to get me back to your apartment again, didn’t you?” I say as he shakes his head.
“Actually, as much as I would love you back in my apartment this was actually the perfect finish because you know we’ve been to most of the tourist hotspots with lots of people but thought I’d show you my favourite place” I nod my head and sit down putting the shopping bags we have down and sit on the bench as Ollie puts his arm around me.
I sit there with him as this park near his apartments is just so peaceful and elegant as we sit there and I can’t believe how quiet it is with one of the most important cities in the world just a few miles down the road. The peace is only disturbed by someone walking their dog, which barks when a couple of birds play past closely.
“I thought I’d show you my special place; this is where I go when I just need peace and quiet and time to myself, which I’ve needed a lot lately”, he says as I nod my head, sort of understanding but at the same time not really understanding the situation because he has never told me about what happened.
Sitting there together, we just enjoy the peace as Ollie looks at me. “I know you heard everything I said on the bus”, he says as I look at him, both surprised and worried that he’s expecting something a lot more than what I thought we were going to do.
“I didn’t hear anything,” I say as Ollie gives me a look where a disappointed look like I’m a naughty child but just smiles at me. “I know you heard me, and I hope that you don’t feel like I was trying to put pressure or change the situation at all”, he says as I nod my head and totally understand.
The two of us keep sitting there as I look at Ollie and decide to ask, “So, how long are you going to be away for?” I want to know how often we are going to be apart, which makes me sound like a clingy boyfriend, but it also just helps me make plans.
“I’m flying tomorrow morning, then have an overnight in Delhi and then come back day after… so pretty much gone from about 7am” he says as it disappoints me that he can’t really spend the night with him after the game tonight.
The feeling of disappointment must be visible on my face because Ollie kisses and rubs my cheek. “You wanted me around for the rest of your trip and wanted to be with me again tonight, didn’t you?” he says as I smirk and try to deny it.
“A little bit actually you know” I say as I smile and feel a little bit embarrassed as Ollie looks at me with a smile on his face which makes me happy. “I’m glad that you feel that way because I wish that I could too but I’m going to make sure that before you go to wherever you are after this I’m going to see you again before you leave.”
The two of us sit there for a few minutes before Ollie looks at me “It’s still only early, do you want to go back to my apartment or would you prefer to go back to the hotel?” he asks as I kind of want to go back to his apartment but then looking at the time I also want to go back to the hotel and change.
“If I went back to the hotel, would you want to come with me?” he says as I look at him and just smirk because I have no idea what I want him to do or what we are going to do, but I just want to spend as much time with him as we possibly can because this could be one of the last chances that we get together although he says that he wants to surprise me with something.
The idea is probably not my brightest because I’m going to be getting ready for the most part and don’t know what we can actually do, but it’s always worth asking the question.
Ollie looks at me and smirks. “If you let me go back to my apartment and pack my bag for tomorrow and the trip, then I can stay the night in the hotel” I look at him, intrigued that he would even suggest that because I thought that his preference would be to spend the night in his own bed.
The two of us sit on the bench in the park “It’s up to you really, I don’t wanna make it tough for you to get to work in the morning especially so early” I say as Ollie laughs. “You have no idea about how I can make it work and have in the past” he says as I nod my head and he gets up and we walk to his apartment.
Getting back into his apartment, we stand there as I put the bags down and follow him into the bedroom as I crash onto the bed and lay down. “Jeez, you wanna make yourself at home?” he says as I smirk and watch him changing his shirt, looking at his body.
“Your body is amazing”, I say as he looks at me with a smile on his face as I know that I have really come out of my shell, and I don’t know whether I can necessarily say that I’m gay, but that I feel more attracted to Ollie as the person that he is. The two of us are there as I look at his body and just stare at it because the ‘V’ that he has is perfect.
I see Ollie smiling as I say that, and he runs his hands down his chest. “You know your body is pretty amazing too, I mean, you got some nice pecs, and I mean, maybe not the solid abs like this, but still pretty perfect”, he says, climbing over me and putting his hand up my shirt and massaging them.
My body shudders at the feeling of Ollie feeling my smooth chest as he grips my pecs from under my shirt and kisses me as I feel his tongue going into my mouth as I kiss him right back with my hand on the back of his head and running through his hair right now. The kiss feels like it could go on forever, but Ollie just looks at me and smiles.
“Don’t want you to be late tonight, you gotta get the full experience” he says as I nod my head and let him up as I get up to look at the pictures on his dresser.
I pick up one of the other photos I saw this morning and have a look at it “That your family?” I say as I notice Ollie actually has blonde hair under his cap rather than his normal dark hair as he looks over at it and nods.
“Yeah that’s my family, we took that ages ago but it was probably one of the last family photos we had” he says as I look at it and he comes and stands over my shoulder.
“That’s my sister Holly on end; she’s the oldest, then there’s Ryan who’s 3 years older, me as you could tell, and then Zac and Lucas are the twins who are 4 years younger than me”, he says as I get a good look and see the family resemblance between the whole lot of them as I smile.
I keep looking at the photo “That your Mum and Dad? Do you get to see them much outside of the trip?” I ask as he goes quiet for a minute and I feel like I’ve pushed the boundaries too far again as he sits on the bed. “Sorry, that’s not any of my business…” I say as he puts his hand up and shakes his head.
“Nah you were fine to ask, I asked you the questions and I did actually hint at the make up of my family so it’s fine” he says to me as I put my arm around him and sit down next to him. “Sorry, it’s just that I hadn’t seen everyone well except my Dad together for a few years so it’s just making me homesick” he says as I laugh before he punches me with a smile.
“Damn you, Corey”, he says with a smile wiping his eyes for a minute. “I never feel homesick even when it’s time to go home, yet you make me feel homesick, and I prefer London to Sydney”, he says, laughing as he gets up to finish packing his bag, putting both briefs and boxers in.
I sit on the bed as he keeps packing which isn’t a lot but he goes through things and gets out his uniform and puts it into separate bags to keep it all together which makes me laugh. “My family is kinda spread out so we never really get to see everyone together but this trip we made sure that we all could be together” he says as I nod my head.
“My family is all pretty centrally located, so it’s easy; my brother lives part-time between home and, depending on who you ask, with his boyfriend or his best mate” Ollie laughs when I say that, knowing that my brother is able to cover the fact that he’s gay quite well and for so long though I wonder if my parents know and are just playing ignorant.
Ollie laughs as he gets up and keeps putting stuff in his bag as he puts his uniform in two special bags, and I look at the things he has to take and feel awkward that I’m making him carry all that stuff to the hotel. “Do you want to just forget about coming to the hotel tonight? I mean, you have to carry all that stuff and stay somewhere cheaper than what you have here,” I say as he looks at me and shakes his head.
“If I didn’t want to, then I would have just said no to you so it doesn’t bother me, and I would have had to take all this, and the hotel is nothing new”, he says as I smile, and he gets up and changes his clothes again before I go out into the living room and wait for him as he rolls his bag out and has his two suit bags that have his uniforms in them and he rings for a Taxi to come.
Walking outside, he is still taking control of everything and tells the Taxi driver where to go and we head to the hotel as we head up to my room and Ollie looks at it and sees how small and basic it is. “This is nice” he says as I nod my head and laugh though I don’t know anything about the room.
“I mean, I’ve only been in this room for a day and still yet to sleep in it” I laugh as it feels like ages since I’ve been in London but really I’ve only been here just over a day and a half and spent more time in Ollie’s apartment than I have here.
Ollie puts his bag down and hangs his suit bags in the wardrobe, and I look at him. “I don’t know what you’re going to do while I’m at the game tonight?” I say as I have doubts about the plan, but he is clearly all for it, so who am I to complain about anything when this guy wants to be in bed with me tonight?
The time is going quickly as I take a shower, and Ollie sits flicking through the TV channels as he grabs his iPad out and starts playing on it. I get out of the shower and stand there in just a towel as Ollie looks at me with a big smile on his face. “Fuck you have such a hot body, and even better when you’re wet and looking so soft and smooth”, he says as my hair is wet and not really styled as I usually have it.
Even though we’ve had sex, this is the first time Ollie sees the real me without all the effort that I go to make myself look hot or close to being hot because sometimes I doubt my looks, which everyone tells me that I’m good looking but I don’t know if I’ve ever seen it.
“Welcome to the real me, the ugly one”, I say as Ollie looks me up and down, nodding his head before hearing what I have to say, and he shakes his head.
Ollie’s face looks annoyed when I say that I’m ugly. “Did you just say you were ugly? Fucking hell, you are far from being ugly, mate… you are absolutely hot because you just have amazing-looking hair, a hot body, and so what, you don’t have a defined six-pack, you’re packing muscle in your pecs and biceps, and honestly, this type of body suits you,” he says as I smile and try not to compare myself as I go to my bag and he pulls off my towel.
“Plus, you’ve got an amazing cock, and that ass is fucking perfect, you know,” he says as I nod my head and get a good confidence boost from that as he looks at me and feels my ass which I thought after being fucked last night would hurt, but it’s not. “You ever worn a jock on that ass?” Ollie says as I shake my head, thinking that jocks are meant for guys in porn, models or just, well, not me.
“Nah, never ever thought of it; I mean, aren’t they just meant for more like models, pornstars and, well… guys just not like me,” I say as Ollie shakes his head, and I smirk a bit. “Fuck no, they’re for whoever wants to show off their ass, and that’s your challenge for when we catch up before you leave to get one and try it out,”, he says, as I don’t think that I have to much choice but agree to it.
Laying on the bed, I look at Ollie. “If I have to have a challenge, then I want you to do a challenge for me… I want to see you totally smooth,” I say as he smirks and gives me an impressed look that I said something like that already, though I think he’s not going to do it, and he has an attachment to his hair.
“Deal”, he says as I look at him surprised as I take his shirt off and run my hands over his furry body, thinking that he would have had a bigger issue with it. “Thought you’d be more reluctant to do it,” I say as he shrugs and runs his hand over his chest.
Ollie kisses and looks at me “It’s only hair so what does it matter, won’t be like the first time that I had it, takes me back to the days when I used to do it and wear my nipple bars” he says as I’m learning more about Ollie that I didn’t expect.
“Yeah, I had my nipples pierced, my ears, my nose and my eyebrow but haven’t had them for a while, you can see a few of them in the picture you looked at today”, he says as I don’t expect Ollie to look like that even though it’s been a few years and he’s clearly matured into a proper adult.
The two of us sit there as I feel the warmth coming off his chest before deciding that I really do need to get up and start to get ready as I put on a pair of blue boxer briefs that will match my Chelsea jersey tonight that I leave to put on leaving it to after my jeans as I look at Ollie who looks at me up and down approving.
“You look pretty damn hot even if I’m not really a football fan,” he says, laughing as I finish getting ready and give him a twirl to see what he is going to say as he looks approvingly at me as I grab him the spare room card so that he can do whatever he wants while I’m gone.
The two of us spend a moment together before I get up and finish getting ready, as what was going to be my most exciting trip is now something that I don’t really want to go to because it means that I’m missing Ollie before he is away as I take a selfie in the mirror to send to my brother.
It’s just before 6pm when I leave as I don’t know whether I should be trust Ollie not to go through my stuff but then I did sort of go through is so I guess it would only be fair if he did even though he has promised he hasn’t.
I know that the time difference is terrible as I send the selfie to my brother, and I hope that he’s not awake as I walk to where I need to go, following the directions on my phone as it buzzes with him, replying with an angry face.
Jake: “😠”
Me: “Why are you awake at this time?”
Jake: “Cause I’ve got night shift, and like usual, it’s deader than your sex life 😜”
Me: “Oh, then it must be busy”
Jake: “Oh yeah, right… like you’ve been out having sex”
He texts as I laugh, given that I’ve probably had sex more recently than him and that I left a totally sexy guy in my hotel room who my intention is to fuck tonight.
Me: “Can we video chat?”
Jake video calls me as I show him the walk down to the stadium and then the whole atmosphere of Stamford Bridge and everything around him.
Jake: “I fucking hate you right now”
Me: “Oh well, I guess that I just have to deal with it by sitting through Chelsea playing in the Conference League”
Jake: “Not funny Corey”
Me: “Well I’ll be watching Chelsea and you’ll be sitting at home”
Jake: “Remind me why I like you bro”
Me: “Because you won’t get anything of what you wanted”
I want to talk to Jake about my feelings for Ollie because he’s the only person that I know will be able to understand the feelings that I have right now, and he can understand it as everybody thinks that you’re straight and that’s where the expectations are. The time is probably far from perfect to bring up the situation now because if I do it then what happens if I’m far from the same page as Ollie.
Me: “How are things with Tyler?”
Jake: “Why are you asking me something like that? Especially right now when you’re living out a dream that we’ve had forever.”
Me: “I don’t know, maybe I want to know how my brother and his boyfriend are to be nice”
I say with a bit of an attitude, which might give something away, but I think it’s too early in the morning for Jake to even comprehend why I wanted to bring it up,
Jake: “Ok sorry… things are great like usual, I moved some more stuff into his apartment and think that it’s gonna be sooner than later”
Me: “That’s good, sorry just having this week in London has sort of proven to me that I can do what I want and want you to do what’s right for you”
Jake: “Love you bro… you know I’ve got the situation.”
I show him around the outside of the stadium before using my ticket to get in and then getting Jake back on the phone to show him around, as the atmosphere is amazing.
Me: “See, I’ve got us one each, and then I’ve got a few other things to get for you.”
Jake: “Cheers bro… now get off the phone and enjoy alright… ttyl”
I wander around the stadium, completely overawed by the fact that I’m standing in Stamford Bridge and this ticket cost me a fortune to get in here, but I had to do this in London because Chelsea has been mine and Jake’s life since we were kids with it being Dad’s team as well because my grandfather lived a few streets over and we used to get the stories.
The atmosphere is nothing like going to a sporting event in Australia especially not Soccer where a good crowd is 8,000 people sitting in a stadium sometimes that can hold triple that amount. I find my seat and realise how good of a view that I have as I have to take a moment to compose myself to say that I’m actually here.
It gets closer to the 8pm kick-off, and I’m a weird mass of nerves and excitement because this is a totally new situation and I’ve never felt like this when it has come to sport other than when I’m playing, and I’ve missed my teams final series at home to be here but I couldn’t say no to the opportunity when it opened. The game goes like an absolute blur, and I keep my phone away because part of me wants to take plenty of photos and video, but at the same time, I want to just experience the moment.
The game flashes by as a blur, and Chelsea takes a 96th-minute 1-0 win, which came at the last possible opportunity, and I walk out of the game surrounded by people all celebrating, which you never see anywhere in Sydney. I check my phone and see messages from both Ollie and Jake which I respond to the latter.
Jake: “HOLY FUCK BRO… How fucking good was that.”
Me: “You have no idea… that’s so fucking good and I can’t hear anything when that goal went in”
Jake: “I know… I woke Tyler up”
Me: “Oh well… he has to be used to be dating a Chelsea fan”
Jake: “Haha, well, I mean, I am dating an Arsenal fan 🤢”
Me: “You knew that before dating him”
Jake: “Don’t start… anyway I should crash cause I’m barely staying awake”
Jake: “Night lil bro”
Me: “Night bro”
I follow the transport instructions as I check my message from Ollie, who is sitting in bed waiting for me
Ollie: “Got a surprise for you tonight”
Me: “🤔”
Ollie: “Have to wait until you get back to see it”
I smile and try to get back to the hotel as quick as possible. right now, I’m in such a pumped-up mood as I get to the hotel and head up to the room, opening the door where it’s all completely dark as I’m worried that Ollie had to leave.
Stepping foot into the room, there isn’t a single light on and it worries me that something has happened given that Ollie only messaged me a few minutes ago as I was hoping that there’d be some action but now the room feels empty I’m alone and check my phone.
My heart has dropped as I hadn’t bothered to turn the light on yet, and I walked into the bathroom, taking my jersey off and running water on my face before I walked into the dark room and stood there as I turned the lamp on.
“HOLY FUCK….”
(I promise this is a good surprise for next time)
