“Now, don’t just walk away, pretending everything’s okay and you don’t care about me. And I know there’s just no use when all your lies become your truths, and I don’t care. Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you’re happy now?”
-Michelle Branch (Are You Happy Now?)
October 2006
The alarm clock went off. Matthew groaned as he rolled over in bed. It was another day of having to stroll around campus feeling like a crap. He grabbed his laptop and immediately went to Facebook. Without failure, a new picture of Noah with a different guy was posted on Noah’s page. The caption read: Another late-night snack.
Matthew slammed the laptop shut. He didn’t know why he kept torturing himself. Maybe some part of him felt like he deserved it. He showered, got dressed, and headed to his first class.
He stepped out of the building and posted out front was one of the guys he met through Terrick. His name was Nick. Nick and Matthew never really talked. Nick was always quiet around the guys but was good at football. Matthew had stopped hanging out with them. Terrick had told them that they slept together. Some of the guys wanted details, and it made Matthew feel used and humiliated.
They held each other’s gaze briefly. Nick waved rather awkwardly. Matthew cut his eyes and walked away.
“Hey, wait up,” Nick called after him.
Matthew continued walking. Nick ran up and grabbed his shoulder. Matthew quickly knocked his hand away.
“Why are you bothering me? I’m just trying to go to class,” Matthew asked defensively.
“Sorry. I just wanted to tell you that I know what it’s like. Terrick did the same thing to me.”
“And you still hang with him?” Matthew rolled his eyes in disappointment.
“I don’t have any friends. So, I just suck it up. When I feel low, I get help.” Nick’s voice was saddened.
“What do you mean help,” Matthew asked with a raised brow.
“Let me show you. I promise it’s legit,” Nick said as he held out his hand.
Matthew was hesitant, but he decided to trust Nick. He had nothing to lose but maybe a friend to gain. Nick took his hand and led him across the campus. The entire time, they were quiet.
Nick was a nice-looking guy. He had brown skin with a high-top fade. He was muscular from his years of playing sports. He had a midwestern accent and dark eyes. His lips were plump, and his glutes were round and thick.
They headed toward the old science building on the edge of campus. They walked around back and down a flight of stairs. Then, they went through a set of doors. Inside were 15 other students.
Matthew asked, “What is this?”
A soft voice spoke from behind, “This is the We Hate Terrick Moore Club.”
Matthew and Nick turned around. Behind them was the feminine guy Terrick and his friends always made fun of.
Nick smiled, “Matthew, this is Crispin Holt, our president.”
“So you’re the latest toy? I can see why he picked you,” Crispin said as he looked Matthew up and down.
“I don’t understand. Why is there a club?” Matthew was confused.
Crispin rolled his eyes, “Everybody here fell for Terrick’s charms, and when he got his nut, he left us all. Then went and bragged to his boys.”
Matthew chuckled, “Even you?”
Crispin rolled his neck, “Oh, bitch you real rude. Yes! Even the fem got some masc dick. To be perfectly honest with you, sweetie, Terrick loves the fems. He likes to pretend he doesn’t. Trust, a bitch knows.”
Matthew gulped, “I didn’t mean to be rude. I was just surprised.”
“Look around the room, man. Terrick likes everything, and he treats everybody like dirt. I was a total top, and then I met him, and well, you know what happens after that,” said Nick.
Matthew looked around the room. Nick was right; there were males and females. Some of the guys were masculine, but the majority were feminine men.
Crispin whispered in Matthew’s ear, “This isn’t even everyone. Take a seat and tell us about your experience. It helps to get it off your chest.”
Matthew took a seat and, opened up, and told them everything that happened between Terrick, and he discussed Noah as well. It felt good to talk about everything finally. He didn’t have anyone to confide in for so long except Noah.
Things began to turn around for Matthew in the weeks that followed. His friendship with Nick took off. Crispin challenged him every step of the way with his thoughts on men and femininity. Everything was going well until he decided to visit Vivian for the Birmingham Magic City Classic weekend.
Vivian was shocked and excited when she opened the door and found Matthew standing there. She screamed with glee and embraced him in a warm and loving hug. Matthew had become family. She clarified that no matter what happened between him and Noah, he would never be alone.
“Mat, I’m so happy to see you,” she squealed.
“I hope it’s okay that we dropped by. These are my friends from school. This is Nick and Crispin,” he introduced them.
“It’s totally fine. Get in here,” she said as she waved them in the house.
They spent a few hours catching up. She offered to let them sleep in the pool house if they wanted. Noah was also coming home, and he was bringing a friend with him.
“Maybe we should just get a hotel,” Matthew said.
“Nonsense. This house is big enough for everyone, and you are family, Mat. Noah will be fine.”
Matthew smiled nervously, “I think I should at least try to stay clear of him.”
Saturday morning, Matthew took the guys to the parade in downtown Birmingham. The city was packed at every turn. They were having a good time when Matthew spotted someone who looked like Noah in the distance. He wasn’t sure. Then he saw Zane, and he knew it was. Noah looked different. He had cut his hair down low. Zane quickly kissed Noah, and they disappeared into the crowd.
Noah and Zane walked around Legion Field, tailgating before the big game. They went to different trailers/RVs, getting plates of food and drinks. They were just having a ball. They were not a couple. They were friends with benefits, and Noah had a few of them.
As they were walking, Noah spotted Matthew. Matthew didn’t see him. Matthew was walking with Crispin and Nick. Seeing Matthew openly walking around laughing with a fem guy sent feelings and emotions that Noah thought he had buried came back to the surface. All he could think about was how horrible Matthew made him feel for embracing his fem side.
There’s this thing about Virgos. They are the most loving and loyal people until you piss them off. Then, they can become the most evil people. Noah’s evil Virgo surfaced, and there wasn’t anything he could do to put it away. He had already turned off his heart. Now, he was walking around like an evil, heartless Virgo.
The game ended, and then the real partying began. All the clubs were packed. People were partying in the streets. Matthew and the crew were able to sneak into a local gay club. Crispin broke away from the group to find some dick. Nick and Matthew sat up at the bar, enjoying the vibe.
A girl named Becca pulled Matthew out on the floor for a dance. Matthew hadn’t expected to see a girl there, but he wasn’t disappointed by her either. She was beautiful. She had long blonde hair and bright green eyes that brought out her pale skin.
As they were dancing, a tall and slender black man walked up behind the girl. He placed his hands on her waist. She smiled, and he leaned over and kissed her. Matthew shook his head and was about to walk away when the guy pulled him back.
“My girl checked you out as soon as you walked in. How about you stay and party with us,” he said.
“Party?” Matthew asked. “What kind of party?”
“The kind where everyone leaves happy. I’m Ced, and this is my girl, Becca.”
“I’m Mat.”
“So, Mat, let's get out of here,” Becca said as she ran her hands over his chest.
Matthew looked around the club. He didn’t see his friends. He thought for a second and decided to go for it. You only live once.
Noah spotted Nick at the bar and moved over to him before anyone else could. Nick was a good-looking dude, but his quiet nature was off-putting to some.
Nick smiled to himself when he saw Noah. He had no idea who he was, but he knew he was sexy. He admired the way he moved. It was slow and mysterious.
“Why are you alone at the bar,” Noah asked.
“My friends are all on the dance floor or in somebody’s bed,” he laughed.
“I wouldn’t mind being in somebody’s bed,” Noah said.
Nick laughed, “I don’t think you’ll have trouble getting into a bed.”
“Then why am I still standing here?” Noah asked him as he caressed his arm.
“Oh, you wanna fuck me?” Nick asked excitedly. The lightbulb had finally clicked that Noah wanted him.
“Or you fuck me. They call me Heartbreaker, but you can call me whatever you like,” Noah said.
“I’m Nick. You have a place to go?” he asked.
In the hotel room, Becca lay in the bed naked. Her legs were spread, and Matthew was repeatedly slamming his young dick in and out of her dripping cunt. Her moans filled the room. Ced watched them, enjoying how Matthew’s glutes bounced and flexed as he drove into Becca.
Ced’s cock was hard, and he was stroking it slowly. The scene was hot. Matthew was balls deep in the girl. Her snatch was working his cock. Her breasts were bouncing all over the place. Ced crawled on the bed. He gripped Matthew’s hips and slowly fed him his long dick.
“Oh fuck,” Matthew groaned.
Ced pushed all of his dick into Matthew. He slapped Matthew on the ass. Matthew started to fuck Becca, which made him also fuck himself on Ced’s dick. Matthew slammed himself fast and deep on the dick and into the pussy.
“Yea, fuck us both, boy,” Ced said as he grabbed a handful of Matthew’s ass.
Matthew bounced harder and faster. His cheeks bounced on Ced’s cock. The pleasure in both his dick and anus was next level. It made him moan like a wild man. Ced started to drive himself deep into Matthew.
“Oh fuck. Shit,” Matthew cried.
“Fuck us, baby,” Becca screamed.
Ced fucked them both. He drove his cock in deep and fast. He pounded Matthew in Becca. Becca spread her legs wider and took them both. Her screams grew louder, and Matthew’s groans grew louder. He didn’t know it could feel so good.
Noah and Nick were in his bedroom. Nick slowly pushed his cock thick into Noah’s tight hole. Noah moaned in the sheets. He was surprised by how thick Nick’s cock was.
“Fuck you’re tight,” Nick groaned.
“Fuck me,” Noah moaned.
Nick slid his dick all the way in. He started to pound his cock in and out of Noah’s tight hole. The walls of Noah’s tunnel closed in on Nick’s cock. Nick drove himself deeper and harder into Noah. Nick's big hanging balls pounded Noah’s taint.
He used his hips to deliver plow after after plow. Each drive of his dick made Noah moan louder than before. Noah slowly worked his hips and twisted his ass on Nick’s dick. Nick moved and thrust deeper into him.
Noah groaned, “Fuck, it’s so good. Fuck me deeper.”
Nick plowed his cock deep into Noah. His ass bounced like jelly as he pounded in and out of Noah. Noah’s inside became moist and slick. He coated Nick’s thick cock with his sweet cream. Nick was in heaven inside of Noah. It was such a lovely piece of ass.
As they kissed, Nick’s hips moved up and down. His dick glided in and out of Noah. He used all his energy to fuck Noah deep and hard. Little did he know, Noah had become highly skilled in the last month at making men fuck him with every fiber of their being. He wasn’t known as a heartbreaker for nothing.
The sun rose and shined in the room. Nick woke up and quickly got dressed. He wanted to sneak out and find his way home before the others woke up. Little did he know he was already home.
Just as he reached the bottom of the stairs, Matthew walked through the front door. Nick froze in his tracks. Matthew was surprised to see Nick.
“Mat, what are you doing here,” Nick whispered.
“This is where we’re staying, remember?”
Nick looked around, and then it clicked. He realized what he had done. His stomach dropped.
“Oh shit,” Nick said as he covered his mouth in shock.
“What’s wrong,” Matthew asked.
Before he could answer, Zane walked down the stairs and said, “You must be the guy who had Noah moaning so loud. I almost got jealous, and then I remembered I taught him everything he knows.”
Matthew’s eyebrow furrowed, “You slept with Noah?”
“I didn’t know. He didn’t look like the guy you showed me,” Nick confessed.
“Of all the people last night,” Matthew screamed and walked off.
Nick followed behind him, trying to explain himself. Nothing Nick said was getting through to Matthew. Zane stood there watching them argue. Noah strolled into the kitchen without a care in the world. Matthew noticed that Noah did not react to seeing him and Nick. Then he put it together. He knew Noah did it on purpose.
“You did it on purpose. You slept with Nick on purpose. Didn’t you?” Matthew yelled. He was upset.
“We’re not together. You picked Terrick, if I’m not mistaken. I can do whatever with whomever,” Noah said with a carefree attitude.
Surprised, Nick asked, “You knew who I was?”
Noah shrugged, “You had a good time. It's a win.”
Nick’s blood began to boil. Noah had come in and ruined his friendship with Mathew, which sent him over the edge.
“You bastard,” Nick yelled as he punched Noah in the eye. Noah fell on the floor.
“What the hell,” said Matthew as he punched Nick.
Zane punched Matthew in the eye, “This is your fault.”
Noah looked at Nick. He saw Cooper and then Terrick; it was every dude that had wronged him, and then it all went red. He jumped and ran at Nick and knocked him into the counter. The two men started fighting. Each one swung the perfect punch at the other. As they were fighting, Matthew and Zane charged at each other and began to fight.
Vivian had just finished her shift at the hospital when she came home ready to sleep. She heard the sound of glass breaking and rushed to the kitchen to see everyone fighting.
“Stop it before I bust a cap in yall asses,” she screamed. They all stopped fighting.
Everyone just stood there staring at each other. Each one upset for a different reason. Each one bears a bit of responsibility for the actions taken, but none more so responsible than Noah.
“What the hell is going on in my house,” she asked.
TWO DAYS LATER…….
Matthew knocked on Noah’s dorm room door. Noah opened the door, expecting it to be Zane. He was shocked to see Matthew standing there. They both were sporting a black eye like a badge of honor.
“What are you doing here,” Noah asked.
“I don’t know. I wish I could hate you, but I can’t. He was the first friend I made who really wanted a friendship. Why’d you do it?” Matthew needed to know. Not knowing broke his heart.
“Come in,” Noah said as he stepped to the side.
Matthew looked around the room. It smelled just like Noah. It made his heart jump. Noah took a seat on the bed.”
“I wanted to hurt you. I wanted you to feel an ounce of how I felt watching you and Terrick,” Noah said as he struggled to keep from crying.
“You won, Noah. You hurt me. You hurt me when you left for California and cut me out of your life. You hurt me when you cheated on me with Zane. You hurt me when you slept, my friend,” Matthew said with extreme bitterness.
“I went to Cali because you slept with Bev right after you dropped your cum down my throat,” Noah shouted.
“No, you went because you fucked Cooper, and he didn’t want you. The same way I fucked Terrick, and he didn’t want me. We are so stuck in this craziness. Why can’t we just make it work, Noah?”
“Because maybe we aren’t meant to be.”
The room grew quiet. Matthew pushed Noah down on the bed and went in for a kiss. The kiss grew intense very quickly. Noah rolled Matthew on his back, and Matthew ran his hands over Noah’s ass. They pulled their shirts off.
Whatever passion they thought was gone was still there. Noah kissed his way down Matthew’s smooth chest and onto his belly button. He pulled Matthew’s pants off and admired the swollen bulge in his underwear. Noah ran his hands over Matthew’s throbbing erection.
“Don’t tease me, Monty. He misses you, baby.” Matthew mumbled.
Noah pulled the underwear down, revealing that beautiful fat jock cock. It stood straight up, all proud and ready. Noah swallowed Matthew’s cock. He moved his head up and down on it. Matthew moaned as he watched Noah love on his fat meat.
Tasting Matthew was more powerful than Noah could have ever imagined. That sweet precum was what he had been missing. It stirred up old memories and emotions inside of him again. Noah licked Matthew’s cock from the head down to the base. He ran his thick tongue all around the shaft. He made sure to stroke him just the way he knew Matthew liked.
Matthew loved that Noah knew his body. He knew how and where to touch him. No one else understood his body or his pleasure points quite like Noah. He sat and pulled Noah to his feet and shoved his tongue down his throat. As they kissed, he stripped Noah naked and stroked Noah’s fat cock. Each kiss gave them both life.
Noah pushed Matthew back on the bed. He straddled his lap. They looked at one another, and there was nothing but love there. Noah eased down on Matthew’s swollen member, and it popped in without a fight. They both moaned, and Noah slowly bounced up and down on the girthy tool.
Matthew wrapped his arms around Noah’s waist. Noah moved his hips round and round, and then he moved up and down. The walls of Noah’s anus grabbed hold of Matthew’s lovestick and refused to let go.
“Baby, you feel so good,” Matthew groaned.
Noah couldn’t fight what he was feeling. All his emotions and love for Matthew came flooding back. Each time his thighs connected with Matthew’s thighs, his heart opened. Tears filled his eyes, and they began to roll down his face. Matthew lovingly wiped the tears from his eyes. The passion took over, and Noah started to bounce faster and ride Matthew harder. Noah was moving on the dick so fast, and it was feeling so good to Matthew.”
“Oh my God! Yes! Ride my dick! Ride it! Ride me!” Matthew was filled with pleasure.
Noah’s anus kept tightening on his cock. They both were moaning sweet sounds of pleasure. Matthew had never had someone ride his cock the way Noah was riding him. He had to control it; otherwise, he’d cum. He fucked up into Noah fast and hard. His heavy balls slapped those delicious chocolate globes repeatedly.
“Can I taste you,” Matthew asked gently.
Noah rolled off him. Matthew took Noah’s erection into his mouth. Noah nearly exploded. Matthew’s beautiful red lips felt terrific, sliding up and down his pole. Matthew moved his head up and down like an expert, eliciting sweet sounds of joy from Noah. Noah could feel his cock touching the back of Matthew’s throat.
Noah pulled Matthew in for a sweet kiss. He needed a break. It felt as if his cock was going to explode. Matthew wanted more. He lifted Noah’s legs and exposed that pretty hole. He shoved his tongue in and began to eat him out. He munched on Noah’s rosebud and ran his tongue across it. He licked him with a purpose. Matthew was on a quest, and it was everything.
Matthew slid his throbbing monster back inside of Noah. He moved in and out at a slow pace. He wanted to make sure Noah felt every curve of his cock. Slowly, he picked up his pace, moving in and out until he had the perfect tempo.
“Oh fuck. Mateo,” Noah cried.
“That’s it, baby. Come back to me,” Matthew smiled.
The cock drove deeper into Noah. It moved faster through his hot, wet channel. Noah worked every muscle in his body. Matthew moved faster. His cock delivered perfect blows to Noah’s G-spot. He kept driving his cock in and out. Noah’s tender hole began to cream and twitch. Their lips connected, and their tongues wrestled.
Noah rolled onto his side, and Matthew held him close, then drove his cock to new depths. Noah moaned and pleaded for more. Matthew loved hearing him beg for more. He gave him more. Each new stroke made Noah’s anus leak all over the bed.
The moans coming from Noah grew louder. Someone knocked on the wall. Matthew giggled and covered Noah’s mouth. Noah’s moaned in Matthew’s hands as that throbbing penis moved faster and faster in and out of him. Matthew lifted his leg over Noah and pounded him hard and fast.
Noah’s moans turned into whimpers of pleasure. Matthew was fucking him so deep and good. His cock was leaking precum and throbbing uncontrollably. Noah began to stroke his cock at a rapid pace. In a matter of seconds, he had cum all over his leg and thigh.
“Can I cum in you,” Matthew asked.
Noah gave him the okay. With a few more hard thrusts, Matthew’s dick swelled and exploded deep in Noah’s anus. Matthew let out a loud moan. Noah shoved his tongue down his throat to stifle his moans.
As the two were getting dressed, Matthew caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror. Despite the black eye staring back at him, there was a glow and peacefulness on him.
Noah looked at him, “ This shouldn’t have ever happened.”
Matthew chuckled, “Well, guess what? We’re crazy in love, and nothing will ever change that.”
“He didn’t know who I was. Don’t blame him. I knew what I was doing,” Noah confessed.
Matthew sighed, “I read somewhere that people get a glimpse of who they are in high school, but they start to become who they are meant to be in college.”
“Then I’m fucked. Apparently, I’m an evil bitch,” Noah laughed.
“Not evil. Just a bitch,” Matthew smiled.
“A bitch you want, though.”
“A bitch I’ll have. I believe we are endgame.”
“Why are we doing this? We should be running away from one another, Mateo.”
“Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you’re happy now?”
“Not you quoting Michelle Branch,” Noah said with a slight chuckle.
“We both are figuring things out. So, we agree right now that we go out and explore life and make memories without fear and worry of hurting each other, and by Christmas 2008, if we decide that after two years apart, we want to work, we will meet wherever. We don’t ask any questions. We fall right back in love. What do you say? ” Matthew asked.
Noah thought about it. He had to admit that he did feel like he and Matthew were endgame. He loved him more than he had ever loved a single soul.
Noah rolled his eyes, “Where would we meet?”
“Times Square?”
“God, no. How cliche?”
“Okay then. You name it, and I’ll be there, Monty.”
“I know a place. I want you to be with me the first time you see this place, so no going off to explore,” Noah said.
“Deal.”
Noah wrote down the address and name of the place and gave it to Matthew. They shared one more kiss.
“I’ll see you in two years, Monty,” Matthew said as he walked out the door.
Noah sat on the bed for a few minutes. He smiled to himself, and then he ran out of the room, down the stairs, and out of the building. He didn’t see Matthew, so he ran and flagged down a taxi.
Matthew stood in Times Square, looking around and taking in the sights. He had hoped to do this with Noah, but it never happened each time he came to the city.
A hand touched him, and he turned around. Noah was smiling at him.
“Monty, what are you doing here?”
“I wanted to kiss the man I love in the middle of Times Square before I say goodbye to him for two years.”
The gesture touched Matthew’s heart. Noah wrapped his arms around Matthew’s neck, and they kissed like two people destined to love each other in and out of time. In the distance, Michelle Branch's “Are You Happy Now?” played. A question that only time could and would answer.
