“There’s never a right time to say goodbye. But I gotta make the first move. ‘Cause if I don’t, you gonna start hating me. ‘Cause I don’t feel the way I once felt about you.
- Chris Brown (Say Goodbye)
September 2006
Matthew broke away from his kiss with Terrick. The two studs stood before each other, completely aroused. Terrick licked his lips and pulled Matthew in for another kiss. Their hands began to explore each other. Terrick slid his hands down Matthew's back and onto his glutes. He gave them a loving squeeze. Matthew rubbed his hand up and down the length of Terrick's growing erection. He never thought another man would arouse him, yet he was about to risk it all with Terrick.
"Your ass feels good," Terrick whispered in his ear.
Terrick slid his hands inside Matthew's pants and underwear. The feel of those fantastic glutes in his hands set him on fire. Matthew felt nervous having someone touch him there. Terrick ran his finger across Matthew's tight, puckered hole.
Boom! The sound of a picture falling broke the spell they were under. They pulled from one another. The picture was of Noah and Matthew from Noah's prom night. Instantly, Matthew felt remorse for making out with Terrick.
Regrettably, Matthew said, "Terrick, you have to leave."
"I don't understand. I thought you wanted this," Terrick questioned. He tried to feel up on Matthew again.
"I can't cheat on my dude." He pushed him away.
"Whatever you say, Mat," Terrick said as he headed for the door.
Noah and Zane had stripped down to their boxer briefs. The kisses between them continued to heat up. Noah enjoyed the way Zane's lips felt against his. Zane was leaping for joy inside. He wanted Noah since day one. His throbbing erection was proof of his desire.
Zane pulled his underwear down, and Noah wrapped his soft, delicate hands around Zane's large member. Noah slowly stroked him as they kissed, making sure to pull the foreskin back and expose the pale pink head of Zane's cock.
Noah wanted to forget all about Matthew. He pushed Zane onto the bed and took the cock into his mouth. He moved his lips up and down, tasting every inch of Zane.
"Oh my God. Noah, that feels so good," Zane moaned.
Noah moved to his balls and licked on them. Zane's moans got a bit louder. Noah was making him feel better than any of his previous hookups had ever made him feel.
With a pop, Noah pulled off Zane's cock. Zane put Noah on the bed on his knees. Noah's hole was exposed entirely. It was a marvelous sight that Zane enjoyed. He ran his hands across Noah's soft glutes and then traced his finger across his anus. Noah's body shivered.
Zane kissed the outside of Noah's rosebud, and then he slowly pushed his tongue inside his anus. Noah responded with soft moans. Zane ran his tongue around inside of him. He sucked his flavor into his mouth. His lips kissed Noah's puckered ring.
"I want it, Zane," Noah uttered.
There was no turning back for them. Zane took all 9 inches of his hard uncut cock and pushed it inside of Noah. Noah's hole gave way and let Zane take him. They started with slow strokes. Noah's cheeks vibrated as Zane took him.
Zane went as deep as his cock could go in Noah. He kissed Noah's back as he moved in and out of him. Noah arched his back, and Zane's cock hit a new depth. Noah's ass bounced and swayed as Zane fucked him. This new position sent a thrill through them.
Zane admired the way Noah moved. It made him want more. Noah enjoyed the way the cock moved in and out of him. It felt different than he had expected. For all of twenty minutes, Zane did the work. They switched positions, and Noah began to bounce up and down on Zane's cock. Noah felt more relaxed and in control when he was on top.
He rode Zane like the perfect cowboy. He took every inch deep into his tunnel and ensured he worked him. The muscles in his walls worked overtime, but it was worth it. Zane's dick was good.
Zane rolled him over and pounded him. He picked up the pace and quickly moved in and out of the wet hole. He went deeper and harder as he felt his climax approaching. Noah stroked himself as his anus worked Zane. Within minutes, the two reached their climax. Zane pulled out and burst his load all over Noah's chest. Noah cum blended in with Zane's. The two snuggled up together and drifted off to sleep.
The knocking at the door woke Noah from his sleep. Zane wrapped his arm around Noah's waist and pulled him close.
Half asleep, Zane asked, "Why is someone at your door so early?"
"It's probably Trevor. Maybe he wants to talk about his date with your friend. I'll send him away," Noah said as he climbed out of bed.
He quickly slipped on a robe. Zane pulled the covers over his head. Noah opened the door. His heart nearly exploded when he saw Matthew.
"Matthew!" Noah couldn't believe his eyes.
"Happy birthday, Monty."
He quickly stepped into the hall and closed the door behind him. Matthew was surprised that Noah had not invited him in.
"What are you doing here," Noah asked.
"I needed to see you. Are you going to invite me in?"
"I can't. We can't have unregistered guests in the room. How about you wait for me downstairs? I'll slip something on, and we can chat." Noah was beyond nervous.
"Sure, okay. I'll meet you downstairs." Matthew was suspicious.
Noah quickly went back to the room. Matthew felt something was off with Noah. On his walk down the hall, he noticed a girl leaving a guy's room. The two people shared a kiss, which only fueled Matthew's thoughts that something was different about Noah.
Noah ran into the closet. He quickly tossed his clothing around, looking for something to wear that didn't say he slept with someone else.
"Zane, wake up. You have to go. Matthew is here." He whispered loudly.
"Who is Matthew," Zane asked as he sat up in bed.
"My boyfriend."
"What? I thought you guys broke up last night?"
"We never actually said the words. The fight just alluded to a breakup. He's here. I have to go, and you need not be here when we return."
Zane pulled the covers back. His naked body was on display for Noah to check out briefly. Noah finished getting dressed. Zane pulled Noah in for a quick morning kiss.
Noah and Matthew wandered around the city like perfect strangers. No words were spoken. No loving glances were given. A few short weeks had already changed the trajectory of their lives.
Tired of the silence, Matthew spoke, "I thought you'd be happy to see me."
"I guess I'm just shocked. You made it pretty clear last night how you felt about me."
They kept walking. Never once looking at each other as they spoke.
"I made my feelings clear on you dressing up like a female."
"Same thing."
Matthew stopped, "Look at me, Monty."
Noah stopped walking and faced Matthew.
"It's not the same thing." Matthew tried to sound convincing.
"Whatever you say," Noah said as he turned and continued walking.
"How about we check out some of the museums you've wanted to see?"
"I've already seen everything I wanted to see, Mat."
Hearing Noah call him Mat stung. Matthew knew things between them were very different. He didn’t want anything to change.
Matthew called out, "We have to do something special for your birthday, Monty."
Noah faced him, "Will you stop being nice to me? I don't deserve it."
"Why don't you deserve it?"
"I did something. I thought we were over. I did something. I can't take it back," Noah said, tears slowly rolling down his face.
For a moment, no one spoke. Matthew processed the information in his mind. Noah stood there, ready for their relationship to end.
"Are you going to do it again?" Matthew finally asked.
"What?"
Matthew sighed, "I kissed someone last night. It almost went further, but in the end, it didn't. We both messed up."
"I want to be mad, but I know that would make me a hypocrite. So, where do we go from here?" Noah asked.
"Will you do it again? I'm still all in, and I think you are as well. The only question left is whether you will do it again."
"No. Never. Never in a million years."
"Then I don't care. We'll forget it ever happened. I love you."
"Mat," Noah cried.
"Stop calling me that. My name is Mateo. You call me Mateo, Noah. I am your man, and you're mine."
Matthew pulled Noah in for a kiss. He did love Noah. They loved each other, and they could feel it in the power of their kiss.
Noah and Matthew walked on campus holding hands. Trevor was with Zane and Theo Wolfe, his date from last night. Trevor spotted his friend.
"Noah," Trevor called out.
Noah saw who Trevor was with, and he wanted to die. He didn't want Matthew to meet Zane. It was too late, though. The three were already in their face.
'Mat, I didn't know you were coming into the city. You missed the fun last night," Trevor said.
"I think I can live with that," Matthew said.
"Well, we are having dinner tonight for Noah at Zane's parent's house," Trevor said.
"Is Zane your boyfriend," Matthew asked.
"No, I'm into Theo," Trevor said, pointing at Theo.
"Zane is my friend," Noah said.
"I'm Zane. It's nice to finally put a face to the name. Noah told me a lot about you," Zane said. He was trying to be friendly.
Matthew could see by the look in his eyes that he was the one with whom Noah had cheated on him. Matthew hated him. He wanted to hurt him, but he knew it wouldn't solve anything.
"Noah, I'll be cooking your favorites tonight," Zane said as he smiled at him.
Noah blushed, "You don't have to do that."
"I want to. You deserve it," he said.
"I know you guys have this whole thing planned, but I have plans for my baby tonight. Maybe some other time," Matthew interjected.
"Are you serious," Trevor asked.
"As a heart attack," Matthew snapped.
Zane fired, "That's cool. You won't be in town forever. Atlanta is calling you back home."
"Zane?" Noah couldn't believe they were challenging each other. “We’re gonna go now,” Noah said as he pulled Matthew away before he could say another word.
Matthew and Noah entered the two-story penthouse suite of the Plaza Hotel. Rose petals floated from the door up the stairs to the bed.
"When did you do this," Noah asked.
"When I first got in this morning. I guess you can call it luck that the room was already available." Matthew said as he took Noah's hand and led him up the stairs.
The bedroom was lit with candles, and rose petals made a giant heart in the center of the bed. Noah's heart warmed at the sight of it.
"All of this to have sex with me?"
Matthew laughed, "All of this to make love. I want to give every part of me to you. I love you, Monty."
"I love you too."
They kissed, and the kissing led to their clothing coming off. Matthew had Noah sit in the middle of the bed. Matthew took Noah's cock into his mouth. Noah loved every moment of it. Matthew's lips felt good wrapped around his swollen member.
Noah ran his hands all over Matthew's body as he sucked him off. His head moved up and down and around as he performed his oral duties. Matthew’s flawless glutes were on display. Noah fought the urge to cum just from the way Matthew's lips felt.
Matthew traced his fingers along Noah's testicles as he sucked him. Noah throbbed in his hands. Matthew pulled off his cock and laid on his back. He spread his legs and exposed his virgin hole to Noah.
"Put your tongue in me," Matthew commanded.
Noah kissed Matthews's anus. His tongue ran across his tight hole. The taste was terrific. He pushed his tongue deep inside Matthew's hole. Soft whimpers escaped from Matthew's mouth.
Noah's tongue felt good, sliding across his hole. His cock throbbed and leaked precum all over his torso. Noah devoured his hole. It was an experience Noah never knew he wanted but would always be grateful for.
Matthew didn't know how good it could feel until Terrick touched him last night. He wanted more than anything to try it. He hoped that this would bring him and Noah closer than ever. If anyone should take his cherry, it should be Noah.
Matthew straddled Noah. He lined Noah's cock up against his hole, and he eased down on it. The second Noah's penis broke through, Matthew moaned, and his body tensed up. The pain that ran through his body told him to give up, but the desire in his heart pushed him to power through. Slowly, he moved his body further down, and the pain began to ease, and a tingle of pleasure rocked through him.
"Oh shit. Oh my God," Matthew moaned.
He moved slowly up and down on Noah's cock. Noah felt pleasure, unlike anything he had felt before. His cock felt like it was in a bed of velvet. Matthew's walls felt warm and tight. He slapped those fat cheeks as Matthew moved up and down on his cock.
Matthew had no idea it would feel so good. Noah pushed him on his back and started to move his hips. His pelvis moved back and forth. His cock drew in and out of Matthew's tight tunnel. They both were in love with the feeling. Matthew had to stroke his own erect cock. Noah was hitting deep pleasure spots in his anus.
"Oh my God, Monty. It feels so good," He cried out.
"You feel amazing around my dick," Noah told him.
Matthew flipped on his hands and knees. Noah drove his cock in Matthew's wet hole. He moved in and out, going deeper with each stroke. Noah knew he wouldn't last much longer. Matthew tighten his ass around Noah's cock. He wanted to feel that cock stroke every inch of his walls.
Noah picked up his pace and pounded deeper and harder into him. Matthew's moans grew louder. It felt so good having Noah inside of him. He stroked his cock faster, and then he screamed as a load of hot cum erupted and landed all over his stomach.
Noah drove his cock into him a few more times before he finally bred him. The two spent the rest of the night making love. They had shared something special and hoped that it would keep them happy.
TWO WEEKS LATER…….
In the two weeks that followed, both men stayed faithful. Things were hard, though. Zane was not easy for Noah to be around. Terrick, though he said he respected Matthew's relationship, kept making passes at Matthew.
Noah arrived on the Emory campus for his weekend visit to Matthew. It was his first time coming, and he took an earlier flight to surprise Matthew.
He was walking across the campus when he saw Matthew playing football. Matthew didn't see him. He was so lost in the game with his friends. Terrick tackled Matthew. He ended up between Matthew's legs and didn't seem to be in a hurry to move. Once they were up, he slapped Matthew on his behind, and it appeared Matthew liked the attention. Noah couldn't help but notice that these guys had bodies of muscles. They were fit.
"Who is that dude staring at us," one of the guys asked as he pointed at Noah.
"Noah," Matthew screamed. “That's my dude," he said as he ran across the field.
Matthew was excited to see Noah. He kissed him.
"You're early. Come on, let me introduce you to the guys," Matthew said as he pulled him across the field.
Noah felt insecure. It suddenly made sense why Matthew didn't like the idea of him doing drag. He was around athletic men all day. They were all fine, and they were all far more masculine than Noah ever was.
"So, you must be the infamous boyfriend? I'm Terrick, the friend." Terrick introduced himself in a way that told Noah all he needed to know.
With an eye roll, Noah said, "Charmed, I'm sure."
"So, you gonna take off on us," Terrick asked Matthew as he placed his hand on the small of Matthew's back. It was directly above his ass.
"Yeah. We'll be at the party tonight," Matthew said with a smile.
Matthew took Noah's hand, and as they began to walk off, Terrick slapped Matthew on his ass. Everyone laughed. Noah, however, felt disrespected and hurt. He wanted to speak up, but being somewhere new and around a bunch of guys who looked like they could easily break him was intimidating. Those defense classes Matthew made him take in his Junior year of high school would only go so far.
The party at the frat house was packed. Everyone was having a good time. Noah felt extremely out of place there. He wanted to enjoy himself, but it was difficult for him to do so. He kept thinking about the way Matthew responded to Terrick. It pained him, despite his best efforts, to ignore it.
Noah and Matthew were dancing. No one was paying them any attention. However, Terrick was watching them like a predator. The boy wanted Matthew badly. Matthew secretly wanted Terrick. He loved Noah, but something just fascinated him about Terrick.
"Are you having fun," Matthew asked.
"Yeah. Just going to use the restroom," Noah said as he slipped away.
The moment Noah slipped away, Terrick made his way over. Matthew lit up when he saw Terrick. Terrick knew it was only a matter of time before he got Matthew.
"Your dude looks like he's not enjoying himself," Terrick said with a sly grin.
"I think he's a little nervous."
"Well, let's dance till he gets back," Terrick said as he pulled him in for a dance.
Terrick and Matthew slow danced to "Say Goodbye" by Chris Brown. Terrick pulled Matthew close. The feel of Terrick's hard body excited Matthew. There was something about the way he touched him and spoke to him that made his blood run hot.
Matthew placed his head in Terrick's chest. He closed his eyes and just enjoyed the moment. Noah stopped in his tracks when he saw the two of them. As he watched his 1st love dance with Terrick, he thought about walking out. He was prepared to leave, but then Terrick looked at him. Terrick smiled at Noah and then placed his hand on Matthew's ass. Matthew slowly moved away.
"Stop. My boyfriend might see you," Matthew said.
"He's watching us. I think he wants to join us."
Matthew slowly turned around. Noah was indeed watching them. Matthew came and grabbed his hand.
"You have feelings for him," Noah asked.
"I'm trying not to. Sometimes, I wonder what it would be like. You're the only guy I've ever been with. You've been with three dudes. You know what you like," Matthew said fearfully.
The love in Noah's heart for Matthew led him to make a decision. He knew he was the only guy Matthew had ever been with, and as much as the idea of seeing Matthew with someone else hurt him, the thought of losing him killed him.
"Do you want to have a threesome with him?" Noah asked.
"You would do that for me?" Matthew was excited. He could have the guy he loved, plus the guy who excited him simultaneously.
"I love you. There's nothing I wouldn't do for you." Noah tried to sound secure, but he wasn’t as secure as he would have liked.
The three men sat on Matthew's bed shirtless. They were sharing a three-way kiss. Matthew was in the middle. It was clear that Terrick was only interested in having Matthew.
Matthew and Noah shared a kiss, and Terrick pulled Matthew away. He turned Matthew to face him. Matthew and Terrick started making out. Noah watched as the two got lost in one another. Their tongues danced together. Terrick ran his hands down Matthew's back and into his pants.
Matthew forgot all about Noah. He became lost in the feelings that Terrick was providing him. Noah tried to touch his boyfriend, but Terrick pushed him away. He did it without ever breaking his kiss with Matthew.
Noah moved off the bed and watched them go at each other. He was the odd man out. Matthew kissed Terrick down his stomach, and he pulled Terrick's long dick out. He took it in his mouth. Terrick moaned, looked at Noah, smiled, and blew a kiss.
Terrick was bigger than Noah in every way. The night was supposed to help reaffirm the love and desire between Noah and Matthew, but instead, it highlighted all the ways Noah knew he could never measure up for Matthew.
"Fuck, your mouth feels so good. I've been waiting forever for this," Terrick said as he ran his fingers through Matthew's curls.
Matthew was so far gone with lust that he didn't even realize that Noah wasn't participating.
Terrick pulled Matthew's pants off and underwear off. He then took Matthew's cock into his mouth. His fat lips felt good around Matthew's cock.
"Oh my God, it feels so fucking good," Matthew moaned.
Noah collected his things and quietly exited the room. Terrick watched him leave. He was satisfied. He had Matthew right where he wanted him, and nothing could or would stop him.
Matthew sat on Terrick's face. Terrick’s tongue fucked his tight hole as he sucked his fat cock. Terrick repeatedly slapped Matthew's round cheeks. Matthew felt so submissive and turned on. The attraction he felt for Terrick was unbelievable.
Matthew sucked his cock for all it was worth. Terrick rimmed Matthew like a cheap whore. It was hot and intense. Weeks of teasing were finally starting to pay off between them. Terrick put Matthew on his knees. He slapped his heavy cock on his cheeks.
"Condom," Matthew requested.
"Never leave home without it," Terrick said as he opened the wrapper.
Terrick placed his condom-covered cock against Matthew's hole. He slowly pushed it inside of him. Matthew gripped the sheets and moaned as Terrick slid every inch of his cock inside of him.
"Fuck," Matthew moaned.
Terrick wasted no time drilling his cock into Matthew. He went deep inside of him. Terrick's cock moved in and out of Matthew. He filled his tight hole and sent pleasure coursing through his body.
Matthew's ass was everything Terrick had hoped it would be. It was tight and warm and quickly becoming wet with each stroke of his cock.
"Fuck, this ass was worth the wait, Mat," Terrick moaned in his ear.
Terrick pounded deeper in Matthew's guts. He loved the way Matthew's hole gripped his cock. The way Matthew's glutes bounced was picture-perfect. Terrick rolled them onto their side.
He lifted Matthew's leg and pounded him. The two shared a kiss as he continued to fuck him. His cock got deeper in Matthew. Matthew had no cares in the world. His only thoughts were those of pleasure. It rocked him to his core.
Matthew couldn't help but touch Terrick's muscled chest and rub his hands over his tight abs. Terrick's body was perfect. It made his cock grow hard. He leaked precum the entire time Terrick devoured his willing hole.
Terrick drove his cock faster and deeper. Matthew's hole swallowed his dick. It felt good. The pleasure was too much for them. They had wanted it for so long. They couldn't control it.
Matthew released a watery load of cum on his stomach. Terrick pulled out, snatched the condom off, and came onto Matthew's chest.
In the public bathroom down the hall was Noah. Noah's eyes were red. He stared at his reflection in the mirror. He wanted to fall apart, but he refused to let himself fall into despair. The words from that Chris Brown song replayed repeatedly in his head. It was time to say goodbye. He had to accept that he wasn’t enough for Matthew before it crushed him.
"Look at yourself, Noah. Don’t you dare cry. You did this. You cheated. You agreed to be his boyfriend when you knew you should have taken it slow. You agreed to this threesome. You are the villain in all of your dramas. You are the Heartbreaker. Embrace who you are. Cut off your feelings and emotions. Say goodbye to all of it. Now walk the fuck away and never look back," he said to himself.
He buried all his feelings, and that was when Noah decided never to let his emotions show again. He was officially done.
Matthew and Terrick lay in the bed in the afterglow of their sexual encounter. It was then that it hit Matthew that Noah was missing. He sat up and looked around the room.
"Looking for your dude? He left forever ago," Terrick told him.
"What? Are you serious," Matthew asked, confused.
"I saw dude leave. He left way before we fucked. I guess he couldn't handle seeing you with a real man," Terrick said as he got out of bed.
"Fuck," Matthew yelled.
He grabbed his phone and called Noah. There was no answer, so he hung up and called again. There was still no answer.
"You think he's mad," Matthew asked him.
"Hey, that's your dude. I ain't got shit to do with what happens next. I got what I wanted." Terrick did not care about Matthew. His only objective had been to fuck Matthew, and now he could move on to his next target.
"What are you saying? I thought you liked me? You been flirting with me for weeks."
"Look, I'm not a relationship guy. I fuck, and I move on. We fucked, and now I'm moving on."
Terrick opened the door. An envelope taped to the door had Matthew's name on it. Terrick tossed it to him and left. Matthew opened it. It was a letter from Noah. Noah had ended their relationship, and there was no sign that they would ever get back together.
FOUR WEEKS LATER…….
The underground party was packed. The shy Latino man had been eyeing this one guy all night. He had promised himself that he would put himself out there more when he got to college. He swallowed the remaining beer in his cup. He walked over and tapped the guy on his shoulder.
The guy spun around in the chair. He was beautiful. His dark skin was perfect. He had a low-cut fade. Both of his ears were pierced. His diamond studs sparkled; anyone could tell they were real and expensive. He was dressed in all black, very androgynous. Also, very high class at the same time. There was this smoldering look about him.
"Hey, I'm Leo. Can I get you a drink?"
The smoldering guy in the chair smiled, "You're cute. I'm good on the drink, Leo. However, you can fuck me thou. No strings attached!"
Leo smiled nervously, "I've never actually done it before. I want to, but I may not be any good."
"Well, it's your lucky night. I can teach you," the guy said seductively.
"Okay. Teach me. This is ridiculous—you know that, right? I didn’t think getting laid could be so easy. I don't even know your name."
"I'm Noah, but most people call me Heartbreaker. I'll let you decide what you want to call me by the end of the night."
Noah took Leo by the hand, and they left the mixer. Noah had completely changed. His feelings were shut off, and he changed his style and personality. I guess you can say Blair was right all along. Deep down, Noah was a heartbreaker, and there was nothing more terrifying than a man with no fucks to give.
