“He’s like a lighter to my cigarette. I never knew another human life could have the power to take over mine. So baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, I love you.”
- Ashanti (Baby)
January 2026
Noah sat in silence as Mama Rosa and Ashlyn stared at the photo he had taken with Matthew on his phone a few nights ago. He knew the information was a lot to process, and he was still processing everything.
Rosa looked up from the photo, “My baby is still alive? Did you touch him? Did you speak with him? Her voice cracked with each question she asked.
“I did. He’s alive, and he’s real. He doesn’t remember anything. His entire life has been wiped away from him.” Noah said as calmly as he possibly could.
"Does MJ know,” Ashlyn asked.
Noah shook his head, “No. I haven’t figured out a way to say it just yet. I felt that I needed to tell you all first.”
“Where is he now? Where’s my son?” Rosa asked as she fought back tears of joy.
Noah exhaled, “I don’t know. I know he’s in Boston. The name he goes by is Greg Black. I know he has a husband. I will find him again and bring him home to you. You have my word.”
“I know you will. You two have a love beyond words. I want to see my son before I’m gone, Noah,” she said.
“I promise,” Noah said as he wiped a tear from his eye.
“Married,” Ashlyn shook her head. “No, he’s not legally married to this person. You two were married. Legally, he’s still married to you. Your marriage isn’t void because Mat is alive. You guys are still married, Noah.”
“I don’t think your brother cares about that. In his eyes and in his mind, I am not the love of his life. Greg Black has made that clear.”
“His name is Matthew Colby! He’s my brother. He’s not Greg Black. You are my brother-in-law, Noah. I don’t want anybody else.” Ashlyn shouted.
Noah hugged Ashlyn, “Ash, I’m not going anywhere. You guys are my family, always and forever. If your brother never wants me back, I will never stop being your other brother or the other son. Nothing will ever erase the last twenty years. We are family no matter what.”
Everything had changed for them. Despite the changes, they knew they would always be bonded by their love for Matthew and their love for one another.
February 2026
The sunlight timidly infiltrated the bedroom through the sheer curtains, casting a pale glow on Matthew's restless figure in the king-size bed. Sleep had eluded him each night for the past month since the fateful encounter with Noah. He would shut his eyes, only to find himself transported to a snowy landscape, standing side by side with Noah, his heart aching with a longing that refused to be quelled.
This time, his dream was different. He was back in time with Noah. They were both eighteen again and in love. They were in a beautiful, spacious, dimly lit room. Noah was in the middle of the oversized bed.
Noah lay there with a beautiful, innocent look on his face. He was naked, and his right arm rested just above his head. He slowly ran his fingers down his chest and stomach with his left hand. Matthew watched him from the corner of the room with seduction in his eyes.
Noah slowly ran his fingers along the shaft of his penis. Matthew moved slowly from the corner towards the bed. Noah took in Matthew’s beautiful naked body. The way Matthew’s thick cock bounced as he moved made Noah’s mouth water. Noah began to moan, and Matthew climbed into the bed with him.
A loud crash from downstairs woke Matthew from his dream. His cock was fully erect and tenting the sheets. He grabbed the soft pillow, placed it over his face, and screamed all his frustrations. For ten years, he had been living his life as Greg Black. He was proud of the life he had built since awakening from his comma.
Matthew forced himself out of bed and into the shower. Steam filled the bathroom, making it nearly impossible to see anything. A hand touched Matthew. He quickly turned around to find his husband, Ishmael Rashid Black, standing there naked and beautiful. Ishmael was Middle Eastern and breathtakingly beautiful. They had been married for seven years, and their love was pure and whole.
Ishmael pulled Matthew into a kiss. His hands explored Matthew’s smooth, defined chest and his broad back and shoulders. Matthew ran his hands down his husband’s backside. He lifted him, and Ishmael wrapped his legs around his waist. Their kissing grew more intense and passionate.
“Fuck me, Gregory,” Ishmael said with pleading eyes.
Matthew pushed Ishmael’s back against the wall. As they made out, Matthew stroked his cock. He placed his erect penis at Ishmael’s entrance and started pushing the head inside of him.
Matthew pulled his lips away. He stared at his husband, and slowly, Ishmael’s face changed before his eyes. Ishmael faded away, and Noah’s face appeared instead.
Matthew was stunned to be looking at Noah, but he was also deeply aroused. Matthew slid more of his cock into Ishmael. He started to move in and out of him.
“See, I knew you’d remember me again." The apparition of Noah said.
Matthew snapped out of his trance. He was no longer staring at Noah but at his husband again. Ishmael was waiting patiently to be fucked. Matthew’s erection had died, and he couldn’t even begin to feel the sexual urge to get it back. He gently put Ishmael down.
“I’m sorry,” Noah sounded embarrassed by his inability to keep a lasting erection.
"It’s okay, babe.” Ishmael was sensitive to his husband’s manhood.
Matthew said, “I don’t know what’s wrong with me suddenly. I was always in the mood.” He was so confused about everything.
“Well, not always, but definitely more than you have been in the last month.”
“What are you saying, Ish?”
“You haven’t been yourself since you met him. I think if we have any chance of getting our life back to normal, we are going to have to meet with him and get the story of your life, babe.”
Fearfully, Matthew said, “What if I don’t like what I learn about myself, or you hear something that makes you leave me? I’m scared.”
Ishmael stroked Matthew’s face, “I’m not going anywhere. I will love who you were just as much as I love who you are. I promise.”
Noah had heard great things about the Italian restaurant, so he suggested they meet there when he received a DM from Ishmael on Instagram. Noah, Matthew, and Ishmael sat quietly in the back of the Rocky Hill, CT, restaurant. It was the halfway point between Boston and NYC. Noah resided in New York, and Matthew and Ishmael lived in Boston.
Noah had to be honest with himself. Ishmael was beautiful and exotic, and he could see why he ended up with him. If he judged things based on appearances, Ishmael would win hands down. However, Noah knew that there was more to love than beauty. Love was also about humility, character, trust, support, and compatibility, to name a few.
Oddly enough, Ishmael was thinking almost the same thing. At first glance, Noah struck him as extremely attractive. He gave off this calm and relaxing energy. It was the same energy Matthew felt when he first met Noah some twenty years ago as a Junior in high school.
Matthew was a ball of nerves. He was stuck between two beautiful men who loved him. He wondered how he had gotten so lucky to be with two amazing men. Even though he didn’t remember Noah, he could tell that their love was genuine and unique.
Tired of the silence, Noah asked, “Why am I here?”
“We were hoping you could tell us more about Gregory’s life,” Ishmael said as he took Matthew’s hand. The gesture did not go unnoticed by Noah.
“Well, I don’t know anything about Gregory’s life, but I can tell you all about Matthew. My Mateo.” Noah said it with a bit of sass in his voice.
“My husband and I would love to hear what happened after the prom,” Matthew said; he sensed the tone in Noah’s voice. This was his way of reaffirming his love for Ishmael.
June 2006
Graduation had come and gone. Noah and Matthew had decided after prom to take things slow. They talked almost daily on the phone. Noah was going to spend his summer traveling across the country with Trevor. Matthew had an internship lined up with a law firm in Atlanta.
Trevor and Noah had become the best of friends since Noah came to Cali. The two were like brothers. It made absolute sense that they would spend the summer traveling. Their first destination was a week at the private beach house that Noah’s parents owned on the island of Kauai in Hawaii.
“I’m so excited bitch. I have to get me some island dick,” Trevor gleefully shouted as they rode in the backseat of the black sedan.
Noah laughed, “Make sure you get plenty for me.”
“This is insane. You won’t mess with anyone else. But you also won’t let Matthew call you his man. It’s obvious you’re into the boy, Dominique.” Trevor said in his fake southern accent.
“Well, Blanche,” Noah said with a roll of his eyes, “I don’t want to rush anything.”
“I mean, according to you, he already dived inside of you. You may as well date the man bitch.”
“It was some good dick. I do miss him,” Noah said with a blushing smile.
“Don’t let a good dick pass you by. You better work that shit,” Trevor said as he started humping and laughing.
“I hate you, but this will be the best summer ever!”
“Girl, not just the summer but college as well. We are going to school in New York City. All that big east coast dick. Now that I think about it, maybe you should stay single for at least your freshman year.”
The car stopped in front of the beach house. The two men stepped out of the vehicle, and the sight took their breath away.
“Holy shit. Tell your mother thank you for this.” Trevor was stunned by the beauty of the scenery.
The beach house was nestled among lush greenery, a private path leading to a pristine white sandy beach. The three-story home was a blend of traditional Hawaiian architecture and modern amenities. It offered panoramic ocean views, outdoor showers, and luxurious bedrooms. Tropical gardens and coconut palms surrounded it.
The front door opened as the two were about to walk up the path to the house. Trevor and Noah stopped in their tracks. Matthew stood there with a grass hula skirt on. Noah lit up when he saw him.
“Oh my God! What are you doing here?” Noah was so excited.
They had not seen each other since prom. Noah could not attend Matthew’s graduation, and Matthew could not attend Noah’s graduation. They embraced and shared a sweet kiss.
“I had to see you before my internship started. I reached out to Trevor, and he invited me.”
Noah cut his eyes at Trevor, “You sneaky, bitch.”
“How the hell did you guys afford this place,” Matthew asked them.
Noah quickly answered, “Uncle Bobby knows a travel agent. It worked out well.” He had not told Matthew just how wealthy his parents were. Noah’s mom lived a very subtle life. Flaunting her wealthy wasn’t something she did.
“I will take the bags inside. You two go explore a little bit.” Trevor told them as he took the bags.
Noah and Matthew walked the path down to the beach. It was like something out of a movie. Everything was stunning. They found a spot by a large formation of rocks. As they stood holding hands, the tide would push the water ashore and cover their feet.
“I’ve missed you, Monty.”
“I’ve missed you, too. Can you believe it? We are college men now!” Noah was excited.
“You’re not worried about it? We’re still going to be apart. You’ll be in New York at Columbia, and I’ll be in Atlanta at Emory. What if we lose touch or someone else catches your eye?” You could hear the fear in Matthew’s voice.
“Mateo, I don’t know how to calm your fears. I wish I did. All I can tell you is that I love you. We are going to overcome whatever comes our way. That’s what we do.”
Noah kissed him, and Matthew felt all his fears wash away. Noah began to take his clothing off.
Matthew quickly looked around, "What are you doing?” He was nervous but also intrigued.
“Take off your clothes. You haven’t been inside me since my prom.” Noah was so calm and collected. He wasn’t the same person from when the two men first met in their junior year of high school.
Matthew bit his lips, “You are so fucking sexy.”
The two stripped naked. Noah got on his knees and took Matthew’s growing cock into his mouth. Matthew smiled the second he felt Noah’s lips around his swelling member. For several minutes, Matthew enjoyed the sensation of Noah’s mouth.
The Hawaiian sun beaming down on his back only made Matthew run hot with passion. Noah worked that cock like an Olympic gold medalist. The taste of Matthew did things to Noah that he could never explain.
Noah knelt on the rocks, and Matthew spread his beautiful cheeks. His tongue ran across Noah’s beautiful dark anus. He pushed his tongue deep inside of Noah.
The soft sounds of Noah’s moans blended well with the ocean’s crashing waves. Never in all his years did Matthew ever think he would enjoy rimming someone. He could never seem to get enough of it with Noah. Noah’s inside was just as sweet as his outside. Matthew stroked his erection as he feasted on Noah’s ass.
Noah spread his cheeks wider, and Matthew slid his fat cock deep inside the love of his life. Both men moaned, and Matthew began to pound Noah. As much as they would have loved for it to be a long, drawn-out session, it was an afternoon quickie.
Each time Matthew drove his cock into Noah, it made his cheeks bounce. Matthew braced himself and slammed harder and faster into Noah. Noah moved his hips like a dancer and took the thrusting of Matthew’s cock. The feeling was everything they wanted and needed from one another. They both reached their climax at the same time. Just as they were releasing their cum, a giant wave crashed into them and carried them out into the ocean. They both laughed and swam to one another and shared another sweet kiss.
“Monty, will you be my boyfriend?” Matthew knew what he wanted. He wanted Noah more than he wanted anything else in life.
Noah thought about the conversation he had earlier with Trevor. He wondered briefly if he should take Trevor’s advice. Then he looked into Matthew’s beautiful eyes. All his logic went out the window. Matthew would always win his heart over, no matter what. How could something that feels so good be so wrong? It can’t be right.
“I’ll be your boyfriend.” Noah smiled and then pulled Matthew in for a kiss.
February 2026
The night was quiet, hot, and calm in the small town. It was a little after 11, and it seemed as if everyone was asleep. Matthew once again found himself tossing and turning in bed. He climbed out of the squeaky motel bed he was sharing with Ishmael.
He felt restless in his soul. All he wanted was to sleep peacefully. Then he thought about the pool out back behind the motel. Matthew slipped into a pair of black swim briefs and wrapped a towel around his waist.
The night air was unusually humid and hot for the middle of February in the Northeast. Matthew expected the pool to be empty, but there was Noah sitting on the sun shelf, relaxing in a skimpy pair of red briefs, listening to music on his little Bluetooth speaker.
Noah gazed upon Matthew. Matthew was still the sexiest man he had ever laid eyes on. He wanted to ravish him, but he decided to play it cool and not say anything.
“I didn’t think anyone would be up. I couldn’t sleep. It’s unseasonably hot. Figured I’d go for a swim.” Matthew didn’t know why he was explaining himself or why he was suddenly so nervous. Maybe it was because he hadn’t been able to stop thinking about Noah since they shared that kiss.
Noah didn’t bother to respond. Matthew dropped his towel, and Noah felt a tingle rush through his penis. Matthew dived into the pool. The water helped clear his mind. He swam without thinking.
He came up for air and found himself directly in front of Noah. Noah openly checked him out. He paid extra attention to the way the water shaped and revealed Matthew’s girthy cock. Matthew felt vulnerable and exposed, but he also felt free.
“You’re blocking my view,” Noah said as he stared into his eyes.
Nervously, Matthew uttered, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.”
“Come sit with me. Watch the stars.” Noah patted the spot next to him.
For some reason, Matthew did just that. He stepped on the sun shelf and took a seat next to Noah. Their wet thighs touched, but neither one dared to move. For several minutes, they didn’t speak. The sexual tension between them, however, was extreme.
Matthew kept stealing little glances at Noah. Noah could see him, but he kept pretending he didn’t. Their hearts could feel the heat that was mounting within them.
Breaking the silence, Matthew asked, “Can I ask you a question?”
“Sure.”
“When we were together, did I ever not rise to the occasion? Like sexually.”
“Why? You can’t rise for your boy in there?” Noah asked with a hint of enjoyment.
“Lately, honestly, I can’t seem to do it since I met you. I don’t know why. I was curious if we experienced the same thing. Me not being able to do it for you,” Matthew said as he looked down shamefully.
Noah looked at him, “We always rose to the occasion. It was always special, whether a quickie, afternoon delight, or a midnight love-making session. We knew how to please each other in ways no one ever could for us.”
Matthew’s pulse quickened as he listened to Noah. His cock had come alive. It was dying to be free from those tight briefs he wore.
“Why do I keep thinking about you? My life was good before I met you.” Matthew wanted Noah to end the confusion he was feeling. History was repeating itself in an absurd manner.
“Then your life became great after you had me,” Noah said as he slowly pulled Matthew close to him.
Their lips were inches away from one another. Noah held them there, just lingering. He wanted Matthew to make the next move. Matthew couldn’t resist. He couldn’t explain it, but he was drawn to Noah like a moth to a flame. They kissed, and the fireworks exploded inside of them.
Matthew ran his hand up Noah’s thigh and over his throbbing erection. Noah’s cock felt amazing in his hands. His lips tasted familiar. Noah placed his hand on Matthew’s swollen erection, and he smiled inside. This was the cock he had been made for. For him, all roads would always lead back to Matthew.
Matthew’s body felt alive. Noah touched him in ways he had never been touched before. Only he had been touched. He just had no memory of it. His body responded with joy. His body had missed the way Noah touched him. It rejoiced in it. Just as things were about to heat up, “Baby” by Ashanti began to play on the speaker. The words described just how Noah viewed Matthew.
“Noah, maybe we shouldn’t do this. This is bad, right?” Matthew felt conflicted.
“Don’t think. Just go with it. You’re the lighter to my cigarette. Watch me smoke,” Noah said as he pulled Matthew’s briefs down.
Mathew’s fat cock flopped out, and Noah was filled with joy. It was still the same beautiful penis. Everything about it was the same. Noah quickly engulfed it with his mouth. Matthew moaned ever so gently. Noah licked all over the shaft and stroked him as he made love to Matthew’s cock with his mouth.
“Oh my God,” Matthew muttered.
Noah worked his mouth up and down the shaft. Now that he had Matthew in his mouth again, he wouldn’t give up until he had all of him. Noah slipped his briefs off while he serviced Matthew. Then he straddled Matthew’s lap. Matthew was so lost in the pleasure that he didn’t resist.
Noah lined the cock up at his entrance, and for the first time in over a decade, Matthew was inside of Noah. Noah moaned as he slid down on the thick, throbbing beast of a cock.
Noah’s walls wrapped around Matthew’s cock and wouldn’t let go. Matthew couldn’t move as Noah rode his cock. It was the most fantastic feeling in the world. As Noah bounced on the cock the water splashed around them. They didn’t care; they wanted it. They needed it like the desert needs the rain.
The look of pure ecstasy in Noah’s eyes turned Matthew on. It sent a rush of joy and empowerment surging through his body. He wanted to drive his cock deeper into Noah. Noah was filled with a particular type of peace and happiness. It made tears fall from his eyes. Tears of joy because he finally had the love of his life again.
Matthew wiped the tears from Noah’s eyes. Then something happened. Matthew had a vision of some sort. Matthew could see a younger version of Noah. Noah was in a room bouncing on someone’s cock. Noah had a black eye, and tears were running down his face. He could see the hand of the person Noah was having sex with wipe Noah’s tears away.
Just as quickly as the vision came, it was gone. Matthew pushed it out of his head and allowed himself to bask in the pleasure of his current encounter with Noah.
“Let me drive,” Matthew moaned.
Noah nodded his head, bent over, and Matthew slid his cock inside of him. Matthew drove himself deep into Noah. Noah’s ass bounced and moved so smoothly. They both moaned and groaned. Matthew went deeper into Noah. The two shared a deep kiss.
“I want you to taste me, Mateo.”
Matthew pulled out of Noah and sucked on his open hole. He pushed his tongue inside of him and ate him. Noah’s nectar exploded in Matthew’s mouth. However, more than anything, he wanted to pound Noah. He put Noah on his back, and Noah lifted his legs. Matthew pushed his cock back in him and put in work. He repeatedly slammed into Noah. Noah’s heavy nutsack swayed across his pelvis area.
The pleasure was great for them both. Noah stroked his cock as Matthew gave him the fuck he had been craving. Noah fired off a hot load of cum across his stomach. The muscles in his anus gripped Matthew’s cock with so much intensity Matthew couldn’t stop himself. He erupted inside of Noah. Noah pulled Matthew into a hot kiss.
“This shouldn’t have ever happened,” Noah said, feeling regret for having made Matthew cheat on Ishmael.
The memory flash happened again. Matthew quickly jumped and pulled out of Noah. His breathing became erratic. He grabbed his head in agony. He fought with himself to stop the flashes from happening.
“Mateo? Mateo, what’s wrong?' Noah asked as he stood up. He was becoming afraid.
Matthew could see himself in college. He was in a dorm. He knocked on a door, and Noah opened it. Noah had that black eye he saw earlier. Matthew entered the room and caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror. He had a black eye as well. Then the flash jumped to Noah crying as he rode some guy’s cock. Only it wasn’t some guy. It was Matthew. Then, the memory flashed to Noah and Matthew getting dressed after their sexual encounter.
Noah uttered with a broken heart, “This shouldn’t have ever happened.”
The flashes ended. Matthew looked at Noah; then his eyes rolled into the back of his head. He fell backwards into the pool.
Noah screamed, “Matthew! Somebody help! MATEO!”
Then everything faded to black!
