— Current Day —
Tyler’s POV:
We finally said our goodbyes that night after we both had finally acknowledged that we had feelings for one another…finally after twenty plus years of bottled up frustrations and fears… we both knew once and for all how we both felt about one another. I finally got answers as to why Tim just left me both times we were intimate with each other. While it made sense and I was still a little annoyed with the fact that he loved me this entire time but damn he had a horrible way of showing it didn’t he? I just chuckled to myself while I was thinking about our conversation on my drive home. We had agreed to meet up later in the week if both of us had the time. I pulled up to my house and put my truck in park and just sat there. Looking at every detail of the house and knowing my two amazing kids were inside probably busy doing whatever activity caught their attention at the time. It had been four years since that fateful day and each day I was getting better and better. I know Amy would want me to move on with my life, be happy and make sure the kids were happy and taken care of. The kids, check, I had that down no problem, I lived and breathed for those two. Part of me never knew if I would ever love someone again after she passed. I mean up until tonight the only two people I had ever loved, one was gone forever and the other, well up until about a few hours ago, I hated and wanted nothing to do with, even though deep down I still wanted him, wanted to know why and wanted to feel him all over again and not in some teenage lust or some hotel quickie between two grown adults. But I wanted to feel him for real, feel what it could be like to fully give ourselves to one another since we both had been afraid of what the other would think and now that we were on the same page, my mind was racing with possibilities. I was staring at the Christmas lights on the house while all these thoughts were racing in my mind. This year was the first year I actually got up and put them on the house since she had passed. Not that I had initially wanted to but both Liam and Ashley had practically demanded that we put lights up this year. So I did and now that I’m staring at them sitting here I couldn’t help but smile. This used to be my favorite time of the year until that day, but something here tells me that while I will forever love her and miss her, things seem to be getting better and maybe just maybe Christmas can be my favorite time of year again.
Tim’s POV:
I walked into the dark hotel suite that I had been living in since I returned to town. This wasn’t the same dark and run down place that I had checked into those ten years ago and once again pissed Tyler off in. No, this was fit for a king and since I wasn’t sure about what the future had in store for me, how things with Tyler would eventually play out, I needed to be somewhere nice until it was all figured out. I laid on the bed and started scrolling on my phone, I scrolled back in my pictures to the last picture that I had of the two of us…a few days before everything happened and took a turn for the worst… I just smiled at the picture and couldn’t believe all these years had passed since those two young guys in the picture smiled with no cares in the world. How could I have been so stupid? Tim you big moron, Tyler pretty much gave you the opening for you to say you felt the same way and you ran, not once but twice! Not anymore! This third time is going to be the charm! I will make sure I will do what it takes, I will wait however long I need to, I will do whatever he needs help with, I just want to be with him once and for all again, no hesitations, well…there is one….his kids. How is that going to work and he explain all of that to them and… Ok I needed to stop I was starting to spiral and freak out about nothing. Tim you’re not even a couple, you are barely becoming friends again, calm down calm down. I just let out my breath and sighed. I wanted that man and I was going to do anything I had to, to prove to him once and for all I was serious if it was going to take every last breath of mine to do so. I closed my eyes and fell asleep, the happiest I had been in I can’t even remember.
Tyler’s POV:
Work was busy and honestly I was glad. It helped keep my mind busy so I wasn’t over thinking everything with Tim. I knew that after thinking these last few days maybe it was time to date and put myself back out there. I can’t stay single forever and Amy wouldn’t want me to be alone and moping for the rest of my life. And I could tell while the kids still did miss their mother and of course they always would, I could tell that they were worrying about their dear old dad and seeing me alone. Sitting there at my desk I caught myself staring in the mirror on my office wall. I began to study my face and how age and the stress of life these last four years had caught up to me a bit. I looked a fair bit older than my 37 years. My blonde hair and blue eyes still had that sparkle and shine that I’ve had my entire life that made everyone stop and stare a little longer than was normally acceptable. I never really got used to it, I never thought of myself as hot or anything, I wasn’t in my best shape of my life but considering what all hell I had been through but I thought I looked pretty damn good still. I had gained about 15 pounds from the crappy diet I had developed after her death and while I didn’t have my defined abs of my youth I was still pretty cut and in shape and knew all it would take was getting back into the gym and I could get it back. I walked to the window in my office and just stared out. My mind started to race a million miles an hour. I closed my eyes for a minute and there he was. The man of my dreams front and center in my mind. That damn sexy smile and those emerald green eyes and his blonde hair that matched mine, that had people thinking we were twins in our youth. I felt myself starting to tent my pants thinking about him. It had been a long four years without another person’s touch. Yeah yeah of course I jerked off like all us men do but today was the first time in a long time I was aroused just by thinking of someone else, that someone was Tim. He looked so damn sexy that night in the bar when we finally put everything out in the open. My dick was responding at full mast in my trousers and I needed to rub one out, this was not going to go away anytime soon. Thank god my office had a lock on the door and no one could enter. I walked over locked the door and then went to sit on the couch in the corner and dropped my pants. My hard 7” cock was dripping precum so badly I grabbed my cock with my hands and started stroking it slowly just thinking about Tim and how I just wanted him on top of me, kissing me and his hands all over my body and mine all over his, my cock was rock hard, the hardest it had been in years and I kept stroking it, up and down, up and down, playing with my balls and letting moans escape my lips while my head was thrown back and eyes rolled into the back of my head. I couldn’t hold on much longer and kept stroking harder and harder until burst after burst after burst of hot white thick cum shot out of my cock and into my fist and on my stomach. I was out of breath and dazed but it felt so good. I hadn’t cum like that from just my hands in forever and I was thinking if it was that hot just jerking off thinking about that sexy fucker…I could only imagine what it would be like the first time we get together again, this time knowing we both were feeling the same way. I cleaned up and got myself looking presentable again. I unlocked the door and sat back at my desk and told myself don’t get ahead of yourself Tyler…you have two kids to think about and Tim says he’s changed but you haven’t been intimate yet with him since that conversation and don’t get your hopes up just yet, you are just now starting to move on and see what may happen take it slow…
Tim’s POV:
My phone dinged and I looked down. 1 new message from Tyler Hayes. My eyes lit up. I opened the message and read “Hey Tim, I hope all is well with you. Sorry it took me a while to text back, but work and the kids stuff have been busy this week. I’ve been thinking about us and our talk at the bar and I would like to also see what happens with us, but I need to take it slow. I’m still grasping with everything and I don’t know how I would break it to my kids that hey “dad might be finally moving on but with another man” etc. But I would love to see you again if you are free tomorrow? I have the day off and figured it would be nice to properly catch up and hang out? Just let me know. - T”. My heart skipped a beat. He said he wants to take it slow but see where or what this is? Oh thank god! I was so scared how he was going to react and what his first message would be after the other night. I took a deep breath and thought about what I wanted to respond back to him. My hands trembled but I wrote back “All is good. I totally get that you’re busy between the job and kids. Tomorrow is perfect for me. I’ve missed you bud and can’t wait. Just text me where we are meeting up and I’ll see you there! :)” And send… Was that too casual? Should I have said something else? He said he wanted to take things slow so seeming too eager might mess things up already and I did not want that…at all. I set my phone back down and smiled and then got back to work.
For as excited as I was I slept fairly well, I was going to hang out or could you actually call it a date? With the guy I’ve been in love with forever but did a shitty job showing…oh well Tim don’t stress yourself out and just let whatever happens happen. Tyler had texted me earlier today about meeting at this Italian restaurant in town that we had frequented as teens, I was honestly surprised it was still open all these years later. I got dressed in my favorite pair of black dress pants that didn’t look too dressy, hence why they were my favorite, comfy but stylish enough to look dressed up when need be, and a white button up shirt with my black leather jacket. I had my mid length sandy blonde hair styled just right and was ready to go. I got there first and got us a table in the back like we used to do years ago. I sat there for a few minutes scrolling my phone and waiting. My palms were sweaty and I was getting nervous. Like damn Tim relax he agreed to see you again and pretty much asked you out tonight, it will be fine, just don’t fuck it up like the past. I took a deep breath and looked up and fuck…there Tyler was…he just walked in these khaki dress pants that literally looked like he had to pour himself into…and in a good way for sure! He had this black button up shirt with his chest showing a bit and a brown leather jacket on and those fucking eyes….they were sparkling so bright I couldn’t help but just stare at him once we had made eye contact. He walked up and gave me a hug and not just a bro hug…but a hug hug that lingered for a few seconds longer than normal. “Hey Tim nice to see you again.” He smiled as he sat down across from me. The conversation just flowed so effortlessly, I guess once you and your old best friend confess basically that you both were/are in love with each other after all of this time and get that out of the way, the rest just comes naturally like it used to back then. We sat there for about three hours enjoying our meals but mostly just the conversations. He was genuinely interested in what I had to say and fuck did he look so fucking handsome. No longer was Tyler the skinny but fit 18 year old I was in love with and he seemed to get even better looking that he was ten years ago at the reunion. I just stared at those eyes and his adorable smile every time he said something he was passionate about. Oh and when he spoke of his kids, his entire face would light up like the Fourth of July and I couldn’t get enough. God I missed him so much, why did I have to be an ass all of those years ago? I could have had this for the past twenty years…no need to wallow in the past Tim, you got him here in front of you again and now is your chance to finally make it right, so don’t fuck it up.
Tyler’s POV:
Dinner was fantastic. I felt like I was 18 again when sitting there across from Tim. I couldn’t help but get flustered from time to time when I would be talking and notice him just staring at me. I loved it, it had been a long time since I had felt that feeling and the fact that it was him made it oh so much better. I knew it was getting close to closing time for the restaurant and I didn’t want this wonderful night to end. I was thinking to myself don’t ask him yet don’t ask him to come over, yes both kids were staying the night at friends houses but you two just started talking again, don’t want to send the wrong message, fuck what message I wanted that man more than anything in the fucking world. I knew I still loved Amy but I wasn’t getting any younger and the kids were getting older and Tim walked back into my life at a time that I didn’t know I needed it. Fuck it...just ask him to come over, you guys can behave, just have a drink and sit and relax and catch up some more. I just looked at Tim and by now he had stopped talking and noticed I was deep in thought about something. Damn all these years later and he still knew how to read my expressions on my face. “Hey Tyler are you ok? You seem to be deep in thought over there? Everything alright?” I just smiled back at that ridiculously handsome man and replied “yes I am good, no I’m not good” he looked a bit worried for a second but I continued. “I’m better than good, I’m so fucking happy and great I can’t take it.” I smiled at him and he immediately smiled back. “I’m not ready for this night to end honestly. I haven’t had this much fun and such a great time in a very long time. It has been great sitting here with you and I don’t want it to end…so….would you like to come over for a drink and relax for a bit?” I smiled at him and this big grin spread across his face. “I would love that.” We just looked at one another for a bit and when the waiter came by paid for our meals and we headed back to my place.
Tim’s POV:
I was hoping this night was going good. The conversations we were having and how we both were looking at one another, everything just seemed perfect. So when Tyler asked me to come back to his house for a drink, I was both shocked and ecstatic. I of course agreed and we paid for dinner and I followed him back to his place. I was a bit of a nervous wreck on the drive over to his place. I had done this plenty of times but this was Tyler we were talking about, the object of my affection, the man of my dreams…that took we way too fucking long to realize and admit. I got out of the car and met him at the front door to his house. He unlocked the door and let me in following behind. I looked around and scanned the living room, pictures of Tyler and his kids and family everywhere. You can tell it had a woman’s touch from his late wife, one of which you could tell Tyler did nothing to change, and honestly I didn’t blame him. Must be hard to have to deal with all of this and try to move it and also I could see keeping it the same some for his kids and for them to stay connected to their mother. “Welcome to my home man. Sorry it’s a bit of a mess but you know two teenagers and all…” he chuckled. I just loved his laugh, always have. He lead me to this big beautiful kitchen that looked like it belonged in a food network TV show. I sat at the bar and just watched him move effortlessly throughout the kitchen grabbing glasses for our drinks and Tyler finding his best bottle of whiskey. He poured us two glasses and handed me one. “To new beginnings and to us!” Tyler said and clinked his glass to mine and took a sip. I just sat there admiring that man, he was surprisingly happy and I remembered all of the good times we had back in the day and that perfect fucking smile and those piercing sapphire blue eyes that made me melt. “I’m really glad I saw you in that bar the other day man.” I said. “I had been thinking of you a lot lately and after I had heard what had happened, I wanted to reach out but felt like I had to right to, so when I saw you sitting there I just knew I had to come up and say hi again.” I said taking a swig of my drink and looking directly at him. Tyler took a sip and looked back at me “I was honestly nervous as fuck when you said hi to me and I realized it was you. It had been at least 10 years since we last saw one another and I couldn’t believe my eyes that it was you standing there in front of me. I’m really glad that you said hi to me that night and I’m really glad I agreed to meet up again. I have missed you so much all of these years Tim. I really have, but you understand that I had to protect myself and my heart after the last time, don’t you?” I smiled back at him and nodded while he continued speaking. “I’m so glad that you’re here, standing in front of me, both of us finally on the same page…only took us what? Twenty fucking years!? But I guess better late than never I suppose.” Tyler took another sip, set his glass down and started walking around the kitchen island towards me. My breath hitched as I watched him come around and stand in front of me, only about seven inches away from my face. He put his hand on my shoulder and looked at me and I saw it in his eyes…the desire, the hurt and pain. This man was so fucking amazing and why did it take me so long to see it?
Tyler’s POV:
I knew I was playing a dangerous game walking up and putting my hand on his shoulder and standing that close to his face, but fuck it, this was my chance. I deserved to be happy, however that may come, I’ve dealt with a lot more than most guys my age and honestly I wanted him, more than I had ever wanted anyone before. I was about seven inches from his face and stared at his beautifully amazing emerald green eyes. I brushed my hand on his cheek and into that amazing blonde hair of his and slowly crept forward and planted a giant kiss on his full tender lips. Our stubble brushing together making the hair on the back of my neck stand up and causing a jolt of electricity down my spine to my cock. Tim kissed me back and grabbed the back of my head and we were off. Pressing our tongues in the back of each other’s throats, attacking one another like starving lions devouring their prey. I was in heaven, fuck I wanted that man more than anything and he was right there with me. There was no denying this anymore, we wanted each other and we were finally going to have each other again and so help me god I was going to make it work with him!
