—- Current Day —-
“You…” Tim looked at Tyler surprised but immediately thought back to that fateful day almost twenty years ago and he immediately understood…. He began processing in his mind just what exactly Tyler was talking about when he said he was the other thing he had to get over along with his late wife passing. “Oh my god…” Tim said out loud, thinking he said those words internally inside his head. Tyler with some tears falling down his face looked at Tim with an uncertain look on his face. Tim realizing that he said it out loud looked at Tyler and gave him this look that Tyler couldn’t quite piece together right at that moment. “What is he thinking? Is this going to be a repeat of twenty years ago when we stopped talking after that day in his room alone? Is he going to say anything else to me when I again said something about him and my feelings from all those years ago?…”
—- Twenty Years Ago —-
Tyler’s POV
Tyler looked towards Tim’s bathroom from the bed where they just fucked for the first time and took their friendship to the next level. “Well that’s strange, he couldn’t even look at me…” Tyler said to himself after Tim had gotten up and walked his fine sexy ass to the shower to clean up leaving Tyler a cummy mess on his bed. Tyler slowly got up and cautiously walked back towards the bathroom as he could hear Tim showing once again. He walked into the bathroom “Hey are we ok man? You seemed cold and distant all of a sudden once we finished. I hope you’re ok, we’re ok…” Tim had his back turned to Tyler and was washing his hair but was staring straight ahead at the shower wall. He was terrified all of a sudden, once the post nut clarity set in and he was in the shower, the magnitude of what the two of them had just done set in and to say it freaked him out was an understatement. “Yeah bro we’re good man…” he said in an uncertain tone of voice that Tyler immediately picked up on…”Oh ok well I just wanted to make sure…” Tyler himself saying it in that same unsure tone. Tim turned left the water running and stepped out and grabbed a towel and started drying off. “You’re up man..” Saying to Tyler while walking away quickly back to his room to get dressed. Tyler got in the shower and the feeling of guilt and shame washed over him along with the water and soap he poured on his body to clean himself. He felt dirty and like he fucked everything up. His best friend could no longer look him in the eyes when they talked. Tyler speedily showered and got out and dried off. He returned to grab his clothes from Tim’s room but Tim had already set them on the bathroom counter and closed the door. “Well then…I see how it is…” Tyler was hurt and ashamed, he should have never started watching Tim, he should have never thought telling his friend his true feelings, even though he hadn’t really verbally told him, physically he gave himself to Tim and that hurt more than anything else in the world. He quickly got dressed and ran out of Tim’s house without even telling him bye, he had to get out of there and back home. He got inside his truck and the dam burst, he started bawling like a baby and couldn’t stand it. He dried his tears long enough so he could start the truck and get home as fast as he could. He couldn’t take one more minute looking at the house he just gave himself up to his best friend and Tim couldn’t even acknowledge him or say anything he just left
Tim’s POV
Tim had hurried out of the shower and quickly passed by Tyler telling him the shower was ready. He didn’t know what to make of what had just happened between the two of them. They had been friends since Tyler walked into his first grade class all of them years ago and never ever did Tyler ever lead on that he was into him let alone would let Tim fuck him like he did. “Fuck…what the hell did I just do…I fucked my best friend…” Tim said after he ran out of the bathroom, went to his room got dressed and grabbed Tyler’s clothes and put them on the bathroom counter for him. He couldn’t face him…not now…not ever he thought. Tim had never ever had any gay thoughts and he was terrified. He liked what the two of them just did more than he ever did with any of his girlfriends and random hookups throughout high school. “What the fuck…I’m not gay…fuck that I can’t be gay…that was just a one time thing.” He went to another part of the house as he heard Tyler getting his stuff and running out. Scared he carefully went to the front window and peeked out and saw Tyler getting in his truck and him crying before driving off, a tear escaping his eyes and falling down his cheek as Tyler sped away. The last few weeks at school were rough, Tim avoided Tyler at all costs. It was only two weeks left until graduation and they both were busy with getting ready for the end of school and graduation, so time sped by fast, but Tim couldn’t shake what he and Tyler had done and how much he liked it, but couldn’t make himself face his best friend. Graduation came and went and not one word was spoken, no texts, phone calls on Tim’s side. Tyler tried to reach out finally one day about two weeks after graduation and Tim was scared when he saw the text asking him if they could talk…and even though he really wanted to talk to him and clear the air…Tim did not answer. And there ended their friendship once and for all…
—- Current Day —-
Tyler with tears slowly falling down his eyes just staring right into Tim’s beautiful green eyes…Tim knew now how much he had hurt his former best friend. He knew that all those years ago he was a terrified teenager afraid of his feelings and what others thought of him. He knows he did wrong by Tyler by running away and cutting him off. Tim just sat there quietly, no words could come out of his mouth. The two of them just watched each other intensely but neither one saying another word. Finally like clockwork the bartender walked up and presented the guys their drinks and broke the silence as they both told him “thank you.” The bartender nodded and went back to work. Both men grabbed their drinks and took big swigs of the whiskey, they both needed it now as within the last five minutes everything from the past twenty years seemed to be bubbling up at the surface and nothing apparently was going to stop it any longer. No matter how much Tyler had suppressed it and tried to move on with his life. He married Amy straight out of college and they began their life. Tim never married but was lost in his work all of this time. Both men tried so hard to press it down, stomp it out, suffocate those feelings, but it was no use. They both knew it the second that they looked at one another again from their drinks that the time was now….the time was now to get this all out in the open and move on in whatever way they could now, whether that be as friends again or just clearing the air and moving on from one another once and for all. Tyler still to this day not knowing that Tim all those years ago was having these same feelings he was after they fucked that day. Tim fighting everything in his being to not let it out, at least not yet, not until he knew exactly how Tyler was feeling. “If he only knew the reason I was staying away was that once I found out he had married Amy, I knew my shot was over, I blew my shot to be with the one person who knew me better than I even knew myself. But in a weird twist of fate…here we are, here we are both single, albeit Tyler is a widow and I can’t even imagine going through that loss, but I knew if I finally didn’t try to see him again and tell him once and for all how I’ve been feeling all of these years I could no longer live with myself.” Tim’s internal dialogue with himself was going on. Tyler was sitting there just looking at Tim… “What the hell is going on in that beautiful mind of his? There is something that he is not telling me…I know it’s been like twenty years since we’ve really seen one another and talked, but I can still tell when he is holding back something…” Tyler thought to himself…
—- Ten Years Ago —-
“Hey babe! You got an invitation in the mail today!” Amy said all cheerfully when Tyler walked in and set his briefcase down from a long day in court. He kissed her hello and gave her a big hug, just as he did every single day since they got married. “What is it? What kind of invitation?” Tyler spoke while taking his shoes off and walking to put them away in their designated space. Amy opened it and was excited for Tyler, but Tyler would soon not be. “It’s for your 10 year high school reunion Tyler!” Tyler was still not facing his wife when he gulped and his face got ghost white. “Fuck…” he thought, he knew that this day was going to be coming soon and he was just hoping someone had forgotten to send him the invite, even though he had been already invited to the reunion Facebook page a while back. Tyler walked into the kitchen were Amy had the invitation on the counter, he picked it up and read it, the reunion was in two weeks at one of the new bars downtown. “You’re going to go aren’t you?” He heard Amy ask him. “Oh yeah I don’t think so…I don’t have time to go to that..with the case right now and court I’m so swamped…” he replied. “Nonsense, we are going and you’re going to have fun and take your mind off of work for a night and relax.” Unbeknownst to his wife, there was only really one real reason he did not want to attend…..Timothy James…his former best friend that he hadn’t heard from or seen since that fateful day senior year right before graduation… “But I really…” “No we are going and that’s final Tyler Logan Hayes….” Amy said sternly but not rude. Tyler just chuckled and shook his head, he did really love her and how she was able to push him outside of his comfort zone with things since they’ve been together. The new two weeks passed by quickly and just like that it was the day of the reunion. Tyler and his wife got dressed up really nice as the dress code was formal…Tyler laughed thinking this isn’t senior prom…but then again when he remember the women that were in charge of it were the same as the ones that put together all of the high school dances he wasn’t surprised in the least bit. Tyler stood at the mirror in his bathroom looking at himself. He stared back at his 27 year old self and was happy with how he looked. He looked at his two day old stubble coming in and covering his squared chin and his short and styled sandy blonde hair perfect. His sapphire eyes sparkled back at him and he took a deep breath and thought to himself “you can do this and who knows he might not even be there…” Tyler walked into the bedroom and found that Amy was still laying on the bed. “Are you ok?” He asked her. “No I think I’m getting sick, you go without me and have fun with your old friends. I’m sure you go and have fun!” Tyler was thinking to himself he didn’t want to go but Amy wasn’t going to take no for answer. He got in the truck and traveled to the bar and walked inside. Tyler grabbed his name tag and walked further inside and found a few friendly faces and said his hellos. Tyler was scanning the bar and thought to himself “ok good I don’t see him here, I should be good.” He went to grab himself a drink and on his way back he turned and there walking in the door, was Tim, the one who he hadn’t seen in ten years, the one that despite all these years seemed to look even better than he did back then. Fitted suit and his sandy blonde hair perfect, dazzling smile and those eyes…fuck those damn emerald green eyes that made Tyler’s heart skip a beat. Tyler was frozen still for a brief moment watching him walk inside. He shook his head and realized not only was he practically drooling over Tim….his cock also had the same idea and was starting to tent his pants. “Fuck I need to calm down…” Tyler said to himself darting into the restroom and luckily no one was in there as he splashed water on his face and managed to calm himself down and head back out. Over the next few hours Tyler didn’t know how many drinks he had but he was drinking more than he normally did and getting pretty wasted, but his main focus was to avoid Tim at all costs. He didn’t know what he would say if they ran into each other but he tired his hardest not to. Well until Tyler went up to the bar and after a few too many drinks his vision was a bit blurred and didn’t realize the guy he walked right up to and stood next to asking for another drink was none other than Tim himself. “Tyler….is that…you?” Tim asked turning his way… “Fuck…”Tyler thought but not before the spine tingling chills shot up his spine and to his cock hearing his sexy deep voice again. “Heyyyy…..Tim….long time no see buddy….” Tyler said drunk and a bit shy. Tim noticed right away that Tyler was a bit intoxicated and tried to help steady him at the bar so he didn’t fall. “Dude why are you so wasted…” Tyler looked at Tim and was like “well honestly….I was afraid of seeing you here again…it’s been what ten years since you stopped talking to me and cut me out of your life without so much as a goodbye or fuck you…oh wait a minute you did fuck and then leave never to be heard from again…” Tyler said angrily that even shocked himself hearing it come from his lips. Tim just looked at him but also looked around making sure no one heard Tyler. “Oh oh why am I not surprised` once again there goes Tim worried about what everyone else thinks…I know that’s why you stopped talking to me and cut me out of your life….you were always soooo worried about what others thought of you that you didn’t give a shit about the one that really cared for you…you fucking asshole…” Tyler spewed…Tim got close to Tyler’s face “dude you have no fucking idea what you are talking about and what the fuck is your problem….” Tyler wide eyed and didn’t give a shit who heard or saw them arguing now.. “you know fuck you Tim, all I ever did was be there for you and care about you, you prick and you reward me by leaving and not speaking to me ever again after that…that hurt me more than anything man…so fuck you…” Tyler said once again. By now all of the drinks had gone to his head and Tyler was beyond wasted. He knew he fucked up drinking that much but he couldn’t help it he hadn’t felt this way in years he had suppressed all of the hurt and pain from Tim’s rejection and cutting him off those years ago it came flooding back the moment he saw him walk into the bar. Tim tired of the audience starting to whisper about them, grabbed Tyler and pulled him outside to the patio, luckily no one was out there. “What the actual fuck Tyler!? How dare you do that to me in there?” Tyler just scoffed and shook his head. “Of course it’s all about you….don’t mind how I felt…” Tim looked at Tyler and smiled. Tyler stopped yelling at Tim long enough for both of them to look at one another. This was the first time they saw each other more clearly. The bar was darker inside but the lights of the patio illuminated their matured faces better. They stopped arguing long enough for Tim to look around and then all of a sudden out of nowhere grab Tyler’s face and pull him in for a kiss. Tyler got wide eyed and was in shock. “What the fuck are you doing?” He asked pulling away from Tim. Tim looked at him with that same hunger he did that day in his bathroom ten years ago….Tim took his drink and chugged it and set it on the table next to them. He looked at Tyler and fished in his pocket for a card key…”come with me we need to talk..” Tyler knew he shouldn’t but he couldn’t stop his legs from following Tim. They walked out of the bar and to the parking lot where they got in Tim’s rental. They sat in silence on the way to Tim’s hotel…”I don’t think this is a good idea” Tyler told himself but he was lost to the power that Tim had over him he was drunk and his walls were down. He knew that this was wrong but deep down nothing was going to stop him… They pulled up to the hotel and once Tim opened the room…he attacked Tyler with such force he flew back onto the bed. In a matter of seconds suits and shoes and clothes were all over the room and floor and Tim was grabbing Tyler and making out with him with such hunger Tyler looked at his eyes and saw a man possessed with hunger with desire that he had never seen before in his life…and it turned him on. Tyler reached down and pushed Tim onto his back and swallowed his throbbing cock all the way to his balls. The moment didn’t last long because only after about five minutes of Tyler sucking Tim’s cock Tim was writhing around with pleasure and screaming “Dude I’m cumming!!” Tyler never slowed down, all these years, he wanted nothing more than to taste that delicious load of Tim’s he wanted every last fucking drop of it. He swallowed as Tim came down from his high and Tyler was jerking his cock. Tim pushed Tyler back and took his throbbing cock into his mouth. He deep throated it the best he could and writhing minutes Tyler was ready to blow…”I’m getting close man….ugh….” Then he started shooting his load down Tim’s throat. Tim swallowed it and smiled. Both men laid there tired and spent and had this glow about them after they just had sucked one another off. “I missed you Tim…” Tim just smiled and once again got a little cold feet and got up. “Are you fucking kidding me right now….” Tyler said looking at Tim doing the exact same thing he did all those years ago. He grabbed his clothes threw them on and walked out the door, but not before he turned around and shot Tim the most evil go to hell look… “I can’t believe you’re doing this again…I should have known…” and Tyler slammed the door shut and left Tim alone in his hotel room….only this time….even thought Tim was getting cold and started to do the same thing he did to Tyler ten years ago….the moment the door slammed shut…the tears came falling and didn’t stop and Tim laid down and cried himself to sleep thinking… “fuck I lost him again…”
