Heart to Heart with Ethan
Ethan came back a few minutes later, he seemed happy and excited. He was humming a song. I had never seen him humming a song before. He saw me looking at him and he came towards me. He did not say anything and started to clear the dining table. I had forgotten about it that I was still at the table. I helped him do the dishes and sat on the sofa in the living room. I turned on the TV and started watching. Ethan’s favorite show was airing. He loved watching the episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. I loved it too. Seeing the six friends struggle to have a happy and healthy life. Trying to find a balance between a job and a love life. And there was a ton of comedy that made it more enjoyable. We sat there watching and after a few minutes, we both were laughing. We watched the whole episode. After the show, Ethan turned off the TV and turned to face me. Now we were sitting on the sofa, sitting a few inches apart, and facing each other. He looked at me and I at him. He was so happy and a glow radiated from his body. His eyes were sparkling and then suddenly I saw his facial muscles get serious. He continued looking at me.
“Dad, do you want to talk about it?” He asked staring into my eyes. I saw how happy he was moments ago and now his eyes were somewhat dim. I thought about saying something then stopped myself from saying it and instead said,
“We’ll talk after lunch, okay? We both need some rest.” It was Sunday so it was my day off. I had taken Friday off, so I got three days' leave to celebrate Ethan’s birthday. I was feeling tired and I needed to think things over. I did not want to say something that might hurt him or make him feel bad. He nodded and we went to our bedrooms. I laid down on the bed thinking what to say to him. I thought about everything that had happened and my talk with Neil. I did not realize the time passing by. Ethan knocked at my door and came in,
“Dad, I have ordered food for us. It will be arriving shortly. Get ready.” He said and quickly went outside. I stood up and went to the bathroom. After freshening up a bit, I felt a lot easier now. I went to the living room and saw Ethan waiting there for me. Food had arrived and we sat there and ate in silence. After lunch, he waited for some time for me to say anything. But when I did not, he went to his room. I sat there for a few minutes gathered my thoughts and then knocked on his door. I knew it was open because he never locks it. He said to come in so I went in. I have not been in his room for a few days. I only come in to take his laundry and to put it back after it has been washed. We usually hang out in the living room and he usually comes into my room if he needs to talk.
He was sitting on his bed his feet hanging down. He looked at me and waited for me to speak. I took a chair and sat in front of him.
“Ethan, son, we need to talk about everything that has been happening,” I said to him. He looked into my eyes and then he looked down and said slowly,
“Okay.”
I looked at him. He had his head down and was now looking at his feet. He must have been thinking about everything too. He expressed himself to me and told me he was happy but after seeing me break down and cry in front of him, must have scared him. I had never cried in front of him. He must be scared and thinking that I am mad at him or I hate him. I got closer and put my hand on his thighs. He felt my hand and looked up at me.
“Son, I know watching me break down and cry must have scared you. I am still puzzled and confused about what happened but you have to know that I am not mad at you for anything. I love you and that will never change, okay.”
I saw his eyes filling with tears.
“You do not hate me for what I said and did?” he asked me and his tears started dripping. It fell on my hands. I stood up and hugged him. As I have mentioned earlier, when I see him cry my chest starts hurting and I feel intense pain. And this time it was even worse because he was crying because of me. Oh, realizing this I felt like I would die of pain. It became hard to breathe.
"My baby boy was hurting and I did not think about it. I cried in front of him making him doubt himself and feel ashamed about what happened. I am a really shitty father." I was cursing myself and thinking everything at super speed. I looked at him and he was crying.
“I would never hate you son. It is okay. We sometimes get carried away; it happens.” I had so many things to say but watching him cry, I forgot most of the things and now I had only one thought to make him comfortable and safe. I held him in my embrace for a while. After a while, he stopped crying. He wiped his eyes and looked at me. I reassured him with my eyes and tried to say things the right way,
“Son, what we did was not something a father and son do together. But it happens sometimes with many people. It is okay, we just need to have a boundary from now on. I know you like guys and it is perfectly fine to relieve yourselves or with your friends. But we cannot do this again. Do you understand, what I am saying?” I had no idea how to say things, so I did not use words like jerk off or a blowjob. He looked at me and seemed puzzled. I thought to start with something small,
“Do you remember when we talked about changes to our body when you were 12?” I asked him. 6 years ago after his 12th birthday, one morning I went to wake him up. I saw a tent his tiny brief. He was so little and had his dick hard trying to break out of his underwear. He must have had at least 5’’ at that point. My boy always has been hung. So, that evening I sat with him and had a talk about how men’s body changes with age and how to take care of themselves. I told him little things that he needed to know. He was a little kid, so I could not tell him about his sex or jerk off at that point. It is pretty normal to have dick-hard in the morning anyway. I started getting mine at only 11. And I did not understand why it kept happening. I did not have anyone there to help me. So, I wanted to be there for my son and help him through his puberty and adulthood.
He looked at me and said,
“Yes Dad, I remember. I did everything you said. Cleaning myself properly and everything.”
“It’s okay son, I am just asking if you remember. Like that time, we now have to talk about jerk-offs and sex stuff. I know you jerk off. When did you start doing it?” I reassured him and then asked him the question finally. He blushed for a while and then looked at me and told me,
“When I turned thirteen, I think I started waking up with my underwear wet a little and I thought I had wet myself in sleep. I thought about asking you when it started happening on repeat but I felt ashamed so I did not. I did not tell anyone about it not even Will. One day he said that he was getting nightfall. I asked what it meant and then he told me about it. He was the same age as me but he knew a lot more about these things. And when I turned 16, he told me that he had learned how to jerk off and showed me. And, well after that, I started jerking off occasionally.” He was really nervous talking to me about these things. In the morning, he said a lot of things, I think he was horny and with that young hormone he did not feel nervous or embarrassed. I put my hand on his shoulder and reassured him,
“Son, it's okay. I should have been the one to talk to you about these things. I should have taught you to take care of yourself. I am really sorry. I did not realize when you became a young man. I still see you as my little boy.” I said feeling really sad that he had to feel ashamed and could not talk to me about these things. I felt like I had failed him. I continued,
“Ethan, I want you to promise me one thing, whatever is on your mind if you want to talk to me about anything and anytime, you can come to me. If you need some advice or just want to talk, come to me, okay? And don’t feel shy or ashamed talking about your body and sex. I am the one supposed to teach you about these things. Father must teach his son about life and these things.” I told him and I saw him relax and take a deep breath. He looked at me and smiled. He seemed relaxed and in a good mood. He seemed excited. I asked again, digging a little deeper this time,
“So, when did these blowjobs start?” He got shy again, but then he looked at me and started saying,
“Two months ago, Will told me that he thinks he is gay. He told me that he has seen and learned a lot of things recently and that he is attracted to guys instead of girls. I had not thought about my sexuality but when he said that I realized that I don’t know if I like girls or boys. I have never dated anyone. I have never had any experience with anyone. Only some jerk of session alone or sometimes with Will. I did not know what to say to him. I told him,
“Man, I don’t know about these things. And I don’t know what to say here.” Will looked at me and asked,
“Do you think it's okay if I like boys to have sex with? Do you still think of me as your friend? Did knowing these things about me change your thoughts about me?” Well, I haven’t seen anyone have sex or any porn at that point so I did not have anything against it. I genuinely said,
“Man I do not know about having sex, whether with a girl or boy, But I know that you are my best friend and nothing can change that.” He got emotional and hugged me. We talked for a bit then we got horny so we took our dicks out and started our jerk-off session. It was pretty normal and we had done it plenty of times. He showed me how to find porn on the internet. So, we put on a video of a girl and boy making out, and then the girl bent on her knees and started sucking the boy’s dick. It got me really hard. I saw Will and he was hard too. He was looking at my dick grow hard. He scooted near me and we sat side by side stroking our dicks and then suddenly he put his other hand on my dick and saw me in the eyes. I did not say anything or remove his hands. It was new to me and I was horny. I removed my hand and he started stroking it. After a while, he looked me in the eyes and asked me,
“Would you like me to suck your dick just like that girl is doing?” I looked at the screen. The guy getting head seemed to enjoy whatever the girl was doing with her mouth. And, I was horny and excited, so I nodded my head in agreement. He leaned on my lap and started licking my cockhead and then after a while, he took my dickhead in his mouth and started sucking on it. He continued doing that and then taking in my cock and out. He took only a few inches unlike the girl in the video who was talking all the cock to the balls. But still, it felt really nice. I shot my load twice in his mouth that day. And after that, he has sucked me a few times. He told me about Adam and one day at Will’ house both of them sucked me together. They both are good at it. It was a wild experience, Dad. Adam and I have done it a few times alone too after that.”
Ethan had told me about his sexcapade and talking about all the dick-sucking, he was getting hard. I could see his dick growing in his shorts. I had started growing hard too. I looked at him and hugged him,
“Son, you have had some experiences. And I am glad that it was with your friends. I am happy that you got to experience these things. Have you gone further than blow jobs? Have you had sex yet?” I asked. I was wondering if he had started having sex or if he has then whether he is having healthy sex or not. He got nervous and then he said,
“I have not yet, Dad. I am still a virgin at 18. All of my friends have had sex with either a girl or boy, I am the only virgin.” He looked sad.
“It's okay son, some people have their first time later in life. It does not mean anything. But, I am curious why haven’t you had sex? You seem ready to have sex. You are into guys only, right?” I asked him.
“Yes Dad, I am gay and I am interested in guys. Well, I am embarrassed to admit it but I am afraid that I will not be able to perform with him and he will laugh at me. And if he did that it would break my heart” He told me and I could see that he was really sad and hurt.
"Oh, my boy wants to have sex but is afraid to have it. How hurt he is. I wish I had noticed it before and helped him through it." I thought to myself. I gathered my thoughts and remembered he said 'he'. This means he has a crush on someone and he wants everything to go perfectly with him.
“I am sorry son that you feel that way. It is okay to feel nervous about your first time. Do you feel like this with someone special or with anyone in general?” I asked him trying to calm him. And wanted to find out about his crush. I was worried about him getting hurt. His eyes lit up again. His green eyes looked beautiful and saw him get shy and look down.
“Dad …” He wanted to say something but could not. He continued looking down. I asked again,
“Do you like someone, son?” he looked at me and said,
“Yes Dad, I really like him. I think I am falling in love with him but he does not know and I am afraid to tell him. I do not want to damage what we already have for something that I want to have. I did not have sex with anyone else because I wanted my first time to be with him.” He said that to me looking in the eyes. I could hurt in his eyes again. His sparkling eyes got a bit dim. I hugged him,
“Oh sorry son, I am sure he will like you too. You are a hot-hung jock, son. I don’t think there is anyone in the whole world who would not like you. You should be proud of yourself like I am. You are a confident young man and you should tell him how you feel. If you do not now, you will regret it forever.” I encouraged him to tell his crush how he felt. Seeing me appreciate him, his eyes started sparkling again. He seemed happy and confident. He looked at me and asked,
“Dad, I am feeling horny again. Is it okay if we jerk off together? I want to learn how to do it properly and you said you wanted to teach me about sex and stuff.” I was shocked at first about what he just said but it should not have been though, seeing that we have been talking about sex, dick, and all for a while now. He had shared some intimate details about his life with me and looking at his beautiful happy face I could not say no.
“Okay son, we can for now. But, we need to have some rules if we are gonna do it. Do you understand?” I asked him. He looked at me and asked me curiously,
“What kind of rules?”
“Well, first this will be an occasional thing. We cannot do it regularly. Second, we cannot go too far. I will show you how it's done. And the last, we cannot go all the way in with each other. We can talk about everything, I can teach you about how to have safe sex and a lot more but we cannot do it, okay? Do you understand, what I am saying?” I told him my rules and wanted to make sure he got it. He nodded yes.
“And, one more thing, if you develop feelings for me or vice versa we will tell each other and have to stop. We cannot go any further. And also, we will do it if both of us want it, if one of us does not want it then the other one would not force.” I added some more things. He looked at me and said,
“I get it, Dad, I would not try to go beyond that. I don’t want to make you uncomfortable. And I get it we cannot have a romantic relationship and I won’t do anything that jeopardizes our father-son relationship.”
I was making all these rules to not go too far. I have been lusting over my boy, so I needed these rules to keep myself from going too far. But we both knew that we were both horny and anything could happen. Now that I knew he understood what I said, I asked him,
“Do you have any lubes?” He nodded in no.
“I have some in my room. Come with me.” I told him and went to my room. I got near my bed and found a bottle of lube in my drawer. I unbuttoned my shorts and took my dick out and sat on my bed stroking my rock-hard dick. After a few minutes, Ethan came into my room. He was stark naked and stroking his hard dick. He looked like a younger version of myself. It was like seeing myself through time’s mirror. He came and stood near me. I put some lube on my dick and handed him the bottle. I started rubbing it on my entire dick and stroking softly up and down on the shaft. I made sure that he was watching me do it. He poured some lube on his dickhead which flew down towards his shaft. He copied my move and started stroking his dick slowly after applying lube to the entire dick. We stayed like this for a while looking at each other’s dick and, in each other’s eyes, in between. We were both getting really hard and started breathing heavily. And after a while, we started moaning slowly.
I asked him to sit beside me on the bed but he said he wants to watch from the front so he brought a chair near me and sat on it while continued stroking his dick. After stroking for a while my dick started leaking some precum. And seeing me leaking precum he moaned and started stroking a bit faster. I saw him going to town at his dick and told him,
“Don’t go so fast or you will nut in just a few moments. I get watching me do this in front of you might be a huge turn and it is for me too. But you need to learn how to control yourself to last longer. For this, you need to play with your body if you are jerking off or play with your guy’s body if you are having sex. It is called foreplay. It helps in lasting longer and enjoy what we do.”
I gave him some advice and he listened carefully. I took my T-shirt off and started touching my chest and playing with my nipples. He copied it and started playing with his own body. I continued a slow stroke with another hand and he did the same. I showed him how to play with balls and how to move his hand up and down in a way that gives more pleasure and does not get you to nut fast.
He continued learning from me. His eyes were sparkling. I could see him lusting over my dick. I did not say anything. It was natural to do so, especially with what we were doing now. I caught myself looking at his dick too. I increased my stroking pace and so did he.
We were now stroking our dick together in sync. Two father and son jerking off in front of each other. It was really hot and stuff of my fantasies. I was getting near to blasting my load. We continued jerking off together and looking at each other's dick. We would look at each other in between. But our hand continued its work. I saw him so happy and excited to share this moment with me. As we came near busting our loads, we increased our speed. And just after a few minutes I started shooting my loads and at the same time, Ethan shot his. Our streams crossed paths as we were sitting just in front of each other. Most of my cum landed on Ethan's thigs and dick and his cum landed all over me.
Just like morning I saw him lick his cum covered fingers which now included some of my cum too. He licked clean all the cum from his thighs and body.
“You like eating cum a lot son, hunh?” I could not stop myself from asking.
“Yeah Dad, I love it, I have only tasted mine, Will’s, and Adam’s cum but after tasting yours today. I am sure yours are the most tasty one.” He again licked his fingers and ate the last of the cum on his body. I could not stop myself from doing the same. Some of his cum had already landed in my mouth, so I ate his cum and it was really tasty. And tasted similar to mine. He saw me eating his cum and I saw him grin. He stood up and came up to me. He leaned towards me and kissed me on the lips. He force me to open my mouth with his tongue and licked some of the cum that was left in my mouth. And my tongue did the same, I did not have time to react. We now were kissing passionately and sucking each other's mouth like a lover. After a while he let me go and said,
“Don’t be mad Dad, I just couldn't stop myself from kissing you. You are really hot and watching you eat my cum just made me kiss you. I hope I did not cross our boundary or break any rules.”
He genuinely apologized to me for why he kissed me. I was enchanted by the magic of this kiss. It felt really amazing. I was in my fantasy land kissing him more passionately and making out with my son. Oh, he is so fucking hot. I would have been lost in my daydream forever when I heard him apologize and it brought me back. I hugged him, we both were naked so our dicks touched each other. But we were not horny as we had just busted our loads minutes ago. But, I could feel his dick getting hard and pressing against mine. I released him and said,
“It's okay son. I know it's hard to control ourselves. And thanks for thinking of me as hot. You know you are a hot young man yourself.” I reassured him and then playfully complimented him, which made him blush and become shy. After that, I went to the bathroom to freshen up. When I looked outside, I realized it was almost night. We had been talking and then jerking off since afternoon. It was so hot jerk-off session. I came out of the bathroom and saw he was still there with his dick half-hard and thinking about something probably that just happened, his dream come true, and this time with my consent.
“Son, go and have a shower. Your dick will calm down after a cold shower. We will go out for dinner tonight.” He nodded and got out of the room. I went to the bathroom again and started the cold shower. I was half-hard myself. When it did not go down itself, I had to give it a few strokes thinking about my daydream, making out with my son and it erupted within minutes. I took a really long and cold shower and came out of it naked. I wiped my body with a clean towel and then put on a brief. I put on a pair of jeans and a shirt and set my hair with a comb. Now I was ready and went outside towards the living room.
Ethan was still in his room. On the way to the living room, I knocked on Ethan’s door.
“It's open Dad, come in.” He replied from the bathroom. I went in and at the same time, he came out of the bathroom naked. He took a clean towel and wiped his body then put on a brief, jeans, and a shirt. He set his hair with a comb and now was ready. I stood there watching him get ready. I saw how exactly the same things we were doing. He even wiped his body the same way as me, he put the clothes similar to mine and set his just like I do.
“He is the same as me. Oh, my sweet boy.” I felt so much love for him. He looked at me and I could not stop myself and hugged him. This time, I was not horny seeing him or thinking about anything sexual. It was pure fatherly love. I felt so proud of my boy and proud that my son had almost become a man.
We went out to a restaurant and had a nice dinner together. This time we weren’t eating silently like last few times. We ate while talking about little things. And around 8 PM we came back home. I was tired so I kissed him good night on his forehead like usual and went to my room. It was really hot today, so I stripped everything off and got in my bed stark naked. I lay there thinking about everything. I was not feeling ashamed or embarrassed today. Talking to my son felt really good, I got to know a lot about him and it felt really good to finally see us get comfortable around each other. I was happy and satisfied that my son was happy too. I was about to fall asleep when I heard a knock on my door. I put a sheet on my body up to my waist covering my feet and dick instinctively and said to come in. Ethan came in and was completely naked. I stared at him and was about to ask what happened, but he spoke first,
“Dad, I am not feeling well and do want to sleep alone in my bedroom tonight. Is it okay if I slept here?”
“Of course, son,” I said without any hesitation. I was still staring at him. He felt what I was thinking and said,
“You don’t mind if I slept naked, do you? It was really hot today so I did not wear underwear too. And we have seen each other naked plenty of times. So, I figured you would not mind.” He said with a serious tone.
“Come here son, don’t worry about it. I am sleeping naked myself tonight.” I removed the sheet from my body which revealed my naked body. I scooted over and slept on the left side of the bed and made space for him on the right side. He came to bed and lay down. We lay there looking at each other’s eyes as we lay facing each other. We stayed like that for a while. Then, I said goodbye and turned to face in another direction. Now he was facing my back. I heard him change sides and I assumed he was now facing the other way too. And after some time, I fell asleep.
To be continued.........
