I was thinking about Kyle and the talk that we had today after our cock sucking session. I looked homosexuality in the set of encyclopedias that we had in the house. As I read the description, I was pretty sure that I was gay. I knew I enjoyed the sex part, but I was starting to develop other feelings for Kyle, I just wanted to be with him even when we were not messing around. I could talk to him about anything, and from what I could tell, he was feeling the same way.
I had gone back to the shed and reread some of Water’s entries, I never skipped ahead to read anything that Kyle and I hadn’t read yet, I didn’t want to break our promise. I could tell that Walter really had feelings for Ellis, and Ellis was so caring to Walter I must assume that he had similar feelings. Walter said on more than one occasion that he felt so safe with Ellis, there were even several entries detailing their talks about their hopes and dreams for each other. I actually enjoyed reading these entries more than the ones where he was talking about their sexual experiences, and they actually spurred conversations between Kyle and I about our real feelings. I will always be grateful for that. I still was not ready to tell my parents or any of my friends, but just admitting that I was gay to myself made me feel a lot better.
The next day I met Kyle at the pond as we had planned, after a quick swim we headed up to the shed to read the next entry in the journal. We sat down next to each other, and Kyle put his arm around me, I turned to him and gave him a kiss, then opened the journal and started to read.
Ellis and I met at the pond for a swim, it was a hot summer day and the cool water felt refreshing against our bare skin. After about an hour I couldn’t control my erection any longer, just being close to Ellis always caused to me to become aroused. We gathered our clothes, not even bothering to get dressed and walked to the shed, hand in hand. As soon as we closed the door, we locked in a passionate kiss and our hard peckers rubbing against each other. We lay on the floor, and started to suck each other, we had become so familiar with each other that we both knew what the other liked. I let loose of Ellis’s willie and went up to kiss him, it was my favorite thing to do with him. Ellis was laying on his back and I straddled his waist as we pushed our tongues in and out of each other’s mouth. I felt his pecker rubbing against my ass and it was getting me more and more aroused, I felt the liquid that was leaking out of the tip of his manhood smearing all over my crack. I felt the urge to pull his pecker closer and I reached back and started to rub it against my hole, it felt so good I couldn’t control myself any longer, I sat back and felt Ellis enter me. I paused for a bit, feeling the pain of Ellis’s big pecker stretch me to the limit. I shifted a little bit, and the pain began to subside as I was going down further onto Ellis. The pain was replaced by a feeling of pleasure that I had never felt before as Ellis looked me in the eye. “Are you alright? I can’t believe you are doing this.”
I smiled back at him, "do you want me to stop?”
“No, I just don’t want to hurt you.”
“I wouldn’t be doing it if I didn’t want to.”
Ellis grinned, “I am glad because it feels really good.”
We resumed our kiss and I started to move up and down on the perfect pole that I was impaled on. I felt Ellis’s breath increase as he began to moan, he gave a push, and I felt his nuts against my ass cheeks and we both exploded. I shot across his stomach and chest, and he filled my hole with his warm seed. I collapsed on top of Ellis as we continued to kiss, Ellis’s deflating willie fell from my hole as I rolled over to lay beside him.
“Ellis, that was really amazing, I don’t know why I felt the urge to do that, but I am really glad that I did.”
“It was very pleasurable for me too, you were so warm and tight, I know that I am going to want to do it again.”
I smiled, “that’s good because I really want you to do it again.”
We held each other in silence for a while and both drifted off to sleep for a short time. Ellis shifted and we both woke up.
Ellis looked me in the eyes, “Walter, what did it feel like?”
Not sure what he was talking about, “what did what feel like?”
“When my pecker was in your ass.”
“Oh, well it hurt a little bit to start, but once I got used to the size and you were a little deeper inside It felt really good. It was like you hit a spot that caused my nerves to just stand on end.”
“Would you like to try to do it to me?”
I felt my eyes widen and said, “if you want me to, I would love to try.”
We kissed and then sucked each other until we were both hard again. Ellis was still on his back, I lifted his legs so that I had a clear path to his hole. He grabbed his legs as I started to rub against hole with the head of my leaking pecker. He relaxed and I started to push in, he tensed up and I stopped to let him set the pace. Once again, he relaxed and I made it past his pucker, pausing to let him get used to my willie inside of him. He gave me a smile and I started to push further until I was in as far I as I could go. I paused until Ellis began to rock back and forth. “God Walter, you are right, there is spot that feels great, please push in again.”
We got into a rhythm and were both moaning with pleasure as I leaned forward to kiss him again, trapping his pecker between our stomachs. Ellis was right, it was so warm and tight, and my willie had never felt so good. I felt my nuts tighten and as Ellis’s pecker was rubbing against our bellies it suddenly shot a load all over both of us. It felt like his hole was clamping down on my willie and I exploded inside of his ass, once again we lay next to each other catching our breath.
Ellis panted, “good God, Walter you were right that was incredible.”
I said, “and you were right too, it was warm and tight, I have never felt anything like that before.”
After a few minutes of silence, Ellis asked, “Walter, what does all of this mean?”
I replied, “I don’t know Ellis, I just know that I want to be with you all the time. Not just when we fool around naked, but I can’t wait to see you every day, you make me feel safe and I forget about my old man.”
“I wish there was something I could do to help you with your pa, but my folks need me around to help with my brothers and sisters. If they didn’t need me, I would run away with you, and we could be together all the time.”
“I know Ellis, that means a lot to me, but I can’t ask you to leave your family. Besides you are already bringing me your families left over food every day, I will figure something out.”
Ellis leaned up on his elbow, “Walter, I think I love you.”
I looked up at him, “Ellis that is what I feel too, yes, I love you.”
We kissed again and went back down to the pond to clean up and cool down.
Kyle still had his arm around my shoulder, but sometime while I was reading, he had opened his jeans and was stroking his hard cock. “Jesus Mike, that was even hotter than the last entry.”
I grabbed his dick, “yes it was.” I set the journal down as I lowered my head to take Kyle’s hardon into my mouth. He laid back as I sucked until he started to moan, I could tell he was close to cuming. I went up so that we could kiss as we both shed all our clothes, we got into a sixty-nine position and went to work on each other’s cocks. After we were both worked up, Kyle asked, “would you like to try it?”
I looked at him, “you mean putting our dicks in each other’s ass?”
‘Well, yes, but only if you want to, we don’t have to if you don’t want to.”
“No, I do, well I think I do, do you want to?”
Kyle blushed, “I think I do, I mean we could stop if it hurts too bad or if we don’t like it.”
I felt my dick harden even more, if that was possible, “yes I think I would like to try.”
Kyle laid on his stomach and said, “you go first, just go slow please.”
I spread Kyle’s cheeks and rubbed my cock head across his hole, trying to use my precum to lube his hole. I started to push, and Kyle clenched his ass and said, “we need something for lube, it hurts too bad.”
I reached over to grab the bottle of hand lotion that Murph had brought for our jerk off sessions. I rubbed some on my dick and Kyle’s hole. I got back into position and told Kyle to relax, my dick head sunk into his hole, and I paused to him get used to the invasion. After a few minutes he raised his ass, and I felt his ass sort of just suck my cock all the way in. Holy shit, Ellis was right, it was so warm and tight and felt so good. I started to push in and out as my nuts slapped against Kyle’s ass.
Kyle was moaning, “yes that’s it, keep going.”
I started pumping as fast as I could, “God Kyle, this feels amazing.”
A few minutes later I was unloading a full load of seed into Kyle’s ass. I fell on top of him panting as I started to kiss his neck. My softening dick slipped out of his ass as Kyle rolled over on top of me and we started to make out again. Kyle reached down and pushed my legs up just as Ellis had done to Walter in the journal. I felt him rub some lotion on my hole and then felt the head of his cock start to push in, Just as I had done, Kyle paused to let me get use to his dick. I felt the pain subside and told him to go a little further, after a few more pushes and pauses I felt his nuts against my ass. I jumped a little, Kyle looked at me concerned, “you ok?”
“Yes, I think you hit the spot that Walter was talking about.”
Kyle smiled at me, “yeah, you hit mine too, pretty intense, isn’t it?”
I nodded as Kyle picked up the pace, I grabbed his ass and tried to pull in as tight as I could. He leaned for a kiss, and he let out an “oh God” as I felt him flood my hole with his cum. He gave me on final push and to my surprise I felt my cock blow a second load across my stomach.
Kyle fell to my side, and we lay there trying to process what we had just done. Kyle started to laugh.
I asked, “What so funny?”
He snickered, “I can’t help but thinking that we are learning how to be gay by reading about a couple guys from the 20’s.”
I chuckled, “I guess you are right, we just seem to do everything they do, don’t we?”
We rested for a few minutes, then I said, “should we see if they have anything else to teach us?”
Kyle asked, “What do you mean?”
“Well, we could read the next entry in the journal.”
“If you want to, I am curious about what happens next.”
I grabbed the journal and found where we had left off, I turned the page and we saw that it was only about half page long, and it looked as if it was written in a hurry.
I felt a fist connect with my face and then another as I fell, and everything went black. I woke a while later, it was dark and I scanned the area for Ellis. I couldn’t find or hear him, so I made my way to the shed for the night. I woke the next morning tasting dried blood in my mouth and feeling like my ribs had been broken, I could hardly breath. I walked out of shed, I saw pa’s truck in front of the house and realized that it was Sunday, and he didn’t have to work today. I went around to the back of the shed so that he wouldn’t see me and headed for the pond. I hadn’t seen pa since that night he hit me. I got to the pond and immediately turned and headed back to the shed. I sat in the corner and started to bawl my eyes out, God my life is a mess. I can’t go on any longer, I am going to end it all right now.
Kyle looked at me, “What the hell happened?”
I started to turn the pages to see if there was anything else written in the back pages, there was nothing.
I said, “shit Kyle, that’s it, there isn’t anything else.”
Kyle said, “damn Mike, what did he do? Where is Ellis?”
“Man Kyle, I don’t know, do you think he killed himself?”
Kyle looked at me in disbelief, “God, I don’t know, do you think his dad was the asshole that beat him up?”
“Do you think Ellis got beaten up too?” I asked.
Kyle said, “damn it this sucks, how are we going to find out what happened.”
I just sighed, “I don’t know bud, I don’t know.”
