I laid in my bed that night trying to understand all the day’s events. Does this mean the I am gay? What would Bug and Murph think if they found out? Oh shit, what about my parents? God, maybe I am overthinking all of this, maybe I was just getting some curiosity out of my system. My mind switched to the journal and to Walter and Ellis, what were they feeling, they not only had to deal with the gay aspect, but what about the whole racial issue? If their relationship came out, they risked a lot more than just pissing off their family and friends. I was hoping the journal would reveal some of those feelings. I finally drifted off to sleep.
I got up early the next morning, weeded the garden and finished a few other chores and headed to the shed. Kyle was walking up the trail just as I was opening the door. We had agreed to read the journal together, so I was glad he was on time, I was very anxious to get to the next chapter. We settled in next to each other and I opened the notebook.
Pa was already home when I got back to the house, he had finished about a quarter of his new bottle. He gave me a nasty look, he threw an empty plate at me, just catching my shoulder.
“Where the hell have you been?”
“I was just out in the trees pa, sorry I will get your supper right away.”
“Too late you worthless pile of trash, I ate some leftovers from last night.”
“I’m sorry pa.”
“Sorry don’t feed me.” As his hand came across my face, I stumbled back a bit as he swung wildly again. He had drunk just enough to be unsteady and lost his balance, he missed and fell to the floor. I turned and ran out the door. I didn’t stop running until I was inside the shed. I put a board across the door just in case pa followed me, although it probably wouldn’t have stopped him if he wanted in. I curled up in the corner that was furthest from the door and waited. My mind went to Ellis, what we had done together today and what it all meant. From the first time I saw him swimming in the pond I felt a strange attraction to him, I wanted to be around him all the time. I slept in the shed that night and woke up to the sound of pa’s model T heading down the road. I snuck into the house and made sure pa was gone, I grabbed a few things to eat and headed back to the shed. I had to come up with a plan for when he came home tonight. My thoughts went back to Ellis, would he show up today? How would he act toward me? After I ate a little bit, I walked toward the pond. Ellis was sitting on the rock beside the water, he turned when he heard my footsteps, “I was wondering if you were coming,” he looked at me and jumped up, “What happened to your eye?” It hadn’t even occurred to me that my eye might be black and blue from pa hitting me.
I put my hand to my eye, “oh, it’s nothing, pa was upset that his supper wasn’t ready, and he smacked me, I’ll be ok.”
Ellis came closer to me, putting his hand on mine, “I am sorry I made you late, is there anything I can do to help?”
“No thank you, I just don’t know how pa will be tonight. If it is all right with you, I really don’t feel like swimming today. Would you like to come up to the shed with me?”
Ellis took my hand, “yes that will be fine.”
We got to the shed and Ellis saw the blanket in the corner, “did you sleep here last night?”
“Yes.”
We sat down next to each other, and he put his arm around me. I suddenly felt safe for the first time since mom had passed away. We sat in silence for a few minutes, then Ellis turned to face me. “Are you going to be all right?”
“I think so I just have to figure out how to deal with pa, that’s all.”
“I wish I knew what to do to help you.”
“Just being here with me now helps a lot.”
I just stared into his caring brown eyes, he seemed to be lost in my eyes too. I am not sure what I was thinking, I leaned in and pressed my lips against his. He didn’t pull away and opened his mouth a little as I did the same. Soon we wrapped our arms around each other, and we were sharing a deep passionate kiss. I had never heard of two boys kissing before, but it felt very natural, soon I felt my trousers become tight as my pecker became hard. My hand brushed Ellis’s crotch and I found him in the same state, within minutes we were tearing at each other’s clothes and Ellis was laying on top of me, our hard members rubbing against each other. To my disappointment, he broke our kiss, but was soon kissing his way down my chest and stomach, stroking me the whole time. I had my head tilted back, every nerve in my body tingling. I nearly jumped out of skin when I felt something wet go across my willie, I looked down just in time to see Ellis wrap his lips around the head and start to suck. Holy Jesus, what is he doing? His mouth was so warm and wet, it felt incredible. After his second head bob, I felt a strange sensation starting in my nuts, what the hell was happing? Without warning I felt my pecker jerk and I start squirting something into Ellis’s mouth. He was startled but kept his lips tight on my member. Once I quit squirting Ellis released his lips and took a big swallow, a little white liquid dripping down his chin.
“Oh my God Ellis, I am sorry I don’t know what that was, I have never felt that before, I would have warned you if I had known that was going to happen.”
“It’s ok Walt, I kind of liked it.”
“Well, it sure felt good, would you like me to put you in my mouth like you did to me?”
Ellis said, “if you want to, just put it in and suck a little bit, that is what I did.”
Ellis laid on his back and I moved down between his legs, I licked the tip, just as he had done and went down until the head of his pecker hit the back of my throat. I choked a little and Ellis said, “you don’t have to go so deep, just suck a little.”
I followed his advice and began to move up and down slowly, it just came naturally, and I was surprised that I was enjoying it so much. I reached up and cupped his balls and after a couple more strokes they tightened up against the base of his willie. I heard Ellis let out a slight moan and I began to taste something I had never tasted before, a little salty and tangy. Just like Ellis I took a big gulp and swallowed, I looked up at Ellis as he laid there panting.
“You were right that did feel really good, I have never felt anything like that before.”
I crawled up next to Ellis as we started kissing again, we laid back and held each other for a while. I never wanted this moment to end, I felt so safe in Ellis’s arms. As I gained my wits, I suddenly felt as if I had been punched in the gut. What I am I going to do about what had happened with my pa?
Kyle and I just looked at each other in disbelief.
Kyle broke the silence, “Damn Mike, that was hot.”
“It sure was, they didn’t even know was cum was. Do guy’s usually swallow it?”
“I don’t know, have you ever tasted it?”
I blushed a little bit, “well, some landed on my hand once and I licked it off.”
Kyle looked at me, “really, what was it like?”
“Well, it was kind of like Walter said, a little salty and tangy.”
Kyle and I locked eyes, slowly we moved together until our lips met. I felt my dick harden, just like Walter had described in the journal, and the kissing just felt very natural. I felt Kyle’s hardon through jeans, so I assumed he was enjoying the kiss too. We soon were pulling off our clothes and just like Walter and Ellis we began exploring each other’s bodies with our lips. I got to Kyle’s cock, and I ran my tongue across its tip as I looked up at Kyle, his eyes gave me pleading look as I took his dick into my mouth. His eyes rolled back, and he let out an approving moan. I started to bob up and down and fondle Kyle’s balls, he was squirming and soon he was moving his hips to match my motions. Once again just as in the journal Kyle didn’t last long, I heard an oh God, and then my mouth was filled with a hot load of cum. I held it in my mouth as I released Kyle’s dick, he looked at me and asked, “how does it taste?”
I moved up and gave him a kiss and let a little bit of his cum go into his mouth, I said, “you tell me,” as I swallowed the rest.
He smiled, “that it interesting, can I suck you now?”
“Of course, you can.” I stood and pointed my cock at his face, he grabbed the base and licked the precum off the tip and then went down as far as he could. I went weak in the knees and put my hands on his shoulders to steady myself. Kyle fondled my balls just as I had done to him, and within a couple minutes I was unloading my very full nuts down his throat. He cleaned my cock and came up so we could kiss and taste each other’s remaining cum.
Kyle said, “I really liked that, how about you?”
“Yes, it was incredible, I like the way you taste.”
“I wasn’t sure I would like doing the sucking, but it was very enjoyable.”
I said, “I was thinking the same thing. Maybe if we do this again, we should try to suck each other at the same time.”
Kyle grinned, “how about trying right now?”
In a flash we were both lying on the floor with each other’s dick in our mouths sucking in unison. We both lasted a little longer this time and our loads were a little smaller. We enjoyed another make out session before we began to get dressed.
I sat back and asked Kyle, “does all of this stuff that we are doing make us gay?”
He looked at me, “I’m not sure, I know I like it, I think about you all the time.”
“Me too, I think that I am more attracted to guys than girls, especially you. I just keep thinking about hearing my dad talk about those queers in California and it seems that what we are doing is wrong.”
Kyle looked concerned, “do you want to stop?”
“No, not at all, it’s just that I don’t think we should be in a hurry to tell anybody else about it.”
“Yeah, you are probably right, but I do like being with you even if we aren’t messing around.”
“I do too. God, I wonder what Walter and Ellis were thinking, it had to be even harder for them.”
Kyle said, “yeah, Walter’s dad seems like a real ass.”
I flipped through the pages, “There are only a few pages left to read, I hope it tells how things turn out. Murph and Bug will be back in a couple days, we should try and finish before they get back. We sure as hell aren’t going to tell them about the journal.”
“Or about us.” Kyle added.
We stashed the journal away and headed to our homes for supper.
