Mike
I stood behind the door, and took a deep breath. I could look through the window on the door, Josh was in bed, probably sleeping. I was supposed to be here to get a statement from Josh, but my mind was in another place.
Why am I so stupid, I knew, I knew all along, but I still fell for it. I was so happy yesterday, when Adam came to me, I was so happy, it was a dream come true, and the best blowjob I’ve ever had. What a fool I was. I thought Adam and I could finally be together at long last. Sure, Adam said he is not ready for a relationship, or sex, but we can take it slow, we can experiment together, we can be together, but all that fantasy came crashing down when he took that phone call. He ran straight to Josh, I got to see how in love he is with him, I was so naive to think I could be with Adam, when I knew Josh was in his life far longer than me. I knew they were fooling around, I read his diary, I was so in love that I refused to believe that, and what I believed was just a fantasy. Fuck! I even saw them having sex yesterday night, I was standing in this exact place, watching them kissing each other, watching Adam sucking Josh’s cock, and rimming him, and…maybe it was selfish of me, but I couldn’t let Adam fuck him, I had to intervene, I could have just left, but even knowing they are fucking will break my heart. It hurts so much to be here, but I know I need to, for my closure, my own sanity. I need to talk to him.
I pushed through the door and walked towards the bed. As I walked closer, it was apparent that Josh was not sleeping. In fact, he had his eyes wide open, staring at the ceiling. He turned to me as I approached the bed, and gave me a warm welcoming smile.
“Good morning, officer. Mike, Right?” Josh said, “Is Adam here with you?”
Why do you have to be nice to me…
I faked a smile, and said, “Adam’s not here. He needs to catch up with some work. He missed most of yesterday. He said he’ll visit later today, and I’m here to get your statement.”
“Oh, right.” Josh said. I could tell he was slightly disappointed. “Okay then, what do you want to know?”
“Just tell me what you remember from the start.”
Josh started recalling what he experienced, telling me about how Paul found him in the locker room and pushed him, how he flirted with Brad, how Paul confronted him later and the argument…I jotted down notes as I listened, but I was on auto-pilot, all I could think of was Adam, and his relationship with Josh, as I checked out Josh for the first time.
He is a good looking fella, I can see why Adam is fond of him…great hair, nice stubble beard, beautiful smile…I can see his muscles popping out, the hospital gown cannot hide it, he’s a personal trainer, no wonder he’s built…fuck! Those chest hair coming out in the middle, he looks sexy with it…he is better than me in every way possible. How can I compete with him, I would choose him over me if I were Adam…Why did he lead me on like that? I was ready to move on, why did he bring me back, and then throw me away? Am I just another plaything for him? I’m always someone’s toy, they all use me when it’s convenient…Chase, Adam, all of them, it’s what I’m good for, it’s what I’ll ever be…
“...and I blacked out, and woke up in the hospital.” Josh finished his story, and I snapped back to reality. I tried to remain professional, but my mind was all fogged up with pain and rage, I froze and simply stared at Josh.
“Um…is that all? Are we done now?” Josh asked, confused.
“Oh…um…I have some follow up questions.” I finally cleared my head enough to speak, and asked, “Who is Brad? What is your relationship with him?”
“Oh, Brad, we…” Josh paused for a second, and it could just be in my imagination, but he was blushing a little, “He is my client, and a good friend.”
“You said he’s flirting with you, are you two…” I asked.
“No, no, we are not like that…” Josh replied, now clearly blushing, “He’s married.”
“Oh, right. And Paul? Do you have any history with him?”
“No. I met him a couple times at the gym before, but we barely speak to each other.”
“And um…” I hesitated to ask the next question, but this was what I came here for, and I mustered enough mental strength and asked, “Are you in a relationship with Adam?”
“What?” Josh was stunned and confused, “What does that have to do with the case?”
“I…I’m just curious…never mind…”
“Wait…how did you…did he say something to you?”
“No…umm…yes he did.” I lied. “He…said you guys mess around…”
“He told you that.” Josh stared at me, “right, you are his partner. He must trust you a lot.”
“Yeah, we are close.” I suddenly felt guilty, I was lying, talking behind Adam’s back, and betrayed his trust. But part of me didn’t care, I felt betrayed by Adam first, and I didn’t care if I burned this relationship down. “We are very, very close.”
“I can’t believe he told you…” Josh whispered, and said, “I guess if he told you, it’s fine. We are more than friends, and I consider him my partner. I really really care about him.”
Partner. My heart sank when I heard the word. I was his partner, but not in the way I wanted. I looked at the man in front of me, beaming in glee as he talked about Adam, while I was getting further and further away from him. I could feel tears forming, I needed to leave, I couldn’t bear staying here any longer.
“I should go. You need to rest.” I quickly turn around, hiding my face.
“Thanks for coming, Mike.” Josh said, even if I wasn’t looking at him, I could tell he was smiling. “Say hello to Adam for me.”
“I will…” I murmured, biting my lips a little to stop myself from crying out loud, and walked out the room. And even though I said I will say hello to Adam, I didn’t plan to see him, not now, I needed to stay away from him.
“Haven seen you in a while, officer.” A man greeted me as I walked in the front door. I went straight there after the hospital visit.
“Hey Rob…yeah it’s been awhile.” I said to Rob.
“I thought you were not coming back.” Rob teased me, cupping my face as he said, “I thought you were having fun with that Adam guy.” I frown, after hearing Adam’s name.
“Don’t say his name in front of me.”
“Aww…did he hurt your feelings?” Rob grinned, “And you crawl back to me huh.”
“He…I don’t care anymore.” I said, hiding my emotions, “Just do whatever you want with me. I know you want to.”
“Anything huh…you were never this straightforward with me, what’s the fun with that?” Rob said, as he looked me in my eyes.
“Just use me like everyone else…I don’t care anymore…” I said.
“Fine. Come with me.”
We headed to the living room, and as much as I tried to not think about Adam, I couldn’t help but recall the last time I was here. I was here, naked, kneeling in front of Rob. Rob was wearing my uniform, pretending to be Adam, and I sucked his cock, while Adam waited for me outside. I shook my head to clear my mind, I didn’t come here to be reminded of Adam, I was here to have sex with Rob, to numb my broken heart.
“Stand there, facing me.” Rob said, as he sat on the coach. “Strip for me. Oh, and leave the hat and belt on.”
Of course. How can I forget? Rob has a thing for cops. I remember the first time I met him, I was here for a disturbance call, and he opened the door naked for me. I was so shocked, but he welcomed me in, and one thing led to another, I was sucking his cock in my uniform. It became a regular thing, I would come here while I was on duty, and he would fuck my mouth talking dirty to me. I was so starved for love, I wanted him, but when I met Adam, I stopped coming. But now…
I slowly unbuttoned my shirt, I could sense Rob’s gaze on me, watching my every move. I didn’t take my shirt off, I left it open, showing my white undershirt. I unbuckled my belt, and took it off. I then unzipped my pants, letting it drop to the ground, and I pulled my red boxer briefs off. My lower half was fully exposed, showing off my soft cock to Rob. It wasn’t very impressive, a little short, but my balls were huge. I stepped out of my clothes, and slowly took off my shirt and undershirt, and stood naked in front of Rob. The belt didn’t stay off for long, as I put it back on on my bare body, and with the hat and shoes, I wasn’t just naked, I was a naked cop exposing my body to a civilian.
“Good boy!” Rob smirked, as he stood up, circling me, and examined my body. “Adam is missing out on this.” His hand started groping my pecs, sliding down to my abs, feeling up my hairless torso. “Look at this ass!” He walked behind me, and slapped on my bubble butt, hard, leaving a red handprint on it, as it jiggled. I moaned, as much as I didn’t want to admit it, I liked it. I liked how he handled my body, my ass being played with, my cock started to grow as he grabbed my ass and started kneading my round cheeks.
“Would you look at that!” Rob grinned, reaching around to grasp my hardening cock, whispering into my ears, “Don’t get too excited, we haven’t even started yet” He unhanded me, and picked up the uniform I dropped on the floor, undressed his own clothes and started putting on my uniform.
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“What do you think?” Rob smirked, as he buttoned up my shirt, “Remember what we did last time? You were so horned up…”
“No! I’m not doing that again, Rob.” I whined, interrupting him.
“Call me Adam.” Rob walked forward, standing in front of me, and looked me in my eyes. I gulped, my hard cock betrayed me, twitching as I heard the name Adam, and before I knew it, Rob leaned in and started kissing me. I closed my eyes, and in a moment of weakness, I complied. Rob became Adam, I didn’t care how fucked up this was, if I couldn’t have Adam in reality, at least I could be with Adam here.
“Kneel.” He ordered, after breaking the kiss. I dropped to my knee, his crotch was right in front of my eyes. “Show me. How much do you want my cock?” I didn’t wait a second to bury my face there, rubbing my face against it. I could feel his cock swell under his pants, as I found and wrapped my lips around his head, licking eagerly through the thin fabric. I kept licking and sucking, the spot became damped with my saliva, and precum sipping through, I could taste the slight saltiness as I hungrily slurped on it. But I wasn’t satisfied. I wanted more. My hand found the zipper, and I reached in after unzipping the fly, grabbing his hard cock.
“Fuck…I want your cock…Adam.” I moaned, as I held the base of his shaft. I licked my lips, staring at the beautiful erection, watching a dollop of precum slowly dripping down. His cock twitched, and I knew he was flexing it, teasing me with it, and I desperately wanted it in my mouth. I looked up, I could see him looking down at me, grinning, watching me as I opened my mouth wide, my tongue sticking out, basically begging for his hot dripping cock, hoping for his approval.
“You are a naughty boy, ogling at your partner’s cock on duty…” He swiped my hands off, and swung his cock forward. Instead of feeding me his cock, he slapped it on my face, smearing it with his precum. He drew it back, and repeated it on the other side, his tip touched my lips in the process. I moaned, the simple touch on my lips was enough to get me going, as I opened my mouth even wider, my tongue chasing his cock as he moved. “You are not getting it, not yet.” He said, as he stepped back. I whined, I started crawling forward, my mind was focused on his cock, and only his cock.
“Stop!” He scouted, and I stopped. I was panting, on all four, my own cock was raging hard, I put all my strength to resist chasing after him. I listened to his footsteps, and he stopped behind me. My body shivered as I felt his touch on my butt, his hands squeezing my round ass, spreading my cheeks apart. And then I felt it, his wet tongue invading my pink hole, licking and circling the tight muscle. I almost collapsed from the sudden stimulation, I groaned and moaned at his probing tongue, feeling him pushing against my tight hole.
“Ughh…I want you Adam…I want you inside me…” I moaned, as I pushed back my body. My hole suddenly felt empty, no longer feeling his wet tongue, all I could feel was his strong firm hands holding my ass. “Please…I need you, Adam…” I begged, and he responded, by pressing his hardness against my crack. I groaned in satisfaction, I could feel his warm sticky cock sliding along my crack, rubbing my hole as it went. “Yes…fuck me, Adam…my ass is yours…” I cried out loud, my hat fell off as I buried my head in my arms, my ass sticking out and pushing back against his cock.
“I own your ass…” He thrusted his cock, nudging my hole. He was clearly excited by my words, I could almost feel his cock pulsing as he surged and slid his cock up and down my crack. I kept moaning and whining, my hole twitched each time his cock head passed through, welcoming his cock in.
“Fuck me, Adam…Fuck me…” I yelled in anticipation, I couldn’t wait any longer, I desperately needed his cock inside. I needed him to fill my ass, feeling him inside me, to fuck me hard, filling my hole with his load. “I love you, Adam, I need you…I’m yours…” I needed him, I wanted to let him know I’ll surrender myself to him. He owned me, my ass, my body, all of me. I pushed back harder, I needed him so bad, all I could think of was his cock pushing in.
“Fucking…damn it.” Rob groaned, and my ass felt empty again. I was stunned, and confused, and this time I could feel his hands leaving my ass, leaving alone. I waited, hoping for his touch again, but he didn’t come back.
“What…? Where did you go?” I whined, and suddenly, a flood of emotions ran through my mind, all the feelings that were suppressed rushing in. “Please…don’t go…Adam…don’t leave me…” I quickly turned back, Rob was standing, shoving his cock back in his pants.
“Fuck it. I’m not going through with this.” Rob said, as he looked at me, “I’m not a monster. Look at you, you are crying.”
I didn’t realize it before, but tears were dropping down my face. I wiped my face, and yelled, “Why did you stop? Just fuck me!”
“No! I didn’t know you were in love with him!” Rob yelled back, “I love sex, but I’m not that fucked up.”
“But…I…” I was speechless, I felt empty inside. No one wanted me, I felt worthless. I almost broke down when Rob came close and hugged me.
“Look, you are a great fuck, but clearly you are not in the right mindset right now.” Rob tried to comfort me, “Did he break up with you? Is that why you came back for me?”
Tears started erupting again, and I cried and cried in Rob’s arms. I filled him in with my relationship with Adam, with Josh, with everything that happened. I came here for sex, to have a moment of time to forget my fucked up life. I didn’t get what I wanted, but oddly enough, I felt more at peace when I left his place.
