â Ch. 19: A NEW DAWN â
Whoâs Who in this chapter
Bryniar (a one-legged man living on the 4th floor) shows to Lance something amazing. Back home, Lance gets an angry welcome by Kareem, who then seeks for advice from the hunky resident shrink Doc Stevens; but in the end heâll get the help he needs from the concierge Lionel, who has a not-so-secret crush for Kareem.
~ An amazing sight ~
âLance⊠Lance, wake up!â
âUgh⊠What time is it? â Lance blurred, slowly focusing his sleepy eyes on Bryniar. Again, he almost didnât notice that Bryniar was sitting on a wheelchair and was missing a leg; but he did notice from Bryniarâs reddish eyes that he probably didnât sleep at all.
âItâs a five oâclock in the morningâ â Bryniar replied, visibly excited â âI feel like shit waking you up so early, but thereâs something you must see! I worked all night on it. Can you get ready in⊠say⊠fifteen minutes? We canât be late!â
âOKâŠâ â Lance groaned, groggily getting off the bed and heading to the bathroom. Fifteen minutes later, Lance was having a hard time following Bryniar racing up Eta Avenue toward 1st Street. Turning around a corner, Lance found himself in a large square covered in what seemed bare dirt; the total lack of plants, benches or streetlamps, coupled with the never-changing eerie twilight of the 4th Floor made the place terribly depressing.
âHere we are!â â Bryniar exclaimed, excited, glancing at his wristwatch â âWeâd better lay down, so we can have a better point of view!â
âShould we lay down in the dirt??â â Lance asked, but Bryan chuckled: âThereâs no dirt in the Cube, itâs a synthetic ground, you wonât get dirty. This is the âGathering Placeâ, the only place on the 4th Floor where we can meet and chat, after the workday. They couldâve made it any color, but apparently couldnât come up with anything less depressing than this pale brown. But itâs not as hard as it seems!â
With a swift move, Bryniar locked the wheels, stood up on his only leg and effortlessly lowered himself to the ground, soon copied by a dubious Lance: âI still canât guess what should happen at such an unforgiving hour of the morningâŠâ
âYouâll know in eight minutes and thirty secondsâ â Bryniar quizzically replied, and then reclined on the ground, glancing at the tall ceiling over them. Lance did the same, and after a few minutes of silence he turned to Bryniar: âSay⊠I know itâs none of my business, but⊠have you ever thought of getting a bio-tech prosthetic leg? Nowadays they make miracles, you canât really tell the difference between a real leg and a bio-tech one!â
âI know. I already have oneâ â Bryniar replied with a plain tone, and Lance gasped: âYou have? Then⊠why donât you use it?â
âI hate it! They gave me my new bio-tech leg shortly after locking me into the Cube, but this didnât change the fact that Iâm still a freak, confined to the 4th Floor for life! Why should I use it? To pretend I donât have âsevere flawsâ? On my wheelchair I can do everything the beautiful people living downstairs do, even better, but no one cares, I canât ever be⊠beautiful enough for them!â
âForgive meâ â Lance said in a contrite tone â âI didnât mean to upset you. And youâre totally right, having one or two legs wouldnât make any difference, but not for the reason you say. Look into my eyes, Bryniar: even wearing your bio-tech leg you canât possibly be more beautiful than you are. I really mean it. Do you really think you have something less than the people living downstairs? I know them, and youâre better than most of them in so many ways that I canât count them all.â
Bryniar turned his head to Lance with wet eyes: âDo you really think so? Lance, I canât put in words how⊠touching and inspiring your words are. I⊠I reallyâŠâ
A single tear escaped from Bryniarâs eye, and while it slowly rolled down the cheek, it started assuming a rosy tint, reflecting a sudden pink light that started diffusing from the ceiling and the surrounding wall.
âWhat the⊠My gosh!â â Lance exclaimed, glancing around and opening wide his eyes to take the breathtaking beauty of the very first dawn ever rising over the 4th Floor, forcing the eerie shadows to fade in the promise of a new day. The first pink rays slowly became stronger, and the entire 4th Floor was inundated by a warm light that tinged the countless identical buildings in a thousand shades of pink, rose and orange.
âYou did it, Bryniar! You made the sun rise over the 4th floor! You made this miracle happen!â â Lance exclaimed, smiling wide, and Bryniar seemed to blush in the pink light: âYou did it, actually. You inspired me, you said it could be done, and I worked all night to turn your idea into reality. I donât know if they will allow us to keep it, as I had to cut the lighting one hour shorter on both the first and second floor to get enough energy, but I donât care: even if this is going to be a one-time show, it was worth the work.â
âDonât say soâ â Lance replied, confident â âIâm sure that the people downstairs will gladly give you one hour of their light to let you have at least a short daylight.â
âI hope so, but I wouldnât be that confident about their generosity. Anyway, it doesnât matter, Lance, because I feel this is a new dawn for the people of the 4th Floor, and even if they cut our light off, they canât stop the dawn from rising inside our heart. Look! My friends are coming! Look at the marvel and the joy on their eyes: this is something no one can ever take away from us.â
Lance glanced around, and saw many people coming out their apartments and looking at the âskyâ with wide eyes and incredulous smiles; some of them were on a wheelchair, others used a walking stick, some had a minor deformity, marks on their skins or thick glasses, but in Lanceâs and Bryniarâs eyes they all were as beautiful as can be.
Quickly the Gathering Place filled up with many people looking with adoring eyes both at the sky and at Lance, who got up and shook many hands, always wearing a sincere, friendly smile. Some of the inhabitants of the 4th Floor probably thought to be lucky to meet in person a striking handsome guy as Lance, but Lance knew he was the lucky one, as gaining the trust of the people living there was extremely hard.
The dawn slowly turned into a beautiful morning and the warm sunlight made even the Gathering Place look almost beautiful. People started bringing small blankets and food, and soon the entire brown ground was covered with colorful blankets and people sharing food and happily chatting. Lance got closer to Bryniar, gave him a kiss on the lips and said in a low voice: âI wish I could stay, but I have to go. Let me sneak out without much fuss, uh? But Iâll come back, rest assured.â
~ Inexplicable tension ~
It was not yet 6:30 A.M. when Lance cautiously entered his living room; he didnât want to wake up Kareem, so he walked on tiptoes toward his room.
âIf you sneak like a thief I may well think youâve something to hideâŠâ â came Kareemâs voice from the couch, and Lance winced, because there was a bitterness in Kareemâs voice that heâd never heard before. âKareem! I⊠I just was trying toâŠâ
âNo need to think out excusesâ â Kareem interjected â âYour disheveled hair and your tired eyes tell the whole story. It mustâve been an epic night!â
âWell⊠uhmâŠâ â Lance murmured, taken aback from Kareemâs unexpected ruefulness â âIt actually was⊠I mean, you canât imagine what happened up at the 4th Floor! Itâs been amazing, andâŠâ
âPlease, letâs gloss over the sordid detailsâ â Kareem cut it short.
Lance lost it: âWell, know what? Fuck you, Kareem! Itâs not the first time I stay out all night! And frankly, what I do at night⊠or in daytime, for what it matters⊠itâs none of your business! I have a life to live, and this includes having some fun now and then! Why all this fuss about my nightly activities, all at once?â
Kareem rose on his feet and Lance was frightened, looking at the fiery glare in his eyes: âBecause I try, I try hard to forget it, but then you come home looking like a man-whore who sucked cocks and got fucked all night! I hope you earned big money, at least!â
Lance cringed, hearing Kareemâs words and fought back the tears. Heâd never seen Kareem so altered, and tried to soothe him placing a kind hand on his shoulder: âCome on, buddy⊠Donât be mad at me⊠Itâs not like it seemsâŠâ
âThe fuck is not!!â â Kareem yelled, shoving Lance hard and making him fall to the floor â âThis is too much, Lance, I just canât befriend a man-whore who sells his ass for money! Donât expect me back for lunch. Or dinner. Iâll come and take my stuff later on, now I have to go to work!â
âThis early in the morning?â â Lance asked from the floor with trembling voice, and Kareem slammed his hand on the table: âWhat, do I need your permission? You stay out all night and I canât go to work early in the morning?? Fuck you, whore!â
Lance uttered a desperate sob and hot tears of shame and disillusion welled from his eyes, rolling down his cheeks. Kareem turned around and stormed out of the apartment, trying hard to delete from his mind the painful image of Lance, on the floor, with his face streaked with tears. But he couldnât. The more he walked along Delta Avenue, the more painful that memory became. He couldnât really understand what snapped inside him. He suddenly realized he didnât have an answer to Lanceâs question: why all that fuss for a night out? Why was he so pissed off? He knew well what Lanceâs business was, heâd always known it, and yet now, out of the blue, picturing Lance into a faceless manâs arms was unbearable for him.
And why, thinking about it, couldnât he sleep more than a couple hours last night, and was already up way before the dawn, waiting for Lance to come back home?
At each step, the heaviness on Kareemâs heart grew more, until he almost found difficult to breathe. Lance⊠Lance on the floor looking at him with teary eyes⊠those beautiful, shining teary eyes⊠Maybe he shouldâve gone back home, maybe it wasnât too late to fix it⊠But no, it was too late, heâd gone too far with Lance⊠How on earth could Lance forgive him? Kareem, for sure, couldnât forgive himself.
Once again, Kareemâs feet knew better than his mind what to do, and after a short while they stopped in front of block Z-13, Doc Stevensâ home. Kareem knew it was too early to pay him a visit, but he badly needed to talk to him, and pressed the button next to the door.
âKareem!â â Doc Stevens exclaimed, emerging from behind the curtain that closed the entrance â âWhat a pleasant surprise! Do come in!â
Doc, apparently, was a morning person, because he was already fully dressed; he ushered Kareem to his study and sat him on an armchair. âNowâŠâ â he said with a comforting tone, sitting in front of him â ââŠwhat brings you to my door?â
âI⊠Iâm a monsterâŠâ â Kareem replied sheepishly â âI argued with Lance, told him horrible things and shoved him to the floor⊠and I really donât know why. He spent the night with someone, and this⊠this pissed me off! Heâs right, itâs none of my business with whom he spends the night, but⊠donât know⊠I felt hurt!â
âHurt? Like it hurts when someone you love cheats on you?â
Kareem opened wide his eyes, shocked that Doc could think that he⊠that he and Lance could⊠Fuck no! Just thinking about it was utterly insulting, and Kareem vigorously shook his head⊠while his lips let out a feeble: âYesâŠâ
The sudden, thick silence was broken by Kareemâs late denying: âNo! Wait! I donât love Lance! Not that way, anyway!â
âToo late, your heart spoke on your behalf. But why should you deny it? Itâs such a beautiful thing, loving someone! Yeah, yeah, youâre a straight guy, you donât love another man and blah blah blah, but really, is that the way you want to live your life? Pretending not to love the most amazing guy youâve ever met? A guy who, incidentally, loves you from the bottom of his heart, while desperately trying to hide it, afraid to scare you?â
âI⊠I feel like shit, now, Docâ â Kareem breathed, unable to deny anymore that what the shrink said was the bare truth, and realizing how selfish heâd always been with Lance â âBut⊠youâre wrong, he doesnât love me, how can it possibly be? Heâs a⊠male escort!â
âShouldnât an escort feel love for someone? Or perhaps itâs Lanceâs profession that is disturbing to you, isnât it?â â Doc inquired, and Kareem made a smirk of discomfort: âItâs not for me to judge⊠but⊠what if I find hard to accept it? You know my background, Doc, itâs hard for me to accept that a man⊠a friend⊠a dear friend gives his ass for money!â
âWhat Lance does is much more than thatâ â Doc replied â âHe doesnât âgive his ass for moneyâ, he gives to men⊠the joy that life has denied to them. He brings a shining ray of light in the twilight of their hearts. And anyway⊠what would you think if I tell you that Lance doesnât do it anymore?â
âWhat you mean he doesnât do it anymore?â â Kareem asked, surprised â âDid he quit his profession? Why?â
âCanât you guess it? He did it for you.â â was Docâs reply â âAs far as I know he still sees Adam, occasionally, but heâs not accepting money anymore. As for staying out the night, he still has⊠err⊠his needs, you know.â
Kareem looked like the armchair had suddenly become too hot to sit on it: âAww⊠fuck⊠fuck! Heâs so loving, so caring with me, he even gave up on his only source of income for me and I⊠I canât evenâŠâ
âYou canât give him what he craves for?â â Doc completed the sentence â âYou canât satisfy his needs?â
âI wish I could, Doc!!â â Kareem almost cried out â âEvery day I take my damn medication, containing a powerful stimulant, and I always hope that it would help me⊠you know⊠cross my boundaries, silence my bigoted prejudices! I tried, Doc! Believe me, I tried, but I just canât bring myself to make love to Lance!â
âBut you already had some⊠sexual contacts with him.â
âThose âcontactsâ donât count. The first time I raped him, I wish it never happened! And later on I let him ride me while I was fantasizing about making love to my fiancĂ©e Beverly. I was not really making love to Lance. But⊠now I wish I could do it.â
âUhm⊠excuse me for a momentâ â Doc said, taking his phone and texting someone â âOK, sorry, I had to send a message. I understand your struggles, Kareem. You already made a huge step, acknowledging your deep feelings for Lance; but the next step you need to take is more physical, and you need some⊠training, if we can say so.â
âTraining?â â Kareem asked, remembering the hot, unsettling and yet enlightening âexperimentsâ Doc tried with him, during his previous visits â âYou mean⊠with you? I feel comfortable with you, Doc, we already did⊠ehm⊠many things together.â
âAnd this is precisely why this time I have to step aside, despite the undeniable desire I have to try some new âexperimentsâ with you. You need to⊠train with someone you donât feel comfortable with, but who will be more than glad to help you. Please come with me.â
Doc Stevens stood up and led the way to his bedroom, followed by Kareem. When he opened the curtain, Kareem gasped in surprise, looking at the concierge, Lionel, waiting for them on Docâs bed, naked, with a shy, hopeful expression on his face.
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~ Crossing boundaries ~
Kareem scanned Lionelâs body, he was not very muscular but he didnât have an ounce of fat, and his trimmed pecs and abs, his nervous legs and his toned biceps were a beautiful sight. Kareem had already had some sexual intercourses with young mans, before, guys who looked too childish to be seen as real men; but Lionel was in his early thirties, he was undoubtedly 100% man, a healthy and sexually loaded man⊠as his stiff dick clearly revealed.
There was a tense moment of silence, and then Lionel said: âOne word from you, Kareem, and Iâll go away. But Iâve dreamt of you so many times⊠I dreamt of your body, I dreamt of your lips⊠Make my dream come true, Kareem. Make love to meâŠâ
âNo one forces you, Kareemâ â Doc interjected â âbut if you really want to give to Lance what he craves for, if you really want to give yourself to Lance completely, this is the right moment for you to prove yourself that youâre man enough to do it.â
âAnd⊠what if I donât get hard?â â Kareem asked, uncertain, and Doc giggled: âWith all the stimulant you have in your body, Iâm sure you wonât have any problem in that department. And in any case, itâs your manâs duty to put you⊠in the mood, so to speak. Shut your mind off, Kareem: this is not the time to think, this is the time to act.â
Doc went smoothly away and Kareem looked straight at Lionel for a moment; and then took a deep breath and said resolutely: âLetâs do itâ, and quickly got naked under Lionelâs rapt eyes; but he had one last moment of doubt and asked, uncertain: âYou⊠You wonât think Iâm⊠less of a man or something, will you?â
Lionel sighed with unrestrained desire and replied: âYour manliness is⊠out of scale, Kareem, itâs almost⊠intoxicating! Please, make love to me, Kareem, donât let me beg for itâŠâ
With a proud, almost smug grin, Kareem lay on the bed, next to Lionel, and said seductively: âWhat did you once say about my lips?â
âYou still remember itâŠâ â Lionel breathed, with shining eyes â âI said that your lips beg to be kissedâŠâ. He slowly moved closer to Kareem, tentatively, until their lips touched. At first Lionel was very cautious, afraid to scare Kareem, and was pleasantly surprised when he felt Kareemâs tongue confidently invading his mouth, taking possession of it and exploring its recesses like it was his personal hunting ground.
While kissing passionately, Lionel felt Kareemâs hips press on his thigh, and he couldnât be mistaken: Kareem was rock-hard, his thick warm cock was throbbing in anticipation and hungrily humped over Lionelâs smooth skin. âMmmhhâŠâ â Lionel moaned, exploring with his eager hands Kareemâs back, his muscular shoulders, his stubbled cheeks, his powerful loins; he hesitated for a moment and then dared to move his hand to Kareemâs ass, and when he felt the marble glute flexing under his fingers, he almost lost his load.
âI already prepared myselfâ â Lionel said with urgency, like he couldnât wait any longer to feel Kareem inside him, but Kareem flashed a smug grin and rose to his knees, straddling Lionelâs head: âThen, you should prepare me, tooâŠâ
Looking at the thick, dark-skinned cock throbbing at an inch from his face was for Lionel like listening to a sirenâs song: nothing in the world could stop him from worshipping that incredible icon of manliness. He grabbed it with one hand, enjoying the warmth and the firmness of the hard shaft, and then took it into his mouth, savoring it like the most delicious food.
The sincere passion Lionel was putting in his act dispelled the last doubts from Kareemâs mind: he felt powerful, masculine, dominant, proud of his manliness and grateful for the sheer pleasure that Lionel was bestowing on him with his experienced mouth and hands. Lionel didnât spare himself, he took almost the entire member into his mouth and choked a bit when the wide helmed forced open his throat muscles, but he didnât back off. With his hands, he massaged Kareemâs heavy balls, caressed his muscular thighs and took handfuls of his round toned butt; Kareemâs unrestrained moans of pleasure were music to Lionelâs ears, and the guy munched on the savory meat with renewed energy, until Kareem warned with coarse voice: âIf you want me to go all the way, youâd better stop before I explodeâŠâ
Kareem recoiled and Lionel looked up at him with an irresistibly shy expression: âHow⊠How do you want me? If you feel uncomfortable, I can turn aroundâŠâ
âYour current position, facing me, is perfectâ â Kareem growled with a confident smile, raising Lionelâs legs to gain access to his hairless rosebud â âI want to look into your eyes when I do thisâŠâ
He started pushing his fat helmet on Lionelâs wrinkled hole, that opened up for him, welcoming the stiff rod into its depths. Lionel groaned and his eyes rolled back for the excruciating pleasure of feeling stretched almost to his limit. âLook at me, Lionel⊠Let your eyes tell me how much you want meâŠâ â Kareem said in a soft voice and Lionel locked eyes with Kareem, opening his bare soul to his lover. Yes, lover: even if they were not a couple, and would never be, in that moment Lionel felt loved, completely and unreservedly, and he returned Kareemâs love with passion.
Kareemâs manhood explored Lionelâs moist depths with manly, confident thrusts; there were no doubts, no uncertainty in the rhythmic pace of Kareemâs hips, and Lionel dove his fingers into Kareemâs thick chest hair, taking handfuls of his twitching pecs and brushing his fingertips on his stiff nipples. âOoohh⊠Iâm so sensitive thereâŠâ â Kareem moaned, tilting his head back; and Lionel smiled, happy to give such a great pleasure to that wonderful man who had bravely crossed many boundaries to make love to him.
âThis is a dream⊠You are a dreamâŠâ â Lionel moaned, melting under Kareemâs confident pounding; the vision of Kareemâs hairy chest swaying back and forth over him, the sight of his handsome bearded face, the feeling of his thick cock delightfully stretching his anal rings were almost too much to bear for Lionel, who started squirming: âI canât hold back any more⊠Youâre making me⊠oooohhh!... Youâre making me cuuuummmm!!â
Without even touching himself, Lionel felt a powerful orgasm explode in his groin, he arched his back and his cock throbbed hard, while long ropes of white cream pooled into the creases of his chiseled torso. He was still shooting madly when Kareem bent over to him and gave him a deep churning kiss, while his hairy belly roughly scraped Lionelâs throbbing cock, bringing his pleasure to a paroxysmal level. âMMMHH!! MMMMMHHH!!â â Lionel moaned loud into Kareemâs mouth, while his body squirmed delirious. âYouâre so hotâŠâ â Kareem groaned â âYouâre so fucking hot⊠NNNGGHHH!! Awww⊠FUUUCK!â
Lionel almost went wild when the feeling of Kareemâs pulsating cock into his ass and the warmth of his seed added to the almost unbearable pleasure he was already feeling; and for many long moments loud moans and ragged breaths echoed in the room.
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~ A mysterious thing ~
Exhausted and panting, they came down from the sexual high and Kareem crashed on the bed next to Lionel. They looked at each other, smiling, and then Kareem said: âThank you, Lionel.â
âYou thank me?â â Lionel giggled â âMan, you made me live a dream! I couldnât believe to my very eyes when I got Docâs message. You⊠Youâve been wonderful, Kareem. I know itâs been hard for you to let yourself go, and I feel lucky I could share this experience with you. Oh, I have no illusion, I know youâve done it all for Lance, but⊠just know that Iâm always available for you, day and night, anytime!â
âIâll keep it in mind!â â Kareem smiled wide, amused by such a fiery passion, and moved to get off the bed, but Lionel grabbed him: âWaitâŠâ â he said with a suddenly serious expression â âI⊠I have something for you⊠I guessâŠâ
âYou⊠guess?â â Kareem asked puzzled, and Lionel nervously glanced around, then reached down to his clothes, piled under the bed, and took an envelope with something hand-written on it. âIâm not sure what it isâ â he said uncertain, handing the envelope to Kareem, but thereâs your name on itâŠâ
âItâs a letterâŠâ â Kareem simply said, taking it from Lionelâs hand.
âA⊠letter? Like A B CâŠâ
âA letter, Lionel! A written personal message, like an email, but hand-written!â
âWritten by hand? And on paper?â â Lionel gasped â âWhy not sculpting the message on a slab of stone, thenâŠâ
âWell, it wouldâve been much more difficult to deliver, just to mention one obvious reasonâ â Kareem noted, a bit annoyed at how little the youngsters knew about how life was no more than few decades before they were born â âSpeaking of which, how did you get it?â
âTwo days ago a policeman Iâd never seen before came from outside to bring a new guest. The⊠letter slipped out of his pocket, it seemed an accident, so I told him heâd lost something; but he briefly glanced at the security cameras and said he didnât lose anything. Then I noticed your name on it and I was scared shitless, so I swiftly kicked it under the desk, praying that no one was looking at the security monitors. It took me hours to take the courage and pick it upâŠâ
âThank you, Lionel, you did a great job, Iâm sorry I snapped at you. An unknown policeman coming from outside⊠Someone is taking risks to communicate with me.â
âArenât you going to read it? What does it say?â
âBelieve me, Lionel, you donât want to know. The less you know, the less you risk. Iâm already in debt with you, I donât want anything bad happens to you.â
âYouâre not in debt with me, not after what you gave to me, Kareemâ â Lionel replied with a wide smile â âAnd if ever another⊠er⊠letter is delivered in the future, be sure Iâll promptly bring it to you.â
âIf so, Iâd better start paying off my future debt right awayâ â Kareem joked â âWhat did you say about my lips again?â
And the silence fell again in the room, while their lips locked in another passionate kiss.
-~~~âââooOooâââ~~~-
In the next chapter: Kareem, after making love to Lionel, breaks down; Doc Stevens helps him revealing something of his past. Back home, Kareem does something that leaves Lance breathless, and then they discover the amazing content of the letter delivered by Lionel.