I have never ever write anything like this bit i have always wanted too, every word of this is true and has shaped me into the man I am today....
Ever since I was little i knew I was different, one of my first memories is looking in my mums catalogue and staring at the section where the men were modelling boxers, for the life of me I couldn't understand why.
When I first to start to explore porn mags and masterbate I would always fantasise about lying in between a man and a woman with my hands on her pussy and one on the cock, it would consume me thinking about that scenario.
I have always been into kinky stuff, i would always wear my mums panties and play with myself and imagine myself as a little girl being told off, as I got older I went to secondary school and this is when I first realised I was proper different, after one of the first PE sessions we all had a shower and i remember standing there, with naked men all around me trying my hardest not to look at there cocks, some of them seemed so big, i had to get out of there before anyone noticed, from then on i only showered at the end, one day, when I was about 14, I was still in the shower and the lads were getting changed and as I was getting out i could see into the adjoing office and our PE teacher was getting changed, when i looked, he was stood with his back to me and he was totally naked, i just stood there amazed at how turned on i was looking at his arse, i quickly got changed and left, the next week, i did the same thing, waited to the end and looked again, i could see he had his boxers and a t shirt on and he was stood side on, i kept glancing and after a minute or so, he had took his boxers off and was looking for i presume his towels and i could see his cock, it was just lying there and looked so big, it was totally soft and I couldn't take my eyes off it, then out of no where he shouted my name and asked me why I was still there, I told him I had got back to changing room late and wouldn't be long, he then shut the door too but i noticed not all the way, i did my best not to look but in the end I had to and he was stood there looking at his phone stark bollock naked, he looked amazing and it was a sight I thought about for years, nothing ever happened but it was odd that everytime I showerd i would see him naked.
My first gay experience came with one of my school mates, we had bunked of school and was over the field, he asked me why I never showered with the lads and joked I had seen his big cock and felt embarrassed, i never answered him but he was right, he asked me what porn I watched and I told him straight porn, he said if he could watch porn now, i didn't answer and he started, you should have seen the bulge in his pants, its was mesmerising......pt 2 to follow
