This is a short confession on my quest to become my boyfriends cuck and the first post I've ever made, please email me for more details
It all started after my boyfriend, let's call him Jay caught my cheating on him with his ex Matt... It's all started at the start of our 8 year relationship after I moved in with Jay and we t out to meet his friend Matt who I had no idea was my boyfriends ex...
Dispite knowing that I can't handle alcohol I wanted to keep up with my boyfriend and his friend and not seem like I was weak... Throughout the night as I got more and more drunk I seen Matt start to get cuddly and clingy over my boyfriend and me being drunk for essentially the first time of my life I thought they were just good friends and started flirting with Matt myself....
Long story short I pulled Matt into our room and started to kiss him and feel up his ass dispite him warning me that this is wrong and I have a boyfriend... And he was right... Just as I pulled Matt's pants down dispite his objections I got what I deserved... My boyfriend walked in and just stared at me for a few moments before leaving...
Over the next few days I eventually got him back but little did I know I already done the action that would change my fantasies and my goals for my relationship down the track forever... Thus began 6 months of my boyfriend and his ex having long passionate sex in our bed and making me sleep in their mess without me knowing, making me ware his ex's underware, rekindling the real love they had for each other and their secret relationship behind my back until we eventually moved hours away and they lost contact...
I eventually found out I had been the perfect cuck for my boyfriend and instead of mad I got horny over it and rewarded him for the beautiful cheating he did on me and the masterful way they dated each other without anyone knowing... Although I tried to convince my boyfriend to bring Matt into our relationship as a third he refused... I thought that was it for this strange and insens lust I had for my boyfriend loving another man... I asked my boyfriend why he did it and who was better and who he preferred... To my surprise it wasn't me.
He explained that he will always have special feelings for Matt after loving each other in secret for years but never actually able to fully be together as a couple...
As for Matt being better in bed than me he wasn't wrong as I almost never got to have sex with anyone in my life... An aspect of my life I never tried to fix to this day...
As we now lives whole cities away we where able to work together through our mutual cheating until I began finding messages of my boyfriend meeting and enjoying other men...
A normal person would end this relationship here but with every time he had other men I wanted him to more and more until this past year...
Early last year I have come to terms that I want to only be there for my boyfriend as a relationship and let him become especially single while I stay loyal to him and only talk to other guys, never meet...
I approached my boyfriend with this idea which he initially rejected as he loved me and didn't want to loose me until I finally over multiple fights convinced him to make an effort into looking for sex with everyone but me...
This leads me to this week, I harrased my boyfriend into admitting if I'm as good as the guys on Grindr.
It wasn't a surprise to me that I am only good in bed until I cum and then it becomes a chore to try and finish, I know he is being honest and giving me the answer I was looking for as I go from giving incredible blowjobs to lazy and unenjoyable hand jobs
So instead of asking him what he enjoys I have not changed anything so that he still has insensitive to sleep with other men after banishing me to an empty room
I even hold up photos of guys he has sex with while giving him my boring handjobs
This leads me to last night, my boyfriend told our only housemate that we are in a open relationship (but not that I'm never aloud to cheat) and it turned out really well as he was happy to stay outside while my boyfriend sucks a guy of Grindrs cock in the lounge room downstairs while I'm upstairs waiting to clean him up and reward him
I have gotten incredible respect for my housemate being comfortable with my boyfriend having other guys and trusting we are open
I'm hoping it becomes a normal thing for my boyfriend to bring guys over while I helplessly let it happen
