This is a story of fiction. The characters portrayed are a figment of my imagination. I hope you enjoy the story and I would love any comments.
My name is Dean Henderson and this is my story of loss, heartache, finding myself and moving forward....
I was in my 2nd year of college when I received the devastating news that my parents and my sister were killed in a horrific automobile accident. I was somewhat introverted and the loss pushed me deeper into myself, teetering on the edge of the abyss.
I flew home to meet with my uncle to make the funeral arrangements. He was my only living relative. I knocked on his door and when he opened the door he hugged me and we both cried as our emotions flowed. My uncle insisted that I stay with him and his wife and that a hotel room was out of the question.
One week later my parents and sister were laid to rest and I met with my parents lawyer. An Insurance policy was left to me along with the house that was paid for. I reassured my Uncle that I would take care of him and he said there was no need but I insisted and he hugged me as I left to return to college. I didn't want to sell my parents house so we decided to have a Realty Company handle renting the house. My uncle said he would make sure that the house was rented to a good family.
I returned to college a different person, filled with emptiness knowing that my Mom and Dad wouldn't be calling me to see how I was doing. All my sister's dreams and aspirations were gone. My phone rang and it was Emily, my girlfriend. "Dean, I'm so glad you're back and I couldn't believe the devastating news. "Come over this evening for dinner." "Emily, you're sweet but I'm not good company right now and I need to be alone." She replied...."Okay, but I want to see you." "I will call you and maybe we can meet at the coffee shop in a few days." We said goodbye and I realized that I cared for her but didn't love her, I knew I had to make it right.
Emily and I met for coffee and I told her how I felt and she agreed, asking if we could be friends. I told her we would always be friends and she left. I ordered another cup of coffee and as I was sitting in a daze a guy walked in and I was snapped out of thoughts noticing his friendly demeanor with the girl who was taking his order. He happened to look over at me and he smiled. He got his coffee and a bagel and sat at the next table over from me. He looked at me and once again smiled. I smiled back and he said...."would you like some company?" "I reacted slowly, and said...."sure if you would like." He sat down and said....'my name is Logan and I'm from London, England studying here in the US." "Yes, your accent told me you were not American." "I was born in the US and then my parents returned to London when I was very young." "My name is Dean and it's nice to meet you Logan." We talked and I felt drawn to him due to his friendly demeanor. Logan looked at me, paused, then spoke...."As I looked over at you, you looked sad and sort of lost, sorry if I have misspoken." "I lost my parents and my sister in a terrible car accident and I can't seem to come out of the gloom I feel. "Dean, I am so sorry for your loss, when did it happen?" "Three weeks ago." as tears filled my eyes. "Logan responded...oh man, I don't know what to say." I replied....thank you for your kind words." "Hey, by chance do you like to run?" Logan asked.... " I do, but lately I don't do much of anything but go to my classes." "How about meeting me tomorrow morning, we can go for a run and then I will treat you to breakfast." Okay Logan, I think I would like that." We were in the same dorm but on different floors, so I gave him my room number and he said he would be knocking at 9AM."
There was a knock on my door promptly at 9AM. I opened the door putting my fingers over my lips for Logan to be quiet because my roommate was sleeping. I got my keys and we headed out. It was a beautiful Saturday morning, perfect for a run. We ran three miles without talking and when we stopped, breathing heavily Logan questioned...."how did it feel Dean?" "It felt really good and cleared the fog in my brain." "Come on man, let's stretch and then walk." "Okay, I'm with ya." As we walked Logan stopped..."I want to tell you something and I hope it doesn't affect our new friendship." "Okay Logan what is it?" "Well, I'm gay and I wanted to tell you that so there are no secrets between us." "I paused then said....it's not a problem for me at all but I'm straight and I just broke up with my girlfriend." "Why did you break up with her?" "Logan, have you ever been in a relationship?" "Chuckling he responded...."Nope, but some hot one night stands." Carefully choosing my words I said...."I want to fall in love, but Emily and I were more like friends than lovers, so I ended it and we will remain friends." "I understand and I think everyone wants to find that special love" Logan uttered. "Let's get breakfast, I'm starved."
As we entered the restaurant and sat at a booth, my thoughts were spinning. "Hey Dean, where are you?" "Sorry Logan, I do that a lot lately, getting lost in my thoughts." "I understand and I hope I can help you to move forward by being your friend." With tears filling my eyes I said...."you have already helped me." "Enough about me, what about you? Why are you studying here in the US." "Well, my Dad is in the real estate business and he wants me to work with him but it's definitely not something I want to do so I checked out colleges in the US and here I am. It was a way of me getting far away from my Dad and the adversity. Don't know what I want to do but I will figure it out." "Okay, I want you here with me." Logan looked at me and smiled.
Hey, I'm going to look at an apartment later today, and I would like you to come with me." "Wow Dean, you're moving out of the dorm?" "Yeah, I'm looking forward to my own space with peace and quiet." "Sure, I'd love to go with you."We met with the realtor who was handling renting of the property and as we walked in I knew it was perfect. A nice size open floor plan with living room and an amazing kitchen/dining area, two bedrooms and a nice size bathroom with a large walk in shower. "Dean, how can you afford this apartment?" "Oh I can afford it Logan." I talked with the realtor and told him I would take it. We left and walked to the park and sat and talked. "Man, you are lucky to have your own place." "You liked it didn't ya?" "Fuck yes, I wish you the best in your new place." "Hey Logan, how would you like to call it our place?" Logan looked puzzled..."what do you mean, our place?" Chuckling I said....just what I said, our place, I want you to move in with me." Logan shouted...."oh shit you're kidding, but that's not possible, I wouldn't be able to pay my share of the rent and you hardly know me." "I am taking care of all the expenses." "Dean, that wouldn't be right and I would feel like a freeloader." "You can help by helping to keep the apartment clean and share in the cooking." "Okay, okay and when I can I will help you with expenses." I asked...."what are you doing tomorrow?" "It's Sunday, so no plans." "Would you like to go furniture shopping with me?" Dean questioned. "Yes, it sounds like a plan." "We have a lot to do furnishing the apartment."
Within a matter of a week, the furniture was purchased and all the accessories too. Moving day approached and Logan and I were excited. The furniture arrived and within a few hours we had the place looking like our home. After we finished I ordered a pizza and we relaxed and talked. "This is so cool Dean, a place called home." "You're right, it's our home to share." After we ate Logan was at the sink and I walked over to him and slipped money into his pocket. "Be careful with your hand in my pocket, you may feel a surprise" as he laughed. I went to the bathroom and when I returned Logan was pacing back and forth. "What are you pacing for Logan?" "What the hell Dean, five hundred dollars?" "Look, I know your Dad cut your allowance off so it's a little something so you have cash if you need it." "Fuck, do you have any idea how I feel? "Okay, I'm sorry and you can make it up to me in other ways." "Well, I can do that....anything you need and I will do all the cooking for us." "Ahhh, yes, because I hate to cook."
After a few months we settled into a routine and we got along perfectly and I knew Logan had become my bestfriend. I wanted him with me and the thought of him returning to England at some point gave me feelings that I couldn't deal with.
On one particular Friday night while having dinner Logan was quiet and I asked him if anything was wrong...."No, but I have something to ask you." "Okay, I'm listening." "Logan paused, looking at me and asked...."would you mind if I had a guy spend the night?" I looked at him, then got up taking my plate to the sink. "Sure, it's not a problem at all."
We sat watching TV without saying much when the doorbell rang. Logan got up and opened the door welcoming his friend in. They hugged and Logan turned to me...."Dean, this is my friend James." I got up shaking his hand..."nice to meet you James, I'm Dean." "Likewise" James uttered. "Okay, you guys enjoy yourselves, I'm going to the store for a few things we need." Logan looked at me with trepidation...."okay, see you, get back soon."
I left and got in my car perplexed at what was going on in my head. Why do I feel jealousy? Do I have gay tendencies? I knew I couldn't keep my feelings to myself any longer and the thought of Logan and James having sex was pushing me into a place I wasn't familiar with. I can't lose him, I need him in my life. How do I handle my feelings?
An hour later I walked in and they were laying on the couch and immediately got up. I put up the groceries and said...."you guys enjoy the evening, I'm going to take a shower and then head to bed to do some reading." Logan looked at me and I knew he was uncomfortable so to try and lighten the mood I said...."it was nice meeting you James....see you guys in the morning." They both said goodnight and I took a shower and when I came out, the lights were off and they had gone to bed. I got in bed and tried to read but I couldn't focus. I shut the light off and tried to sleep but I tossed and turned and then I heard moaning and I knew they were fucking. I never had these feelings before and I knew I had to resolve my feelings for Logan.
I didn't sleep very well but I did fall asleep very early into the morning hours. I woke up, opened my door and went to the bathroom and it was 10AM. I walked into the living area and Logan was sitting at the table drinking coffee. "Morning, where is James?" "He left and we need to talk Dean." "Okay," as I poured some coffee. I sat down and Logan looked lost. "This is your apartment and I think I overstepped boundaries by bringing a guy here." "Logan, I told you this is your apartment too and who you bring is your business." "I'm not contributing so I don't feel like it's mine and I got the feeling that you didn't like me bringing someone here." "Look, it was a little awkward for me, but I will get used to it." "Just so you know, James means nothing to me, it was sex, nothing more. I chuckled and said...."too much information Logan, what you do and who you do it with is your business." "Okay, so are we good? Logan asked. "Dude, of course we are good, now drop it." "What are we doing today?" "I'm meeting Emily for lunch" "Oh okay, will you be back for dinner" Logan asked. "Yes, I should be back by four." "I will have supper ready for us." "Sounds great Logan and then we can chill and watch a movie."
I met Emily and I knew I could confide in her. "Dean, something is bothering you, I can read you like a book." "Is it that obvious?" "Yes, now tell me what's troubling you." I paused and shook my head...."I think I have feelings for Logan." "Oh, are you sure?" "Emily, I thought I was straight, I don't look at guys, but I look at Logan and I don't know what to do." Emily took my hand and said..."you have to resolve this or it will end the friendship you have with Logan. I believe that a relationship that starts off as best friends is a perfect start." She smiled and said...."find a way to tell him how you feel and don't waste a moment." My eyes filled with tears...Emily, you are my best friend."
I left the restaurant knowing I had to tell Logan but how? I walked into the apartment and I could hear the shower. I paused and knew what I had to do. I stripped and slowly walked into the bathroom. Logan was singing and didn't hear me. I pulled the shower curtain back and he turned around, looked at me shocked. I approached him, put my arms around him and kissed him. He pulled back looking confused and I kissed him again but then he grabbed me and the kiss became fueled with passion. "Dean, I don't know what to say." "Fucking kiss me again." I used body wash and slowly started washing his body. His perfect cock was hard, big and thick. I washed it, pulling his foreskin back as he moaned. Then I washed his ass using my finger lightly fingering his hole. He reciprocated and began to wash me, having desire in his eyes. "Dean, I want you to fuck me." "Okay, but I have never had sex with a guy." "You will be fine," Logan snickered.
We dried each other off and headed to my bedroom. Logan had me lay on the bed and he crawled in between my legs. He took my cock and looked at me...."Dean, you have a nice thick cock" as he took it in his mouth, licking the head, pulling my foreskin back and circling my cock with his tongue. "Oh fuck Logan, that feels so good." He took me down to my pubes and I couldn't believe he had my entire cock down his throat. The feeling was something that I never felt before. After sucking me for some time, I told him to slow down. "Dean I'm going to show you some mansex 101 so turn over on your stomach and spread your legs. He began to massage my ass cheeks and then he spread them. "Fuck Dean, you have the most luscious rosebud." Without warning he started to eat me and I nearly went through the roof. "Oh fuck, oh fuck, Logan, what are you doing to me." My outburst made him go wild munching on my previously forbidden fruit. After licking and sucking my asshole for some time I was in the zone. He got up and laid on his stomach and said..."Eat me Dean, and then fuck me." I did as Logan did and started manipulating his ass cheeks and then spread them. His hole was perfect, pink and hairless. I slowly started to lick his sweet man pussy and once I got into it I couldn't be stopped. He tasted so good and I couldn't get enough of him. He moaned and yelled....'Fuck yes Dean, eat that ass, your amazing." I knew I had some lube in the nightstand that I used to jerk off. I pulled the bottle out and lubed my cock and Logan's ass. I lined my dick up and pushed in slowly passing his sphincter. The feeling was exquisite, tight and warm. "Slow Dean, go slow." I slowly inched my way into his velvety insides and he moaned and said...."fuck yes, fuck me Dean, fuck me babe." At that moment I knew I was in love with Logan, totally and unequivocally. After a few minutes I knew I couldn't hold off from cumming so I pulled out. "What's wrong, why did you pull out?" "Never felt anything like it Logan, and I was going to cum and I didn't want it to end so I pulled out."
"Suck my cock Dean." I took his perfect fat cock and did what he did to me and soon I was gagging, slime pouring out of my mouth, but I kept trying and each time I took more and I was loving on his cock. I started taking him as far as I could then back up his shaft and then back down over and over. "Okay man, I'm getting close."
"I have the need to penetrate your sweet ass Dean." "I'm a virgin, I am unsure of this Logan." "Dean, I feel that you need me as much as I need you so give yourself to me." "You won't hurt me will you?" "I would never hurt you Dean." "Don't just fuck me, make love to me." "That's easy for me to do babe." Logan lubed up and smeared lube on my hole. He aimed at his target and pushed in and I screamed..."Fuck, it hurts." "Relax, just breathe and relax." He slowly pushed in, one inch, then he would stop, another inch and soon he was buried in me. "Are you okay Dean?" "Yeah, don't stop." As his cock rubbed against my sweet spot the feeling was a wave of unamanagable pleasure shooting though ever nerve in my body...."Oh gawd, fuck me Logan, give me all of you babe." He began a seductive rhythm slowly taking all my inibitions away. Suddenly he pulled his dick out...."Turn over, turn over, I want to see your face as I fuck you."
I turned over and I wrapped my legs around him and he was back inside me. As he slid in and out of me, I relaxed and wanted more. He laid on my body, soaked with our sweat as our mouths met in tongue worship. He spit in my mouth and then sucked me, our mouths connected in passion. I was leaking precum like a faucet when he yelled out....."Fuck Dean, I'm cumming, on shit yesssssssssss." He sucked on my nips and I exploded without touching my cock. He chuckled and said....'man that's a lot of cum Dean" as he licked my semen and then shared it with me. We laid back breathing heavily coming down from the most amazing sex I had ever felt.
We laid side by side looking at each other and he asked...."Was it okay for you?" "OKay? it was better than okay, it was extraordinary!" I took my hand and touched his face and said...."I was so confused Logan, but now I know what I want and I hope you want me as much as I want you. "He looked at me and smiled...."I never expected this, but I thought about it all the time but never said anything to you because I didn't want to upset you." He came close to me and kissed me, a kiss that curled my toes. "Hey Dean, does this mean I can now sleep in your king bed?" "Oh yeah, I need more practice in the teachings of mansex." He asked me to turn around and he spooned me, putting his arms around me and pulling me close. "He whispered in my ear...."I love you Dean." My heart soared and I responded...."I love you too Logan." We drifted off to sleep knowing that tomorrow was going to be a perfect day.
I awoke the next morning with the sun filtering through the window blinds. Logan was laying on his back with his arm across his chest. I was struck by his handsomeness and the sight of his naked body filled me with a yearning that I had never felt before. His perfect pecs, bulging biceps and a tight six pack were perfect. A treasure trail from his navel down to a thick forest of pubic hair. His cock was laying against his leg, and his thickness and big balls had me hard as I inspected every inch of him. I looked up taking in his handsome features, his 5 O'Clock shadow looked sexy and his sensual lips added to my arousal.
I leaned into him smelling his cock, the scent of cum from the night before was like an aphrodisiac to my senses. I took Logan's cock into my mouth, loving the softness of it. He moaned and spread his legs and the feeling of him growing in my mouth was pure ecstacy to me. I held his balls in the palm of my hand and used my finger to rub along his taint. He was soon fully engorged and I began to worship his cock. Up and down, using my tongue and spit and then taking him into my throat, gagging but continuing. I looked up at him, my mouth full as his eyes opened and a smile told me he was enjoying my new skills. I let his cock pop out of my mouth and he said...."What a way to wake up babe." "Good morning stud" and continued my oral performance. I sucked his cock with all I had as his body pushed into my mouth and his words enticed me. After ten minutes or so he screamed...."Fuck, Dean I'm going to cum, oh gawd, fuuuuuuuuuck! He exploded in my mouth and I took every drop. Cum was seeping out, running down my chin but I continued enjoying his taste. After cleaning his cock off, he reached up licking the cum from my chin and then we shared the remnants in my mouth.
I laid beside him and he giggled...."What? Did I do okay?" I asked. He giggled...."for a newbie, you can give one hell of blowjob." I replied..."It's Sunday and I think I need more practice in the ways of mansex, namely fucking." "Logan began tickling me and we laughed so hard, then he said...."I will make us breakfast and then you can fuck me Deano, then I will fuck you and then we can do it again." "Sounds like a day I'm going to enjoy so let's take a shower and then you can make me breakfast, and what's with Deano?" "Just having fun with you Deano" as he laughed.
The rest of the day we fucked each other until we were drained. Logan made a special dinner of Lasagna, salad and wine. As we began eating, he picked up his glass and I picked up mine as he spoke...."Dean, I have never loved anyone but my heart is full of love for you, may this be the beginning for us." "Logan, I love you too and I have felt it for some time but didn't know how to deal with it, but I do now."
So as the story goes, Dean and Logan found that special love. Logan remained in the US, they both graduated and made a perfect life together. They added two kitties, Herman and Chester, making them a family and lived happily ever after....
Quote for thought....
For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart....
