ROBERT’S CHANGE
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Kirk started to talk very nervous. I told him I wanted to know everything, please be calm and tell me.
-Well, yesterday I was walking back home after my classes when I crossed the terrace of a bar and Robert was sitting there having a beer. He told me to approach him.
-Please have something with me, Kirk. I promised you that I wanted to always be your friend and I mean it, but I still don’t know whether you have forgiven me.
The waiter was there already so I sat next to Robert and asked for a coffee.
-I have forgiven you, Robert, but I don’t know whether you have forgiven me for loving you.
-It won’t be easy to tell you what I wanna tell you now, but I have to, and believe me: I have the sincere desire to become your friend in earnest and the fact that you’re gay and love me does not matter at all now.
-Are you sad? –I asked him because I could see him with red eyes. I had already begun to drink my coffee.
-I’m changing; Kirk and it will always hurt me to remember that I beat you. In fact I haven’t gone to the meetings of our gang the last two days. I’m gonna leave them. I don’t wanna hurt anybody now, and if someone is a faggot now, that’s me.
-Please don’t call yourself a faggot. Why are you doing it?
-I’d better tell you, Kirk. Well, your brother taught me a lesson by the river and I promised I’d go to your house and kiss you. Well, I didn’t want to do that but you know I finally did kiss you and…
-And?
-Well, I don’t know whether you noticed that I creamed my pants.
-I didn’t see it, Robert. But Desmond did and told me; that surprised me. I thought you would be shocked later and hate me. But please don’t berate yourself. It was just an accident.
-The fact is, Kirk, I left your house with no anger. I arrived home and knew now I had to meditate cause I remembered perfectly well I had cum when kissing you. I never thought one day I would kiss a boy, you know what I thought about that, and I should be mad at myself now, or mad at Desmond or at you. But I surprised myself suddenly smiling as if I had just taken a load off my mind, as if I knew for certain that kissing somebody as sweet as you was my real desire. I saw that I was even getting hard again and I felt like wanking over you, but I never did. It’s not only that I’ve been a skinhead for three years. It was that it was such a new idea to have the need to wank over a boy that first I had to assimilate it. What if I did wank over a boy and I felt awfully when I came?
-But when I did go to bed that night I knew I had to do it or else I would cum after all without touching my dick, and whatever feeling I could have when I came would be the same. So yes, Kirk, I finally masturbated, and I want you to know that I did wank over you.
-Thanks for telling me, Robert. My God! What did you feel? I couldn’t forgive myself if I had unconsciously hurt you.
-That day it was me hurting you, Kirk and that’s an image that will always haunt me. Well, I was so horny that I came in just three minutes but I can be all day talking and I would be unable to express how good I felt. Good feelings towards somebody are better than violent feelings. It was total relax, as if just in that moment I had found what I needed in life. So that very night, before sleeping I had to begin a second masturbation and I want you to know that it was again over you.
-You’ve almost made me cum, Robert.
-And just telling you and looking at your eyes, by the way they’re beautiful eyes that you have, could make me cream my pants again and don’t worry, now you know it wouldn’t be the first time I cum on my briefs because of you.
-So finally, Kirk and I’d rather hide nothing, I’ve spent two days always jacking off, always thinking about you, and it’s a wonderful feeling, believe me.
-I understand that now you need to stay alone and meditate. I’d better leave you now.
-Kirk, you haven’t hurt me and I like you a lot now. What if instead of leaving, you come up to my house and well, we can play some video games. I would love spending today with you and talking and playing like friends. Do you still love me after what I did to you?
-When you beat me, I thought my love for you was ending but it’s resurrecting now seeing you so brave and sweet with me.
-I’ll never hurt you again. Please come up to my house.
-So finally, Desmond, and though with a lot of doubts, I accompanied him to his house. Both of us were a little shy but he told me we could head to his room and we started playing. We were for ten minutes peacefully playing together but I love him and of course having him so close I was getting hard. But I noticed that Robert also had a boner. After ten minutes, he surprised me by asking.
-Kirk, can I kiss you?
-You sure you would feel ok?
-Totally sure. It’s a real need now.
-Do what you want, Robert.
He took no time to think and soon approached his lips to mine and we started kissing. I wanted to soon stop the kiss but he begged me to keep on kissing.
-You love me, Kirk, and I love kissing you. You could come to my house every day and we could play together. I have some board games too and I love your company. Maybe one day I will go further with boys, or at least with you. Let’s keep on kissing.
-And I don’t know how long we were kissing, Desmond, but it was a long time. And in the midst of that kiss, Robert began to touch me and told me, can I?
-If you’re sure you feel good, you can.
-And you can touch me, if you want, Kirk.
So we kept on kissing, at the same time touching each other thoroughly. And suddenly I felt him stroking my crotch. Of course if he touched me, I had to stroke his crotch too, and he told me.
-I don’t wanna cream my pants again, Kirk. There’s something I can at least do and I wanna do. Why don’t we masturbate each other? –And suddenly he took his dick out and invited me to do the same. My face was a burning red but I whipped it out, of course totally hard, and Robert didn’t hesitate a single minute, as if touching a cock had always been his stronger desire. He started to wank me so of course soon I began masturbating him.
-I like what I’m doing, Kirk. You got a hot dick and I’ll make you cum. This is another thing we can do every day. Masturbation is better than board games.
-What a hot boy you are, Robert. Now you only need to start believing in yourself. Ok, we can go on as far as you’re enjoying.
But he was so stoked that our first masturbation didn’t take long. He unexpectedly shot a first load with me, and seeing him cum, I could do no other thing than cumming for the first time before the boy I love.
He told me he felt better now than ever. We could go on playing together and sometimes he would stop and kiss me more times. We spent a couple of hours comfortably playing and he was true to his word and constantly kissed me. At the same time he touched me and finally stopped the game to suggest a new mutual masturbation.
So we were playing with our cocks again and suddenly he knelt a bit and kissed the tip of my cock. Of course I came again with such unexpected sweetness and I reciprocated and did the same to him and he also came again with me. I was gonna leave now when he told me.
-I’m a good cook, Kirk. Why don’t you stay here with me and we have dinner together? I can rustle up something.
He soon prepared a delicious salad and during that time I phoned you. He heard what I said to you. When I turned off the phone, we started dining. I was afraid that after dinner, I should have to leave but as we ate, I saw both of us were hard again. In the midst of dinner, he asked me.
-Kirk, why don’t you stay the night with me? I don’t want you to go. Look, I’m afraid of being fucked. I’ve been a skinhead for too long and maybe I still have a little prejudice about it.
-But you can fuck me instead, Robert.
-I won’t. Either I’m willing to do with you some things or I won’t do them to you. I will not take advantage of your love to have a selfish good time. Not that, we won’t fuck, but I’d like to suggest something.
-Tell me.
-Why don’t we sleep together, Kirk? I’d really like to. If I’m really afraid of sodomy, I’m not afraid at all of how good I find myself with you and I’d love going to bed with a boy tonight. I’d like to have you in my bed, Kirk. Please stay with me tonight.
-You might repent, Robert, but you know I love you and what you’re telling me is heaven for me. Ok, we can try but if a moment comes when you don’t like it, tell me. I can leave your bed in the middle of the night and go home. Anything but hurting the boy I love.
-Do not fear me, Kirk. Your company makes me feel good. I promise I won’t tell you to leave my bed.
-Ok, Robert: I’d love to sleep with you.
We had finished dinner and he invited me to enter his bedroom. It was very clean, it was big and I soon saw his bed was big enough for two. But I suddenly saw him stripping. We had spent the afternoon with our clothes on.
-I always sleep with nothing on, Kirk. I would like you comfortable enough to take everything off and sleep totally nude with the boy you love. And don’t worry about your boner. What would worry me would be seeing you’re not hard.
I still had some fears that he could repent but so far I saw in his eyes that he desired it, and I started stripping to his rhythm. I loved watching his total nudity but I was surprised when he told me I was a very sexy boy.
Once both of us totally nude, he told me to enter the bed and he kissed me with lust again and started to touch me, so I started to touch him too.
-I cannot have a sexy naked boy in my bed and not do something with his cock –and he started to jack me off again so of course I started to do the same. At least I was sure by now that he enjoyed mutual masturbations. We were at it for two minutes when I saw him unexpectedly taking my dick in his mouth and telling me.
-I told you we won’t fuck, Kirk. But this is something I can do and I will do. I’m gonna suck your cock and don’t worry: I won’t stop and if you wanna suck my cock later, you can.
-Of course I will, Robert.
-Let me change little by little and bury the hideous boy I’ve been. And to change definitely it will suit me well to admit I love the taste of a cock. I love it, Kirk. I’ll give you many more blowjobs. It’s a fact that I love having a dick in my mouth, but I needn’t suck any more cocks, if I can continuously suck yours.
-You’re driving me crazy today, Robert –I said, already cumming. I didn’t want to tell him beforehand. I wanted him to taste my semen so he could taste it and repent of the words he had just told me. But what he told me is that the taste was wonderful and he would do it again but so far only with my sexy cock, that’s what he told me.
I was so grateful to him and I so desired to do it that as he was talking and sure now that I could do it, I swallowed Robert’s cock and started now my blowjob. And reveling at the taste of his manhood, I wanted to grant him a long blowjob and sometimes licked his balls so he could have more fun and didn’t cum too soon.
In that moment, I was listening to my brother with broken feelings and I had begun raining real tears before him. Kirk saw me and told me we would talk later but first he wanted to tell me everything. I said: “go on, Kirk, I don’t know why I’m crying.”
It was indeed a long blowjob. More than a quarter of an hour and he continuously thanked me and told me his dick had never been treated so well. I answered.
-You deserve it, Robert. And if you’re worried that you’ve not been so good earlier, let me assure you I’ve just had the best blowjob of my life, given to me by the boy I love and who has sucked my cock with no shock.
-Thanks, Kirk, I’m cumming now. Aaaaaah!
What a glorious taste, it was being a perfect day. He told me than since so far he didn’t want to fuck, we could try and sleep something together now. He fell asleep soon, his face that of total bliss. It took me longer for I looked at Robert’s face all the time.
And this morning we had breakfast naked. And he would surprise telling me out of the blue.
-But there’s something you haven’t dared tell me, Kirk. Your eyes are telling me, cause you are transparent, and your eyes are talking to me about Desmond. So please tell me, I would not ask you if I were to get angry. Is it that you have sex with your brother, Kirk?
I almost choked when he asked me that and I began crying my eyes out.
-Please, don’t blame Desmond –I managed to tell him.
-I won’t, but now I know your big secret, I’d better know everything, don’t you think?
-It all started after you came to our house and kissed me, Robert.
And as I could I managed to tell him everything that had happened that day and what has happened since. His response was kissing my mouth.
-I like you just as you are, Kirk. I also like your brother. I would like to have the guts he has. Neither of you should worry. Now I have to think about myself. I can’t imagine myself being fucked or having a boyfriend, but I’m sure I’d like to be your fuck buddy and we can sleep together some more days.
-So this is all I did yesterday, Desmond.
I quite broke down in that moment. I managed to tell Kirk I was really glad about him, but I said all this in a river of tears.
-What’s the matter, Desmond? Don’t cry, please. Just tell me.
-Well, I’m jealous Kirk, but at the same time really happy for you, believe me.
But Kirk had intuited the truth and asked me point-blank.
-Desmond, do you love me?
-Oh, my God, Kirk, I love you, but you love him and we’re brothers. You should be happy with Robert.
-I know Robert wants more sex with me, but would never become my boyfriend. Besides, Desmond, I didn’t tell you but I fell in love with you when you took me to our bed and were so brave later –and with real tears bathing him, he added-. Kiss me, please.
And we did kiss for a very long time, two brothers aware that they loved each other.
-Robert’s change has been impressive, but you Desmond, are quite another boy. You love me, but I love you, never forget it. Even in the impossible case that Robert ever loved me and we became a couple, I will never let you down, honey. Let’s go to bed, my love.
That night in bed was our first time. I’d never gone to bed with someone I loved and I was in love with my own brother now, but what he’d told me was true: I had changed completely and nothing could shock me now. Besides Kirk loves me too and I would never let him suffer.
The next day I phoned Robert. We should talk, the three of us together. I wanted the impossible to happen: I wanted him to fall in love with my brother.
