All my life I always followed the rules, was a good student throughout school, I played sports, was popular, got laid a few times, but I always treated girls with respect. My parents raised me with a sense of purpose, for me to be the best academically, also to be a kind considerate man, always aware of those less fortunate than me.
I'm not a big guy, but not small either, I guess you could say average. I have a toned, muscular body, dark hair almost black, hazel eyes, bronzed skin from my Portuguese heritage. I enjoyed the friendship of many of my classmates, but never anyone that I could call a best friend. I excelled through high school and graduated with honors. Dating was always fun, but there too, I never had a serious relationship and the sex was okay but I couldn't understand how all the guys made sex the bomb. It just never did that for me.
After graduation I headed to College, got to my dorm room and began unpacking. Just as I was finishing my roommate came in introducing himself as Zane. "Hi Zane, it's great to meet you, I'm Jaxon. I helped him bring his boxes in and then we talked as he began unpacking.
Zane was a little taller than me, very light blond hair buzzed on the sides, longer on the top with beautiful blue eyes. He was very friendly and I knew we were going to get along perfectly. Zane was also an honor student, and he said he wasn't big into partying, that his focus would be on his studies. I told him that we had the same goals.
After he finished unpacking he asked me if I wanted to go for something to eat, in which I accepted his invitation. We walked to a fast food joint and after we ate we talked and talked about our dreams and our aspirations. I couldn't believe how much alike we were.
We got back to our room and Zane said he was going to take a shower. I was laying on the bed when he walked out with a towel wrapped around him. I just stared at him, his body was awesome, and the imprint of his dick underneath the towel for some reason was hot to look at. He got his boxers and a t-shirt, turned his back to me and dropped the towel. I had never seen such a perfect ass and I had seen a lot in the locker room at high school.
I couldn't understand my fascination with his body because I was straight. I took my shower and when I got back he asked if I wanted to play some video games, which we did. We were really hitting it off and I enjoyed being around him.
The weeks passed and we were both into our studies, when a couple of the guys asked us to go to a frat party. We accepted....the party was wild as most frat parties are, we had a few beers but neither he nor I were big drinkers. We left the party acting quite silly from the buzz we both had. Walked into our room, Zane started wrestling with me and we were both laughing hysterically. I became panicked as the touch of his body was getting me aroused. I told him okay, let's chill. He took a shower and I just sat on my bed, wondering why I was having thoughts of him that never happened to me before. Zane came out of the shower and I went in after him because I didn't want to see him nude. As the water was cascading over me, I became hard because I couldn't stop thinking how the touch of his body affected me.
I had never thought about watching gay porn even though I did watch straight porn. I was alone and I decided to take a leap and surfed the web for gay porn. I had never even thought about what two guys did, but I was intrigued watching two guys blow each other. I had never received a blowjob and it fascinated me. I became hard, beginning to stroke myself through my gym shorts. I pulled my dick out as I watched these two guys do each other, then one guy shot his load in the other guys mouth and I lost it shooting a massive load all over myself. It was the best orgasm I ever had in my life. I cleaned up the mess and laid on my bed with thoughts racing through my head. I became panicked as those thoughts were of Zane. What's happening to me, why is it that watching gay porn got me so excited? Could I have gay tendencies? The more I thought about it the more confused I became.
Just then Zane walked in looking so hot and it was at that moment that I realized that I was attracted to him. "Hey Jaxon, what's up, did you skip some classes today?" "No, no, I had a lite schedule." "Get your ass up and let's go for something to eat, I'm starved." With that said we headed to the burger joint getting into some good conversation as we always did. I loved being around him, we were a lot alike in so many ways. We talked about maybe getting an apartment together next year and I really liked the idea.
We got back to the dorm and started talking as we always did. "Hey Jaxon, have you thought about hooking up with any girls?" "Not really, why do you ask?" "Well, its just that I'm horny as hell, aren't you?" "I relieve myself by stroking the beast in the shower." "Oh, yeah I do too, but getting laid would be more stimulating." "Look Zane, don't let me stop you if you want to hook up with some chick." "Jax, I have an idea, why don't we watch some porn and we can jack off as we're watching." "Um....well, I don't know, isn't that a little gay." "Fuck no, its better than jacking off in the shower." "You have a point there, but I'm really kind of embarrassed." "Come on, it will be fun."
Zane pulled up some porn and we sat side by side. The video was of a girl sucking some guys dick and Zane was really getting into it and began stroking his cock through his shorts. I wasn't getting hard so much at the video but watching Zane play with his cock. "Man, can that chick give some great head." "I wouldn't know, I've never had a blowjob." "What, what, you've never had a blowjob?" "Nope, I got laid, but never a blowjob." "Fuck, dude you don't know what your missing." "Jax, lets get naked and stroke our cocks until we cum."
He pulled his shorts and boxers down revealing a nice thick cock, I nervously followed as he looked over at me: "Fuck you have a big cock Jaxon." He reached over and took my cock in his hand and I jumped. "Relax dude, this is fun." He continued stroking my cock which felt incredible. He took my hand placing it on his cock, the touch of it sent waves of excitement through my body. Touching another guy's cock was arousing something in me that I never felt before. "So, you've never had a blowjob?" "No I haven't." He got down on his knees taking my cock licking the head slowly, circling his tongue all around the corona, rubbing his tongue up and down that sensitive spot . "Fuck Zane, oh shit that feels so good." He continued working me as precum started gushing out in which he lapped up with his tongue. He then went down on me as my body began to tremble, the sensations were driving me over the edge. I told him that I was going to cum that he better pull off. He continued sucking me faster and faster and I tensed then shot rope after rope of cum into his mouth. He continued sucking me getting every drop, my cock popped out of his mouth as he just looked up at me. He got up and started jerking off and within seconds shot his load all over my cock. He got back down and sucked his cum off my cock like he was having a heavenly dessert.
I sat there frozen at what had happened and then got up to clean myself. We were quiet and then I said: "Zane, are you gay?" "Well, I wouldn't say gay, but maybe bi....I have had sex with other guys and I have discovered that no one can give a blowjob as good as another guy....did you like it?" "Yeah it was something that I never experienced before." We didn't talk much after that, I just said I was going to bed. As I laid there my thoughts were of what happened and I felt guilty with feelings that it wasn't cool what we did.
The next morning I just laid there thinking more of what happened. "Hey Jax, are you awake?" "Yeah I am" "Are you upset with what happened last night?" "No I'm not upset Zane, I just feel guilty and I don't think I want it to happen again." "That's cool, but we are still friends?" "Of course we are, lets just forget it."
We never talked about it again, but what happened that night never left my mind.
I began watching more and more gay porn, the more I watched the more I began to realize that I might be gay. It didn't seem to bother me as much as it originally did. I loved watching two guys fucking, it aroused me in ways that I never felt with a girl. I started to think that maybe it was the reason I wasn't all that attracted to girls.
We finished the year and then started hunting for an apartment. We approached our parents and they had no problem sharing the cost for the apartment. Our parents are wealthy, so all our needs were taken care of and we didn't have to get jobs as our folks wanted us to concentrate on our studies.
We found a great apartment with two bedrooms and we were really excited to be able to have so much room. We settled in and Zane and I really got along well.
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One night he told me he was having a friend that he had met come over and would most likely be spending the night. I just said: "Sure, its your apartment too." For some reason I felt jealous and it really bothered me.
It was a Friday....I walked into the apartment and Zane was sitting on the sofa with a guy. "Hey Jaxon, this is Bradley, he will be spending the night. "Cool, its nice to meet you Bradley." "I'm going to order pizza, then we can play some video games." "Good, I didn't feel like cooking."
We had fun playing games, drinking beer, but I noticed Bradley's attention was on Zane which made me feel a little left out. "Let's watch some porn." Zane set up his PC on the coffee table and I became uncomfortable as the video was of two guys fucking. Bradley said: "Fuck this is hot as hell." I didn't know what to do, I felt so uncomfortable.
I got up and told Zane I was going to the mall that I had something to do. He just looked at me and said: "I'm sorry Jaxon, I didn't even take into consideration your feelings. "No....um, it's fine, I really have to go to the mall."
I left and I was overcome with jealousy "what the fuck is wrong with me, these feelings I'm having are not who I am, but really who am I, having these feelings for Zane.
I came back to the apartment a few hours later, and it was quiet. Zane's bedroom door was closed and now I felt a loss, I wanted to be in that bedroom, I admitted to myself. I sat on the sofa and I could hear moans and verbal sexual explicit talk. I got up, went to my bedroom and closed the door. I couldn't sleep with all the shit going through my mind.
The next morning I woke up feeling lost, I didn't know who I was any more. I came out to the kitchen and started a pot of coffee. Zane came into the kitchen "Hey Jaxon, good morning, I wish you hadn't left last night." "You really didn't need me around Zane." "I sense that your upset." "Why would I be upset?" "Look, you were the one who said you didn't want anything sexual between us and I have respected that, but I have needs and we do share this apartment." "Just so you know Jax, I have come to the realization that I'm gay." "When did you realize that?" I've always liked having sex with guys, but now I know that I want more than just sex, I want to have a relationship with someone." "Oh, I see."
He came over to me....close. "I have this feeling that you were jealous of Bradley being here and I think you wished you had been in Bradley's place." I looked into his blue eyes and I was mesmerized, I couldn't say a word, as he grabbed me and kissed me. I tried to back off but he pulled me close to him, kissing me again, but this time I couldn't resist and kissed him back as the kiss became fueled with passion. He opened his mouth, I did the same as our tongues began to clash, a burning desire took over.
"I want you Jaxon, I have never stop wanting you and for the past year its been torture for me seeing your hot body every day filling me with desire for you." I began unbuttoning his shirt, removing it, then his jeans, he did the same to me. Now only in our briefs with huge bulges as our cocks were anxiously awaiting to be freed. Zane took my hand leading me to his bedroom, telling me to lay down as he removed my briefs, my cock at full attention. He crawled on the bed between my legs, licking my thighs, until he was at my balls which he took into his mouth as I moaned in pleasure. He worked his way up my cock engulfing it, then began sucking me as I was lost....lost in wonderment of having sex with this beautiful guy.
He told me to turn over and raise my ass which I did, I would have done anything he told me. He spread my legs and started massaging my ass cheeks, then holding them open he started licking around my cheeks. I had never been so turned on, his touch was enough to make me cum. Without any warning he dove into my asshole and I went crazy. "Oh fuck Zane, I never, never, never, oh geez, yes, keep going." I never felt anything like it"....he turned me over looked into my eyes "I want you Jax, I want to fuck you." "Do it, fuck me."
He got up grabbing some lube, applied some to my asshole and his cock. He raised my legs, placed his cock at my virgin hole and pushed in slowly. I grabbed onto the sheets, as I felt sweeping pain in my ass. "Fuck, it hurts." "Relax and push out babe." He passed my tight muscle then stopped, taking my cock stroking me. "Okay Zane, just go slow." He continued sliding into me, the fullness was overwhelming. Slowly the pain started to dissipate and I started to relax. He reached down kissing me with such affection and intimacy.... suddenly he began a slow steady thrust into me, he hit a spot and sensations raged through my body. "Oh yes, right there, fuck yeah, I want you, do it." He began a deep penetration as the bed kept bagging against the wall. and the more he gave me the better it felt. "Jax, oh babe, your so tight, so warm. does it feel good?" "Oh yeah, fuck me, please fuck me, deeper, I grabbed his ass pushing him into me as I became dazed with feelings like I never felt before with anyone. Zane reached down sucking up a huge pool of precum on my stomach then kissed me, our mouths hot and wet. "I can't hold off much longer, are you ready?" "Yes, fuck me, fuck me hard, give me that cock and your cum." "Oh my gawd, I'm cumming, fuck, yeeeeeeeeeeeees." "I'm cumming too, fuuuuuuuuck yeah."
I shot the most powerful load of my life, over my head on the headboard, in my hair, all over my face and lips. "Zane looked at me and started laughing. "Shit, that's some load you shot." He leaned down, licked the cum off my face then kissed me sharing my nectar. "Umm, its tastes good."
We laid there, holding each other as we came down from heaven. "Are you okay?" "I've never been better Zane and the funny thing is, I was never really into girls, but I was so naive that I thought looking at a guy was something that all guys do, maybe in a way I did know but refused to face it." We got up and jumped into the shower, he lovingly washed my body and I did his. We just kept looking at each other lost in the moment, both of us facing reality that something deep was happening between us. We toweled off and went sit in the living room.
"Sooo, what about Bradley?" "Bradley.... he meant nothing to me, it was just a piece of ass." "Are you sure Zane?" "I'm 100% sure." "What are you trying to say....you want me all to yourself?" "Yes, I think I do, I didn't take this lightly, there are feelings involved here." "Tell me more." "What I'm saying is.....I love you Zane." "Well fuck me, I love you too, have for a long time."
We studied hard and loved even harder. I got my first taste of Zane's cum and I was hooked as I couldn't get enough of him, I also got to fuck him, which took me to the moon and back. We were happy with feelings of love for each other that made me come to realize a lot about myself and happily faced the fact that I was gay.
We made a trip home to tell our parents and as shocked as they were, they offered us their support. We graduated with Zane pursuing a career in Computer Science and I in Financial Planning and Investments. After living in an apartment for a year we purchased our first home with the help of our parents.
Christmas arrived and Zane was like a kid, setting up our first Christmas tree. The fire was blazing in the fireplace, as we sat holding each other admiring the tree. "This is really our first special Christmas together." "Yes it is and I'm going to make it more special." I got up and went into the bedroom and got a small box that was wrapped in black paper with a red bow. I sat down and handed Zane the box. "What is this, its not Christmas morning?" "Its the right time, just open it." He carefully unwrapped the box and opened it as his eyes filled with tears. Inside were two matching platinum bands in which all he could do was stare, as the tears ran down his face. "Will you marry me Zane?" He looked into my eyes with so much love. "Yes....yes, I will marry you because you fill me with happiness, you are my soulmate, the guy that I want to spend the rest of my life with." We tried the rings on which fit perfectly. "This is it Jax, who would have ever thought that five years ago we would be sitting here planning a life together." "Yeah, its ironic isn't it, but I know how lucky I was when I walked into our dorm room that day, saw you sitting there, I can remember it like it was yesterday and I knew at that moment that something was going to happen between us."
The years passed and our 40th wedding anniversary was approaching. Zane had always wanted to visit France, especially Provence in Southern France and also Paris. One night after dinner we sat in the living room recalling old memories....I handed him an envelope "What's this?" he asked. "Open it" His eyes still had that fire in them as he started yelling "Yes, Yes, Yes, Paris, oh Jaxon you've got to be kidding." "No, I'm not kidding, its been your dream and what better time for me to make your dream come true than on our 40th wedding anniversary....I love you now as I have loved you all these years and hopefully many more to come." I got up, reached for his hand...."Now how about showing me how happy you are about our upcoming holiday." I took his hand laughing...."Jax, you're a dirty old man" as we walked into the bedroom.
Quote for Thought
"Our universe grants every soul a twin --- a reflection of themselves --- the kindred spirit --- and no matter where they are or how far away they are from each other --- even if they are in different dimensions, they will always find one another, this is destiny, this is love."
