Jason arrived home about 15 mins after the phone call with Mel. He was clearly exhausted, mentally and of course physically, from all of the events that had just transpired. The thoughts in his head were spinning around about a million miles an hour and he had no idea where to begin in processing everything that had just happened. While he knew that he had a thing for his best friend John, but he also loved Mel, so he thought.
It was dinner time at home and his parents were both sitting at the dinner table eating their dinner. While it wasn’t odd for Jason to come home late after practice, tonight he was later than usual and both his mom and dad, could tell something was off. “Hey son, how was practice?” His dad asked. “What?…oh yeah, umm practice, oh it was good the usual.” Jason answered. “I think I’m going to skip dinner tonight and head to bed, been a long day and I’m pretty tired.” Both his parents looked at him and told him goodnight and went back to eating their dinner.
Once upstairs in his room, Jason threw all of his stuff down on the floor and fell onto his bed. His head was still spinning and he was thinking to himself “what the fuck Jason!? What the fuck are you doing?” Right at that moment he heard his phone ding and light up from a text. Jason stared at the phone and wasn’t sure if he wanted to open it up and see who it was from. He was afraid of what the message might say, but he took a deep breath and let it out and grabbed his phone and opened the message. It was from John. He started to read it. “Hey man, ummm I don’t really know what else to say that we didn’t say already earlier, but I hope this doesn’t change anything between us. I really enjoy spending time with you and don’t want to ruin our friendship. Can we talk tomorrow, privately?” Jason took a deep breath and was thinking to himself that he would never want things to change between himself and his best friend…or did he? After today he was even more unsure as the secret was out. Their mutual attraction was no longer something the boys could hide from one another. And then there was Mel, his girlfriend of three years. While he loved her to death and was happy, so he thought, he had always had that feeling inside that something wasn’t quite “right” about himself, and after the past few days of the shower make out and then fucking their coach together, Jason was beginning to think otherwise. While Jason was sitting there thinking all of this, another text message came across from John. “Dude…are you there???” It snapped Jason back to reality and he starting to answer back. “Yeah, man I’m fine just tired. Yeah we can talk tomorrow. Just tell me when and where and I’ll be there. Mel is super pissed right now and I have no idea what she’s going to do. I’m scared she’s going to tell everyone what we did or maybe she won’t. I don’t know man. I need to get some sleep. So I’ll talk to you in the morning” and Jason hit send and set his phone back down to charge and laid his head down on the pillow and fell asleep.
The next morning Jason woke up to the sound of his alarm going off. He turned the alarm off and rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. Sitting up in his bed he replayed the events of the last few days in his head and felt like he was dreaming. Did he really make out with his best friend and did they really fuck their baseball coach? All things he would have to face head on today when he goes back to school. His phone dings and it’s a text from John. “Meet me by the baseball fields before school starts, please?” Jason thought here we go.
Jason arrived at school and parked his truck in the parking lot by the baseball fields and looked around and there sitting on the bleachers by one of the practice fields was John waiting for him to arrive. For the first time ever Jason was nervous and scared to talk to his best friend. After the events of the last few days he began to see John in another light. He always had that school boy crush and suppressed his feelings towards John in that way, way way way down. But not today. Today they were right there at the surface ready to be let out but Jason kept his cool while walking up to John.
While Jason was getting out of his truck, John was sitting there waiting. He secretly was hoping more would come of his and Jason’s extra curricular activities. He had been crushing hard on Jason since the first time they met back in middle school. The two became the best of friends and he never wanted to mess it up trying but when Jason returned his advances that day in the shower, John knew that there was a possibility in making Jason see him for more than just a friend. John was not out and neither was Jason. But John hadn’t had a steady girlfriend for the entire time in high school. He was crushing on his best friend. Only problem, well one of the problems, he chuckled to himself, was Jason’s girlfriend and then the fact that neither one of them were out in any way at all. But John was determined to figure all this out and see where Jason’s head was at. Yeah the having fun with the coach yesterday was fun and unexpected. But next time, and John sure hoped there would be a next time, that it would just be the two of them.
Jason walks up to John and can tell his best friend is deep in thought. “I wonder what he’s thinking about? He looks really deep in thought. God I hope we didn’t ruin anything. I don’t want to lose him.” “Hey man, good morning.” Jason tells John. John deep in thought snaps out of it, “hey bud, thanks for meeting me. I didn’t know what else to say yesterday and wanted to make sure we are ok. We are ok?…right?…” Jason stared back at his best friend and saw the look on John’s face that said he was genuinely worried but also there was something else there. “John, I promise we are ok. More than ok. You’re my best friend and we do everything together and you’re not going to lose me. We are good man. Promise.” “Jason can I ask you something and please be completely honest with me?” John said. Jason swallowed hard. He was scared where this was going. “Did you have fun? I mean yeah a threesome is always fun but I mean did you have fun when it was just the two of us?” Both of the young men sat there with looks of longing and were quiet. You could cut the tension with a knife. Jason was sitting there staring back at his best friend and the feelings that he had suppressed were bubbling up and he could tell he wasn’t going to be able to push them down much longer. “What am I doing? What about Mel? What about the team? What about everyone finding out what we did?” John asked Jason again “are you ok? I seem to have messed things up asking and I think now that the shower stuff was a mistake. I’m going to go to class…” With that said John went to get up and Jason grabbed his hand. “Wait!” Jason managed to get out of his mouth. John turned around and just stared at Jason. Both of them at that moment staring into eachother…they knew. They both knew that the other had feelings of more than just friends for the other one. They knew that they had crossed that line of no return. They knew that from the moment on nothing was going to be the same.
At that moment the bell rang and snapped both boys out of their stare down and made them realize they were going to be late for school. “Can I come over after school and we can finish this?” John asked Jason with a hint of shyness to his voice that Jason had never heard before. “Yes. Come over after practice and we can talk.” Jason answered back. “Cool, thanks.” John replied. They told eachother bye and went their separate ways to class. This is going to be the longest day ever Jason thought to himself as he let out a deep breath and started walking.
